Oi Oi Oi

Today I got into a fight with my dad about how he minimises my issues so I have a bad taste in my mouth about him as a human.

Today I got into a fender bender. Except it wasn’t that at all. We bumped bumpers in traffic. No damage, no injuries.

I've had 1 best friend before lets call him Raff. And I'm still friends with him. He's a moot's little brother. Duck's. But we were kids and that didn't last for various reasons. The big one being that I wanted to keep the innocentness of the childhood best friendship. So I felt like I could never talk to anyone about my big feelings. That changed very recently. I got into a relationship with a boy. Courage. I felt like I could tell him anything. Then that ended. A few people were/are there for the mess that is a breakup. That includes Raff, Jester, Duck, Lion (Duck's partner), Raff and Duck's mom, ect. But most importantly, Green

He dropped everything for me. Well not really cause he didn't have plans. and the day it happened he was in an intense air soft game so he didn't know till the next day. But like. He dropped life to be there for me. I've never had that happen. Hell my parents didn't even do that for me.

The day before I had my birthday party. We all cried in my basement after watching a movie. I hugged every guest there. Green gave me the best hug I've ever had in my life. The way he gave that hug... It felt so genuine. Like he genuinely loved me. I cant explain it. I told other people that night they gave good hugs. But they pail in comparison. I don't think Jesus would have given as good of a hug.

I cried today at work in combination of thinking about how he helped me through everything and how I don't get to hang out with him this Saturday like we do every week. ah man im gunna cry now