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You never should have signed up for this movie.

There were countless movies needing set medics in lovely, warm Los Angeles. Big movies full of Hollywood stars, with a proper catering department and assistants running around wanting to buy everyone coffee. Sets that you had been used to, where the majority of your job was dealing with heat exhaustion and dehydration. Yet here you were in Pennsylvania, freezing your ass off for some stupid stuntmen you briefly remember your roommate watching on TV. You weren’t even sure they were qualified stuntmen – just a bunch of stupid men who’d gotten quasi-famous from their MTV slapstick reality show.

You let your roommate, Kristeen, talk you into this when you first saw the listing in the office. You’d only taken a copy because you recognised the name from hearing “Hi, I’m Johnny Knoxville and welcome to Jackass,” so many times on those Sunday evenings when she co-opted the TV. But Kristy had called the number on your behalf, not wanting you to miss out on such a rare opportunity. She claimed that you being such a creature of habit was bad for you. That you had to get out there because you never did location shoots, instead opting to stay on set in Los Angeles whenever you could. Well, you were certainly out there now. 

Out there and absolutely, fucking freezing. 

It must have been below 30 degrees, and the coat you brought with you was barely keeping out the chill. You were used to Los Angeles, to it never really going below 50, to not needing more than your favourite pea coat that stopped just above your thighs. That pea coat was doing absolutely nothing for you. You’d tugged a hat down low over your head, shoved on some thick gloves you’d borrowed from April Margera when she noticed your lack of warm clothing, and even gone so far as to ask for the extra hoodies Bam Margera and Brandon DiCamillo had brought with them. And still, you were shivering. 

Johnny Knoxville and Ryan Dunn crashed their golf cart through one of the plastic animals set up around the mini-golf course. You winced as the pink flamingo went flying through the air and their golf cart wobbled, fearing that it would tip over and ultimately crush them beneath the weight. You’d found, in the first week or so of filming, that the boys didn’t really care if they got hurt. As long as it was funny. As long as the camera caught it. There were always cameras rolling, even when you were eating from one of the food trucks, just in case someone did something stupid enough to be worthy of being shown in this movie they were making. 

You didn’t really get it, but you were getting paid to stand here and watch them crash golf carts into one another, so you went along with it anyway. 

“We’re going back to the Margera's after we film this, right?” you asked Jeff Tremaine, the director and one of the creators of the original show, through chattering teeth. He chuckled, hands shoved deep into the pockets of his thick coat. Yours were stuffed under your armpits, though you were sure they were about to fall off. 

“You feeling the cold?” 

“Don’t tell me you aren’t.” You stamped your heavy boots against the frost-tipped grass, hoping the movement would spike some heat through your veins. Not really. The chill had already gotten in, and no amount of layers would help rid you of it. You just hoped April would let you drink all her coffee until your body returned to normal. “I’m used to LA. Why did you decide to film here first? In February? When it’s fucking freezing.” 

Jeff laughed loudly. Out there on the mini-golf course, Bam and Brandon almost threw Rake Yohn off the plastic dinosaur he was pretending to ride. “Easier to get all the Pennsylvania stuff out of the way before we go to Japan. Even if it is fucking freezing.” 

We did not include you. There was no reason to pay for you to go all the way to Japan when they weren’t going to be doing anything dangerous. Apparently. You were being left in Pennsylvania to look after Bam. Johnny laughed when you’d pouted about it in Jeff’s office and said: “Don’t worry, angel, we’ll be back trying to kill ourselves before you can miss us.” 

“Should have brought Ed here and taken me to Japan.” 

Jeff just laughed again and slung an arm over your shoulder to try to warm you up without saying as much. You’d known the Jackass crew for just under a month, and they were probably the most welcoming crew you’d been involved in, making you feel immediately invited under everybody’s wing to make your job somehow easier. One of the other medics, Ed, had taken you to meet everyone one by one, to high-five the boom mic and rig operators, to fist bump the guys that kept the cameras rolling, to shake hands with the legal team, to hug all the cast who acted as if you’d always been around. You couldn’t complain about any of them.  

Except for Johnny Knoxville. 

You could hear his laughter as they drove over too-deep dips in the golf course. You couldn’t believe the carts hadn’t tipped over yet, rocking back and forth, scuffed to hell, covered in broken pieces of plastic animals. It wasn’t like he didn’t make you feel welcome – rather, it was like he went out of his way to be too familiar with you. He was flirty, and loud, and touched you when you were least expecting it. Helping tug the hair out of the collar of your shirt, fingers grazing the bare skin of your neck, and giggling when you shivered under his touch. Leaning his arm on the top of your head because he always stood way taller than you. You were honestly surprised he hadn’t jumped at the chance to offer his hoodie when you complained about being cold, especially when he always slipped into his Southern gentleman role when you were around. 

You expected everything he did was a prank you were supposed to laugh about later. 

“Would April be mad if I drank all her coffee?” 

Before Jeff could reply, you watched the golf cart flip over. Ryan had been driving too fast over the short hill, and it had tipped as it bounced, sending him flying out of the driver’s seat. Johnny was stuck inside, his body tilted at an odd angle, his legs above his head. Exactly what you feared would happen. You raced over, Jeff on your heels, the chill forgotten as you heard people shouting not to move him, not to touch him. You still felt too far away, the frost slowing you down unless you slipped, and by the time you reached the tipped-over golf cart, Johnny was groaning. 

“You dead, Knoxville?” Jeff asked. 

“Not yet.” 

The damp grass soaked through the knees of your black jeans as you reached out to touch the back of Johnny’s neck. He winced and gingerly cranked an eye open, then the second one, and you were loath to admit he had very pretty eyes up close. 

“You an angel?” 

“If this is heaven, send me to hell. It’ll be warmer.” 

His wince cut off his chuckle. You got him to move his feet, then his fingers, and since everything seemed to be moving correctly, you got Jeff to help you move Johnny into a seated position. He blinked slowly, dazed, and you held the pen light you always kept in your pocket up to his eyes, checking his vision wasn’t impaired. He was the perfect patient while you slogged through all the tests to make sure his neck wasn’t injured, that he hadn’t broken any limbs, that he was in no severe distress. He was quiet, only wincing when you touched a spot that would most likely bruise in the next few days, and never argued with a single order you gave him. 

