my own endless night

every day im like ok im going to practice radical acceptance and then im like wait i literally can not accept this

what if you were in love with a man and he died and every night you had to go onstage and have your heart broken in a play he wrote about a widower played by you and because you're not sure what you're doing or if there's a meaning of life at all your life feels like a play you're just going through the motions of but the man you loved was a brilliant playwright so the world he created was colorful and complete and this is the only way you can experience your own grief and in a scene he wrote and cut from the play your character's dead with tells you that you have to try to move on but you can't wake up to that reality because (you can't wake up if you don't fall asleep) you haven't accepted the fact that it is your own real grief you're feeling in the first place. what then.

So There's This Open Wound At The Heart Of The Text

imagine hating me and it’s just me in my room evil and mean and deserving of your loath

no one talks abt how when you’re the worst you’ve ever been you begin to believe that the supermarket is a mystical place where if you find the right combination of groceries it will fix you

i need everyone to get into college football right now i am dying to talk about the texas tech situation. this is the kind of thing that will be referenced for the next 100 years. there will be documentaries and biopics about this.

update on this: texas tech is claiming that every school who has/is considering cancelling all contests is "afraid" that texas tech is better than them. what's funny about this is that sorsby's stats are average. he is not good enough for this kind of protection. many schools who have already cancelled or are considering it have much better quarterbacks than sorsby. also, texas tech's head coach had said that it's actually ok that sorsby bet against his own team because it "its not murder or assault."

the attorney general of texas has threatened to investigate the Big 12 conference if they sanction Texas Tech

what doesn’t kill you makes your nervous system more sensitive for the rest of your life

New and improved! Sad Wet Dog of a top is thinking about how he wants to hurt you but doesn't want to hurt you and the contradiction is slowly and steadily making him Lose His Whole Fucking Mind.

re-watching the original trilogy is great because you really get a sense for how weird luke skywalker is, just how quickly he becomes that weird AND how quickly he commits to it. Like he's honestly pretty chill in a new hope, but the absolute INSTANT he figures out he can move shit with his mind he goes full send on the cryptic off-putting bullshit. Walking around in full black robes, speaking in riddles, aura farming and backflipping whenever physically possible. He's clearly annoyed when he first meets yoda in empire, but he dismisses that pretty quickly in favour of ALSO becoming an over-dramatic space wizard. The combination of his two teachers being yoda and obi-wan kenobi and him being the son of anakin and padme creates the single most intense and fundamentally kind force sensitive perfectly embodying the heart of the jedi order whilst also serving egregious amounts of cunt and being bizarre to be around. He would have THRIVED as a jedi master during the high republic. he would have been every padawan's favourite and every other master's worst nightmare