Quite frankly, he almost seemed to like being ordered about. 

“Does it still hurt?” 

“Just the usual pain, nothing killer.” 

“Good. I think you’ll be fine. Here–” You held your hand out, and Jeff slammed a bottle of water into it, which you then handed to Johnny. “–keep drinking fluids. I think you’re just a little dazed, but it doesn’t look like a concussion or anything. No neck injury either.”   

“Are you done, then?” he asked after he gulped down some water. He blinked up at you and purposely jutted out his bottom lip in a pout. As if he wanted you to keep running your hands all over his body. “I don’t get a kiss to make it feel better?” 

“I wouldn’t dare. That’s a totally experimental procedure I’m just not comfortable doing out in the field.” 

Johnny laughed. That loud laugh of his that seemed to ring right from the depths of his stomach. You had to admit it had a way of infecting the people around him, including you, and you struggled to stifle the smile that started to break through. He tugged on a loose strand of your hair. 

“Thank God you’re around to patch us up, angel.” 

You twisted away before he noticed the blush that swallowed up your face. He would have just laughed louder, alerted everybody’s attention to the fact that calling you angel was enough to make your face such a pretty colour, and it’s all you would ever hear for the rest of filming. Scrambling away from him, you suddenly felt the chill of your damp knees after having kneeled in the frost for so long, and you knew you’d never be able to get rid of it until you stood beneath the steaming hot shower of your hotel room. Even then, you were sure you’d still feel it, like an itch under your skin, the inkling of cold you couldn’t forget. 

You were still shivering as you helped pack the gear away into the two crew vans. Rick Kosick, one of the cameramen, noticed your shaking hands and handed over the small hand warmer he’d been using throughout the shoot. It had cooled a little, but it was still warmer than the air, and you held it between your gloved hands as you scrambled into the backseat of the van. You huddled in the corner, hands against your chest like the small hand warmer could spread heat throughout your body, and were incredibly thankful when another, warmer body pressed against your side. 

“You’ll heat up eventually,” Johnny said, wrapping an arm around your shoulder to pull you closer into him. 

“Eventually is too far away.” 

Another laugh, and you had to turn your head away, so he couldn’t see the way you blushed so easily at something as simple as a warm sound. He played with your hair as if he didn’t even realise he was doing it, while he leaned forward to talk to Bam sitting in the row in front. Ryan, next to Bam, turned at just the right moment to catch your eye and wink, and then he twisted back around to continue his conversation with Rake. You didn’t have time to question the wink, and you didn’t particularly want to pay close attention to the way that Johnny was twirling your hair around his finger, nor the way it made your stomach twist just enough to be noticeable. So, you stared out the window and leaned into his warmth, and tried to think about the hot shower waiting for you at the motel instead of how solid he felt beneath you. 

If this was a prank, you wondered where they hid all the cameras. 

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When the boys got back from Japan, the rest of you could return to business as usual in Los Angeles. 

You flew back from Pennsylvania with Bam, leaving the rest of his buddies in his hometown, and had never been more grateful to have a roommate than the moment you got home to find Kristy had left a welcome home gift waiting for you in your bedroom. A new coconut-scented candle to light, a collection of face masks to relax with, bath salts, and a bottle of wine to crack open. You spent just over an hour in the bath that night, drinking wine straight from the bottle, listening to your favourite music on the CD player you tugged through, and letting the face mask soak into your skin and get rid of all the blemishes from travelling. By the time you returned to set on Monday, you were thoroughly relaxed.

The Jackass crew undid all your hard work by midday. 

You were pretty sure they enjoyed causing you stress. Half of their pranks were just their way of trying to send you over the edge with worry while they laughed them all off. Renting cars just to crash them, using Bam and Ryan as human bowling balls, constantly trying to crush each other’s testicles in more dangerous and creative ways. You’d slowly started getting used to it, but it didn’t stop you thinking the worst was going to happen every time you heard one of them cackling in the distance. 

In the rare chance you got a moment to yourself, you always brought a book with you to set. 

“Coffee?” 

You twisted your head up, letting your thumb hold your place in your book, to find Johnny standing over you with two coffees in hand. The shitty coffees that came from the huge urn in the craft tent that you all gulped down, even though it was too bitter and no amount of creamer could mask the taste. 

“Sure, thanks.” You took it from him and smiled after your first sip. He remembered your creamer. You didn’t think Johnny had taken any notice of the coffee you drank. 

Johnny took the camp seat next to you, pulling it close enough that your knees knocked together. He just had long legs. He was bound to do that all the time. “Hey, nice shirt.” He nodded to the random t-shirt you’d thrown on in a rush that morning – you were never late to anything, but your clock decided to skip your alarm entirely, and you were forced to rely on Kristy – and you glanced down at it to check what it was. The shirt you’d gotten from the last Smashing Pumpkins concert you went to at the Virgin Megastore a couple of years ago, when they played Tonight, Tonight, and you cried, because that was your favourite song. You weren’t going to tell Johnny that, though.  

“Thank you. I saw them a couple of years ago–”

“At the Virgin Megastore? Yeah. I was there. It was good. Cried like a fucking baby when they sang Tonight, Tonight. I love that song.” 

You hid your smile in your coffee cup and dropped your eyes to the fading blue Woody Woodpecker shirt he wore. Everything you learned about Johnny Knoxville surprised you more and more, though there was a certain warmth that spread through your chest when you realised you weren’t so different, after all. That the same song could move you both to tears. That you stood in the same room and let the same music reach you. 

“You know.” He scrunched up his face like he was just remembering something. “I went home with some girl that night. She looked an awful lot like you–”

“Shut up, Knoxville,” you laughed, reaching over to smack your book against his knee. You’d lost the page, but you’d find it again. It wasn’t the first time you’d read The Joy Luck Club, anyway. His laughter rang around you, loud and unrelenting, confident in every little thing he did. 

Johnny was an easy person to get to know. He could talk about himself for hours, not in the way you usually found obnoxious, but in the way that asking the right question could set him off on a tangent with a million different storylines, finally reaching one conclusion. He’d laugh off difficult topics to keep the tension from growing and make sure nobody was sitting bored out of their minds. Every break you had, he’d find you. He’d ask you questions you couldn’t wiggle your way out of, and involve you in conversations he was having with the guys even if you were standing on the other side of the set. Johnny never let you be bored, mostly because he didn’t like being bored. You were still waiting for his attention to be one big prank that they’d use in the final scene of the movie. 

And he told stories pretty well. 

“He did not!” 

Johnny nodded wildly, laughter trickling from his mouth. Even you couldn’t hold back your giggles. “Hand on my heart, I ain’t joking, angel. Dave put the muscle stimulator on his gooch.” 

“Why would he do that?” 

“Why do we do anything around here?”

You doubled over with laughter, somehow able to perfectly picture a completely nude Dave England with a muscle stimulator stuck to his perineum. Already, you’d seen all the guys naked at least once. It was something you’d had to grow comfortable with. Almost always, one of them was stark naked for one reason or another, usually a prank, usually because they just liked whirling their dicks around and laughing about it. You’d stopped blushing after the first five times you’d walked in on one of them with their cock and balls facing you. 

“Wanna guess what Chris did?” 

“Oh, God. I don’t think I need to guess.” You laughed so hard your hand flew out to keep you from falling out of the camp chair. When it landed on Johnny’s knee, you didn’t even notice, too busy giggling, too busy having fun to feel embarrassed. And Johnny didn’t shake you off. If anything, he leaned closer, like he couldn’t quite get enough of your touch. 

It was always the same after a stunt, too. He’d lean into your touch even when you were focusing on the bruises blossoming across his chest, and you never noticed the soft way his expression crumbled as he watched you. 

“Right on his balls.” 

“No!” 

“And I’m pretty sure he liked it.” 

With your laughter joining in the air, loud and easy to get lost in, Johnny curled his hand around yours on his knee. You noticed – how could you not? – but you didn’t pull away, just continued to laugh, just continued to lean closer, and enjoy this rare moment of peace with Johnny Knoxville. You dropped your head onto the tip of his shoulder as you tried to catch your breath, and for a moment, it was like you’d been doing this forever. Like you and Johnny had been laughing together since childhood. It was easy. It was nice. 

You’d stopped expecting a camera to appear out of nowhere to capture the moment your forehead touched his shoulder. They were all too focused on whatever stupid shit Steve-O and Wee Man were laughing about in the distance, and you didn’t have to worry that the way Johnny smiled down at you was just a joke. 

It didn’t feel like a joke, anyway. 

You lifted your head from his shoulder, and you were close, so much closer than you expected to be. He smelled like bitter coffee, sweat, and the last remnants of cigarette smoke, and usually you’d have cringed away from any man who smelled like that, but it surprisingly suited him. And it made you want to lean even closer, even though it didn’t seem possible to get any closer. You’d tangled your feet under the camp chairs, and you were pretty much holding hands, and as the laughter drifted away in the air, you realised this was the closest you’d ever been to him without an injury as an excuse. 

“You know, I never noticed how pretty your eyes are until now,” he said. All you could manage in return was a nervous giggle, the smallest quirk of your lip that forced his gaze down to your mouth. 

You had a strict no-fraternising-at-work policy. 

You were most likely going to break it any day now. Even if it was a prank, it’d be worth it just to have Johnny kiss you right now. To have him lean forward and curl his hand around your jaw, to press his lips to yours and steal your breath away, to have you in the strange way you’d been dreaming about for weeks now. 

“Medic!” You heard over the noise, and the moment dissipated in a breath, running down the drain as you and Johnny leaned away from each other. You grabbed your backpack and raced away, before either of you could apologise, before you could really feel the sudden swell of disappointment trying to break through your chest. 

Johnny Knoxville watched you walk away. 

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This was an incredibly stupid idea. 

Which you had told Johnny over, and over, and over again on the drive over to the shooting range that A.L.S. Technologies used to test their products. One of which they were testing on Johnny that very day. He just laughed off every single one of your concerns, and you should have felt better that he wasn’t worried, that he was going to take it all with a smile on his face, but you could just imagine the injuries a projectile could cause. 

He was going to get himself killed. 

“All right.” Johnny rocked on his heels in front of the camera. You stood back with some of the other crew members, and you seemed to be the only one feeling tense. They must have been used to seeing how much the cast could cheat death. “We’re here in the valley today to do our own little riot control test. This is George Hruska.” Johnny motioned to the man standing next to him. “All right, George, what do you do and what are we doing here today?” 

George Hruska looked a little awkward on camera. “Well, I’m Vice President of Operations with A.L.S. Technologies. We manufacture less-lethal ammunition. We’re one of the top manufacturing companies in the United States. And we’re going to shoot you with one of our projectiles.” You flinched. You could already see the bruising it would cause, in the best-case scenario. Beyond that, it could be lethal. “It’s called the Pen-Prevent. It’s a 40-gram, tail-stabilised bag. It’ll be travelling about 250 feet per second.” 

“Is that lethal?” 

“It’s considered less lethal.”

The cameras kept rolling as George helped Johnny into a chest protector. The Velcro made that awful scratchy noise you hated as he attached the sides, leaving just enough of his t-shirt showing around his belly. Some of the crew laughed as Johnny stepped into the protective diaper that’d protect his cock and balls from the projectile, but your humour got caught in your throat. 250 feet per second was fast. Fast enough to damage some internal organs. Before taking this job, the worst thing you dealt with was a broken ankle after a stuntman fell in the wrong place. 

“So, this morning I thought I was taking it in the chest with the beanbag projectile,” Johnny said to the camera. “But George and his company said ‘no way’. ‘Cause if it hits me in the heart, I’m pretty much done with.” 

George drew a target on the sliver of Johnny’s white t-shirt that showed between the thick pieces of protective gear. You didn’t like that it was drawn right over his navel. You didn’t like that you had to stand there and watch all this go down. 

“So we want to take every single precaution necessary to help protect your vital organs.”  

“Where are my intestines? Are they in that area?” 

“I think so.” 

“Awesome.” 

You groaned. “Not awesome.” Eyes flicked to you. Usually, you were one of the quieter members of the crew. You got on well enough with all of them, though you weren’t one of the ones to speak out. You usually just watched all the silly pranks and stunts go down with a laugh, and they never made you get involved. You’d only thrown up once, unlike Lance, who you were sure must have been sick every single day since you’d met him. He wasn’t good with any of the bodily fluid pranks the boys liked doing. 

“If you perforate your intestines, you’ll need surgery,” you told Johnny, planting your hands on your hips. The action made the hem of your long-sleeved shirt ride up, and you caught the way Johnny’s eyes flicked to the sliver of skin showing. Just the briefest moment. “And I’ll ask them to open you up so you’ll always have a scar to remind you of your stupidity.” 

When Johnny smirked, you were sure the cameras would have caught the way it made you feel. The way it made your stomach flip and your body suddenly feel too warm. The way it would be burned into your brain as you tried to fall asleep that night. 

“It’s so sexy when you use big words I don’t know.”

You jabbed him in the ribs with your elbow when he got close enough, and he doubled over, the breath knocked out of him by the suddenness of your hit. “Imagine that. But ten times worse.” 

“Don’t you have a code against stuff like that?” 

You shrugged off Johnny’s question as he leaned against the wall beside you. Even slouched, he was taller than you. He was taller than most people, you realised fairly quickly, towering over everyone and never trying to appear smaller, never trying to fold in on himself so that people would stop looking at him. Johnny didn’t mind being taller than everyone. Actually, he seemed to enjoy leaning on everyone’s heads. Including yours. He let his elbow rest on your crown, and when you tried to push him off, he just put it right back, laughing to himself, unbothered by your annoyance. So, you just left him be and watched George take a practice shot against the paper target. The beanbag shot a straight hole through the target, smacking against the wall behind it with a heavy thud that made your stomach churn. You felt sick just watching, but when Johnny’s arm slid off your head, you noticed how much paler he looked. It was as if the reality of the stunt had just hit him. 

“Should I remind you how much of an idiot you are?” you asked, just as he pushed himself away from the wall. 

“No need, angel, I’m fully aware.” 

In his defence, Johnny didn’t even flinch when the gunshot reverberated around the room. Not that he really had time to flinch with the speed the beanbag went flying towards him, hurtling into the side of his stomach and sending him down to the ground with an aching groan. It was the first time nobody had held you back from racing forward, and you were just thankful that Johnny was still able to roll around. At least it wasn’t completely lethal. 

He whimpered as you reached out towards him, fingers grazing the spot the beanbag hit. You ignored how much you liked that sound. It was definitely not what you should have been thinking about, not when you could see that Johnny was totally blinded by the pain. 

“Angel, that you?” 

“You’re not in heaven yet, Knoxville.” 

And despite the pain bouncing around his body like he’d just been hit by a twelve-ton truck, Johnny Knoxville still managed a smile. 

You checked him over as much as you could, and when he was able to sit up without fainting or vomiting, you checked him again, pretty certain that no vital organs had been damaged. Once again, he was the perfect patient as you ran your hands over his body, checking the bruising, the areas with the most pain, for anything broken. He was as obedient as most children you encountered back when you were an ED nurse, though he whimpered more than you were expecting. 

You did not like that you liked it. 

Once he was back on his feet, George helped him out of his protective gear, and Johnny made Lance bring the camera closer to show off the bruise that had already formed on his stomach. All the crew winced at the sight of it, and you knew it would only get bigger before it started to heal. 

You slowly reached out to prod it gently, and Johnny shuddered, as if he had felt it careening all around his body. 

“At least you won’t need surgery.” 

“Shame.” Johnny pouted again. “I think I’d look pretty rad with a new scar.” 

“A new scar?”

Johnny had to lean down to meet your eyes. “Just wait ‘til you see the one on my ass.”

This time, you were the one to laugh. You missed the way his face brightened. You weren’t to know that he’d been waiting all day just to make you laugh, that over the course of a few months he’d gotten used to the sound echoing around the set, waiting on the other side of the camera as he did something stupid without getting hurt. You were the first one to laugh when he showed up with a patch of his hair shaved, nearly doubled over every time you accidentally moved to that side of him. He’d have shaved the whole damn thing off if it made you laugh like that again. But you hadn’t even smiled since he told you about this particular stunt. 

Had you really been that worried about him?

Two days later, the bruise was double the size, and the camera lingered on the soothing way you rubbed arnica cream onto it without knowing they were watching. It lingered even longer on the way Johnny’s gaze softened as he watched you. 

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You were way overdressed. 

When the boys had asked you to come to drinks that night after work, you hadn’t expected the bar to be some dingy, hole-in-the-wall without even a sign to tell you you were in the right place. All you had to go on was the muffled rock music filtering through the door, the crowd of smokers near the entrance, and the hopefully correct directions Chris had given you. 

Chris Pontius had invited you when you were soothing the bruise on his cheek, after a civilian had taken his Party Boy bit too seriously. He said they all wanted to see you come out of your shell a bit more, to see the type of woman behind the first aid backpack you lugged around with you everywhere, and that they were all going for drinks anyway, so you might as well come, too. So you were here, after a gruelling two hours trying to dress to impress, and the place looked like it should have been bulldozed back in the eighties. How did they even find this shithole? 

You pushed open the door, and heads twisted towards you. It was just as seedy inside. Liquor-sticky carpet, dim lights that hadn’t been dusted in years, pool tables in the corner, a darts board against the wall, and a bartender who looked like he’d just come out of WWE. You shuffled on your black mules in front of all those eyes. Definitely overdressed. Usually, if you and Kristy went out for drinks, your pink top with the ¾ sleeves that hung low on your breasts and the black midi skirt that clung to your hips was the perfect outfit. Not here. Not with all these men in this seedy place that stunk of yeasty beer and smoke. 

“Our medic!” Chris bounded over to you, and you realised that instead of going home after the shoot like you did, the boys had all come here. All of the main cast were spread around the bar, cut off into little groups, with drinks in hands and voices rising over the music. Some of the crew had even come, Jeff and Rick, mingling, drinking, enjoying themselves. 

Chris caught you around the waist and tugged you upwards into a hug. He was always the first person every morning to hug you. It had turned into him spinning you around, like he was genuinely excited that you were there to keep them from killing themselves, and that usually alerted the rest of the crew to your presence. You couldn’t say you hated it. 

“How are you feeling?” you asked when he finally put you back down on your feet. The bruise had blossomed across his cheek, a deeper purple than it was just a few hours ago, already tinged yellow around the edges. You reached up to touch it gently, and he winced away. 

“Forget about me,” he said, and grinned like that would magically make your worry disappear. “Look at you.” Chris’ hands on your waist tightened, and his eyes roamed your body in one quick flick. “I mean, fuck, you look like a…” 

“A model?” 

“No,” he laughed. “Like a really fucking sexy teacher.” And it made you laugh too, suddenly and completely out of the blue. You’d never heard that before. Chris had a strange way of making you feel comfortable, even in a place where your peep-toe mules were starting to stick to the carpet, so you let him lead you towards the bar. You passed men in thick biker jackets who didn’t even try to hide their staring, men in construction workers’ orange who at least pretended to be more subtle with it, and a man who sat by himself in a wife-beater and didn’t raise his eyes from the countertop. 

You slid onto the bar stool next to the tall, dark-haired guy wearing a Smashing Pumpkins t-shirt. The same one you owned. 

“Copying me now, Knoxville?” you teased, eyes flicking down to his shirt. 

He chuckled around the rim of his beer bottle. “Let’s just say you inspired me, angel.” Chris ordered the three of you drinks. Two beers for them and a Jack Daniel's with Coke for you. The bartender, who hadn’t smiled once since you walked in, even added a straw to your drink and only nodded at your timid thank you.

“Hey, Johnny, doesn’t she look good? Too good for a dump like this.” 

“Man, you should’ve told her what this place was like when you invited her.” 

“Well, how was I supposed to know she was gonna try to outdo me?” 

“Oh, Chris, I couldn’t outdo you if I tried.” 

He nodded, smug, and pressed a rather sloppy kiss to the apple of your cheek. You rubbed away the kiss as his laughter followed him across the room, to the pool table occupied by Ryan, Ehren, Jeff, and Preston. Nearby, Bam and David were trying to throw darts at Wee Man standing on a bar stool in front of the dart board, and Steve-O was showing Rick how to draw something on a coaster with his dick. 

Johnny’s elbow touched yours, gently, and your head snapped towards him. “You didn’t need to dress up for lil’ ol’ me,” he joked. But with the way his eyes slowly dragged down your body and back up, catching on the low neckline of your stretchy top, you couldn’t be so sure it was a joke. Your leg crossed the other, and the hem of your skirt slid up just enough to show off the skin above your knee. His eyes caught the motion and stuck for a moment too long to be casual. 

“I would’ve just worn jeans if I knew.” 

“Glad you didn’t.” 

It hung in the air for a beat longer than you were expecting, the way he stared at you, the way you stared back, the way you could so easily drown out the rest of the bar to focus on his hand slowly inching across the bar top towards yours. Your pinky stretched out and met his, and it stuck. Neither of you moved. 

“How’s your stomach?” you asked, because you felt you had to say something. If you and Johnny just sat there in silence, staring at one another, one of the boys was going to notice. 

“Aching. Every time I move, I can feel that fucking beanbag.” 

You huffed a laugh, and he watched your smile curl upwards. His head tilted, just a little, and you stopped yourself from following the movement. Whatever had gotten into you, you’d have to shake off. The no fraternisation at work policy was there for a reason, so that when things inevitably went wrong, you didn’t have to worry about how awkward it would be the next day. You’d stuck to it ever since you were seventeen, and you weren’t going to break it for Johnny Knoxville. Even though he had pretty eyes and a million-watt smile, and made you feel seen when you’d gotten so used to being invisible. 

Even though you really did want to break your streak for Johnny Knoxville. 

“Hey, medic, you ignoring the rest of us?” Bam threw his arm around your shoulders from behind and pulled you back into his chest, a sort of half-hug you’d gotten used to with him. Usually, Bam opted for fist bumps, but every so often, he’d throw his arm around your shoulder if he was really pleased with a stunt. 

“Sorry. Had to make sure Knoxville hadn’t succumbed to his wounds yet.” 

“I’m alive and kicking, angel.” Your eyes flicked to him and found that warmth had flooded his gaze. You were never going to make it out of this movie without kissing him. Kristy was already convinced you should sleep with one – if not all – of them. 

“You any good at pool?” Bam asked you. You shrugged; it’d been so long since you’d tried that you couldn’t really remember if you were any good. “Good at darts?” This time you shook your head, and he grinned so widely you were taken aback. “Good. I think you might be the one to finally hit Wee Man. C’mon.” He took you by the hand and led you over to the dart board, where Steve-O and Chris had joined in on the silly darts competition that meant throwing darts at Wee Man and complaining when he moved out of the way before they hit him. 

You nursed your drink as you moved into place beside Steve-O, arm knocking against his in casual greeting, but your head twisted around, finding Johnny still in his seat, ordering drinks for him and Jeff, who’d taken your seat in your absence. He didn’t turn to look at you until you’d already turned away. 

The rest of the night went like that. You flicked from group to group, and Johnny’s eyes trailed after you. You threw darts at Wee-Man, and luckily missed every shot, and Johnny watched from the bar with Jeff. You took shots with Chris and Steve-O that made your head swim and your eyes sting, and Johnny pretended to focus on the jukebox in the corner, though he couldn’t when he could hear your laughter in every corner of the room. When Ehren and David danced with you to Outkast’s Ms Jackson, Johnny’s dart almost got lodged in Rick’s arm.

It wasn’t until you gave the pool table a go that he decided to step in.  

Bam and Ryan had doubled over with laughter as you struggled, over and over, to get the white ball to go anywhere. You threw your hands up, giggling from the alcohol that had already flushed your skin, and reminded the boys, once more, that you really could not play. The last time you’d played pool, you were a teenager. The last time you were even near a pool table, you were twenty-one, and all you remember was the guy in your college class who’d fucked you on top of it. 

“Guys, I’m being serious; I’ll never be able to do this.” 

“Nonsense.” 

Johnny leaned his hip against the table, arms crossing over his chest, and you couldn’t tear your gaze away from the muscles straining in his biceps. He wasn’t as toned as Chris, but there was something about Johnny’s arms, about the sliver of stomach you saw as his shirt rode up, that made your mouth completely dry up. You remembered the last time you’d been on a pool table, the way your skimpy shorts had ridden up as he’d lifted you onto the edge. For a moment – a moment too long – you could imagine Johnny Knoxville doing the exact same thing.  

“I’ll teach you.”

“You’ll teach me?” 

“Sure will. I could’ve gone pro, but I had different dreams.” You giggled and didn’t notice until it was too late that Johnny had come up behind you. “Now the key is to get down nice and low.” His voice filled your ear, and then he was invading every one of your senses. His hands curled around your hips to manoeuvre you into place around the pool cue, and he used the pressure of his chest against your back to press you against the pool table. Your breath stuttered as his jeans brushed against you. “That way you can see exactly what you’re doin’.” You liked his accent when it was so close to you, when he was breathing against the shell of your ear. You were just glad you hadn’t drunk enough to make you completely stupid. His right hand slid yours up to the end of the cue, and his left pressed yours flat against the green felt of the pool table to work as a stand for the cue. “And now, you use just the right amount of pressure.” He helped with your first shot, and the white ball went pinging around the table. You didn’t even have it in you to smile. Not when you could feel his bulge pressing against the swell of your ass, not when his hands were still holding yours in place, not when he was sure to feel how hard your heart was beating. 

He helped with your second shot, then your third, and finally let you go when your legs were shaking so much you didn’t think they could hold you up. You potted a red ball, and the boys all cheered for you, and you had to tack on a smile so they didn’t see how much Johnny had affected you. 

“You did it,” you said to him, clutching the cue so hard you were pretty sure it would snap. 

“Nuh uh, angel, that was all you.” 

He left you to your match, and even though you lost, you couldn’t find it in you to care. Not when your heart hadn’t calmed down. Not when you could still feel his hands on yours. Not when every time you turned your head, he was already watching you, his lips curled around the rim of his beer bottle, his irises almost fully swallowed up by the dark pit of his pupil. 

When he disappeared outside for a smoke, you followed. 

It’d gotten dark. You hadn’t noticed. Inside that dingy bar with the sticky carpet and grimy lights, time seemed to pass by in the blink of an eye. You could’ve been in there from dawn to dusk and back again, and you never would’ve noticed until you stumbled out holding your heels in your hand and needed to find a bush to throw up in. When did it start raining? You hadn’t heard it over the music pounding too loud inside, but the ground was damp, and the rainwater slipped over your hair. It was just a drizzle, you realised, but enough for it to make you shiver. 

“P.J?" 

His head lifted. He'd told you to call him that months ago, but you never had. He liked the way it sounded on your lips. His cigarette hung between his teeth, and he’d cupped his hand around his lighter to keep the flame from flickering out before it could light the end of it. Your mules click-clacked against the damp asphalt parking lot, and when you reached him, he was blowing out his first inhale. The smoke fluttered in your face, and usually you treated smokers polluting your personal air with disdain, but it was undeniably hot when Johnny Knoxville did it. 

“You should go back inside, angel. It’s raining.” 

“I know. Never kissed anyone in the rain before.”

His hand froze before his cigarette could reach his lips. And then it fell, crushed beneath his Converse as he surged forward to take your face in his hands. He kissed you like he’d been waiting for the confirmation that you wanted this too. He kissed you like he couldn’t breathe if it wasn’t your lungs he was stealing oxygen from. He kissed you, and you never wanted it to stop. 

Your hands fisted the fabric of his unbuttoned plaid shirt to help you lean closer, to press your chest against his, to deepen the kiss beyond what you could expect. His tongue flicked against your lips, and you let him into your mouth without him even having to beg, letting his tongue map every nook and cranny of your mouth while you whined and pressed closer. The rain fell around you in a heavier sheet, now. You didn’t notice. Not as his fingers got caught in the tresses of your hair. Not as you finally got your first taste of cigarette smoke on his lips, mixed with vodka, and whiskey, and whatever that was he had been taking shots of with Chris. 

Finally, you had to pull away, just to remember what it felt like to breathe fresh air. You were both soaked through by the rain, hair plastered to your heads, clutching each other like you couldn’t bear to be apart for longer than a second. Johnny combed the wet hair from your forehead so he could rest his forehead there instead. He smiled as your noses bumped. 

“I don’t usually do this with people I work with,” you mumbled. Your lips ghosted his, and he smiled so widely it was hard not to copy him. 

“Love being someone’s first.” 

You laughed, and so did he, and it didn’t matter that it was raining, that your top had definitely gone a little see-through, that everyone knew why you’d followed Johnny outside. Because when Johnny kissed you again, and again, and again, nothing mattered but the feeling of finally getting what you’d been dreaming of every night for months.

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The jacuzzi was just on the nice side of warm. 

“I haven’t even finished packing yet.” Kristy tilted her head back against the side of the jacuzzi. Her straightened jet black hair was up in a top knot to keep it from getting wet and turning curly, and she wore a red bikini that brought out the richness of her dark brown skin. She was also, to your consternation, the most laid-back person you had ever met, and never let a simple thing like packing for Hawaii get in the way of relaxing in the jacuzzi with you on the rare occasion you shared a day off. 

You swirled red wine around the plastic wine glasses you’d brought down from your apartment. “You leave tomorrow. At, like, six am.” 

“I know. It’ll take me no time at all to pack. Don’t worry, doll.” 

You always worried about her. You’d known Kristy for six years, not long after you’d both turned twenty, and she’d moved from Wichita to Los Angeles to be a model. You’d met her when she was on the hunt for an apartment, having couch-surfed for over a month while everywhere that caught her eye was out of her price range, full of mould, or falling apart. You’d just moved into your apartment and were looking for someone to take over the extra room to help you pay the rent while you trained to be a nurse. Kristy needed her own bed, and you needed help splitting the bills, and ever since then, she’d been yours to worry about. You hated her model friends and the eating disorders they carried everywhere, and you hated her model boyfriends who drank all your orange juice and left their tiny underwear hanging around your bathroom. And, fortunately, Kristy hated modelling. 

Now, she was the busiest wedding photographer in Los Angeles. 

“I can help you pack.” 

“You’re meant to be relaxing on your day off, remember. Your blood pressure is probably through the roof on that set.” 

“God, don’t remind me. If I went for a checkup, the doctor would admit me to the hospital immediately.” 

You tilted your head back, too, trying to focus on the massaging effect of the bubbles and the calming heat helping to slowly relax your muscles as you submerged yourself deeper and deeper. You drank red wine in the middle of the afternoon and enjoyed the faintest hint of music coming from Mrs Palermo’s piano lessons. She lived below you and Kristy, overlooking the complex pool, and usually you complained about the piano lessons, especially when the younger kids were clearly just mashing their hands against the keys, but this was nice. She must have had one of her more experienced tutees in. One of her proteges, as she liked to call them. 

“So what is it actually like on set? It looks like the most fun a normal person can have, but for you.” Kristy lowered her sunglasses just enough to pierce you with her brown eyes. “I’m surprised you didn’t quit when they flew you out to Pennsylvania. You hate the cold.” 

“I almost froze to death, but I didn’t hate it.” You took a sip of wine. You liked spending your days off with Kristy, relaxing in the jacuzzi, or window shopping on Rodeo Drive knowing you couldn’t afford anything, or taking your coffees to go so you could stretch your toes in the sand. And you liked going back to work knowing Johnny Knoxville was waiting for you. “It’s actually a lot of fun.” 

“You’re having fun at work?” Kristy’s mouth dropped open in faux-shock, and you shoved her, mumbling a shut up while her laughter bubbled in the air between you. You rarely had fun on sets, that was true, far too focused on doing a good job, so nobody could complain about your unprofessionalism to your company. Kristy had been dying for you to let loose with strangers for years. When you’d told her about going out for drinks with the cast, she’d almost dropped her dinner all down herself and then scrambled to help you get ready. She was always telling you that you needed more friends. 

You hadn’t told her about the kiss yet. 

For weeks, you and Johnny had been sneaking about the set. Kisses hidden behind the crew vans during lunch breaks, lingering touches when you patched up another boo boo, soft smiles across the lot when you were both too busy to stagger closer. And for weeks, you had kept it all to yourself, afraid that saying it out loud would make it crumble before you had a chance to fully enjoy it. 

“I should tell you–”

“Uh, what the fuck?” Kristy slid her sunglasses down her nose and pointed her wine glass towards the entrance of the complex pool. You almost dropped your own glass in the jacuzzi.

Rick, Johnny, and Preston Lacy lugged the camera equipment through the gates separating you from the rest of the neighbourhood. You’d overheard Preston talking about needing a pool for something they wanted to film and offered up the private pool used by the residents of your apartment complex,  handing over the landlord’s phone number so they could ask for permission. You just didn’t expect them to show up on your day off. While you were using your jacuzzi, wearing only the white bikini you bought because of Claudia Schiffer. 

You stood, and while Rick and Preston greeted you brightly and loudly, Johnny froze. 

His eyes dragged down your body, stuck on the skimpy bikini, on the droplets of bubbling water sticking to your skin, on the few strands of hair that had fallen out of the clip to keep it from getting wet. He gulped, and maybe it was only obvious to you, but it made your entire body flame. It was the least amount of clothes he’d ever seen on you. And he looked to be struggling not to just drop everything and wrap his arms around you. 

“What are you doing here?” you asked. 

“Our prank. Best day to do it,” Preston told you. Rick started to set up the camera on the jacuzzi. “Everyone’s at home anyway, so we don’t need to bother them. And Johnny doesn’t know how to take a day off.” 

You glanced at him again, and he was already looking at you. Already unable to tear his gaze away from the way the water trailed down your hip. You didn’t realise how much it thrilled you to have his eyes on you. 

“You don’t mind us filming here, do you?” Rick asked Kristy. “I can make sure not to get you in the shot.” 

“Oh God no, you better make sure I am in the shot. It’s my dream to be on Jackass.” 

“This is Kristy, my roommate,” you finally said when their laughter died away. “This is Rick, Preston, and Johnny.” You hadn’t noticed him sliding closer, but when you turned, he was right there, leaning against the metal railing that was supposed to help you step in and out of the jacuzzi, close enough that he barely had to reach out to play with the string holding your bikini bottoms in place. Rick and Preston were too busy chatting away to Kristy to even notice. 

“Miss me, angel?” 

“I saw you yesterday, Knoxville.” 

“‘Cause I missed you.” 

You snorted, totally unattractively, and it caught the attention of your roommate, who knew exactly what that sound meant. She took another sip of her wine as she watched you and Johnny for a moment, the way he leaned down to whisper in your ear, the way you pushed at his chest with a single finger that lingered longer than was necessary, the way you both looked at each other with a totally recognisable gleam in your eyes. God, were you this obvious in front of everyone? Was she the only person to clock it? 

“You have me to thank for your medic, there, by the way,” Kristy said, pointing her wine glass at you. “She never would have taken the job if I hadn’t pushed her to leap out of her comfort zone.” 

“What’s that? We aren’t in your comfort zone? I’m shocked.” Johnny wriggled his finger into the space between your ribs, and you slapped his hand away with a shriek that made him laugh. That laugh that left him totally breathless. That laugh that left you totally smitten. It was never going to be just kisses in the few minutes you got alone. Not when you could never have a relationship that wasn’t all in from the first second. 

“Get on with your filming so I can relax again.” 

“Yes, ma’am.” Johnny saluted and moved to the other side of the camera with Rick to watch what he was filming. Kristy pierced you with a knowing smirk as you sat next to her again, very obviously making sure the jacuzzi water didn’t cover your tits because you liked the way Johnny couldn’t help but glance over.  

“We are so talking about this later,” she whispered, and you heard the amusement tinting her tone. 

At the side of the jacuzzi, Preston stripped off his clothes, leaving him in only his underwear, and you were worried he was going to take a running leap and soak you completely. He didn’t. He just sank in across from you and Kristy and cracked open a beer. The three of you sat in relatively strange silence as, behind the camera, Rick and Johnny struggled to hide their sniggers. You shared a look with your roommate. What was the prank? You were still expecting someone to come running out of nowhere and cannonball into the jacuzzi to soak you all. They’d probably hurt themselves in the process. It’d probably be Bam or Steve-O; they were the least likely to care about their personal safety. 

Eventually, Preston stood, and you couldn’t control your wheezing laughter when you saw he’d been wearing underwear that went completely translucent in the water. Kristy shrieked and covered her eyes, but it didn’t take long before she was laughing, too. You clutched at one another as your laughter rippled through the air. There was no set like the Jackass set. No cast or crew who could make you laugh quite as much as they did with something as simple as see-through underwear. You’d never worked anywhere that left you feeling so light. Sure, they could try to kill themselves twenty times a day by trying to skateboard into dirty river water blindfolded, but there were no other group of men you trusted to actually not die doing something deadly. 

You’d have to remember to buy Kristy something that could express just how much you loved her for forcing you to sign up for this job. 

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The spider appeared when you were least expecting it.  

You were too busy forcing Lance to drink water after he’d fainted once again to notice the sniggers of the crew around you. Dimitry trained his camera on you and Lance, on the gentleness with which you smoothed the sweaty hair from his face, though your tone of voice telling him to be more careful was anything but kind. Bam snuck towards you, spider cupped in his hands, warning everyone to be quiet the closer he got. 

The spider landed in your hair with a soft thud, and you didn’t notice. 

You twisted your head to find Bam frozen behind you, hands half-lifted, a grin threatening to break through on his lips. 

“What are you doing?” you asked, not trusting anything he did around set. You were there when he’d hired the alligator to scare his mom in her house. It worked, but ever since then, you’d kept a wary eye out anytime Bam was near. 

“Nothing.” 

You certainly did not trust that look on his face. And then you felt the movement in your hair, and you glanced up as the spider slid down to crawl across your forehead. The scream tore through you before anyone had time to laugh, and you shook your head like a wild dog in the vain hope the spider would go flying off. It didn’t. It clung to you. Around you, the crew descended into chaotic laughter, falling to their knees as you continued to scream and hope that would scare the spider away. 

You could feel it crawling over you. 

“Get it off!” you screeched at Bam, but he was practically comatose with laughter on the ground. Everyone came running at the sound of your high-pitched, terrified screaming, and ended up just like Bam, and Lance, and Dimitry, on the ground, laughing until tears rolled down their cheeks. To them, it was the funniest thing they had ever seen. Their stick-in-the-mud medic flailing around all because she was scared of spiders. They’d seen you telling off the cast with every dangerous stunt; they’d seen you giggling from the sidelines; they’d even seen you a little drunk at the bar. But this was a side of you they could only thank Bam for. To you, it was your worst nightmare coming true. 

When Johnny appeared, you assumed he would save you. 

Once he realised you weren’t actually hurt – he’d been imagining the worst as he raced over from the craft tent – his laughter sent him doubling over, trying to catch his breath. Your screams ground to a halt, and finally the spider fell from your head, landing on the concrete and scuttling away. Johnny was still laughing. They were all laughing. Your hands were shaking, your eyes stinging with tears you refused to shed in front of them, and they just laughed. You weren’t supposed to be the one they laughed at. 

“Get out of my way,” you snapped, because it was easier to get mad than show them that you were still shaking. You shoved past Johnny before he could reach out to stop you, and only then did the laughter start to sober up. Had they taken it too far?

You stormed around the set because you had no idea where to go. Where was safe from all the eyes, all that laughter that was stuck roaring in your ears? You could still feel that fucking spider crawling over you, and a shudder rocketed down your spine. Goddamn Bam. You imagined his reaction if you’d tried that on him with a snake, and knew he wouldn’t have been afraid to curse you out in front of everyone. You, on the other hand, were too ashamed of your fear. 

You scrambled into the back of one of the empty crew vans, tugged your knees up to your chest, and cried before everybody started milling around again. Before anybody could get close enough to hear you trying to stifle your tears through shaky breaths. Fuck. Why couldn’t you get your hands to stop shaking? It was stupid. You were being so dumb, getting so worked up over a stupid prank that probably wouldn’t even be featured in the film. 

“Hey, hey, angel, you’re okay. You’re okay, now.” An arm slid around your shoulder and pulled you into a chest you knew too well by now. You squeezed your eyes shut to keep the tears from bubbling up again and clutched at the back of Johnny’s shirt. You wanted to push him away. You wanted him closer. 

“I hate spiders.” Your voice shook. You hated it. You never allowed yourself to be so vulnerable, especially not at work, especially not in front of men you were just meant to be kissing and nothing else. 

“I know. Fuck, I’m sorry, angel. I shouldn’t have laughed.” Johnny rubbed a soothing hand up and down your spine. You curled a little more into his touch. You should have been mad at him, but you liked the way his hand felt slowly sliding under the hem of your shirt and against your skin. 

“You could’ve waited until you’d gotten rid of the spider.”

“‘S that what you wanted?” You nodded against his chest and felt him smile, then press a cheesy kiss to the top of your head. “Aw, my pretty girl, I’ll remember that next time, all right?” His hand curled around your jaw to push your head away from his chest, allowing him to get a good look at your red cheeks and puffy eyes. He pouted, and you hated that it sent a thrilling shock careening through your body, and you hated that you knew it was always going to be more than just kissing with Johnny Knoxville. Not when he’d been able to make your heart flip from the very first moment you met. “Sorry again, angel,” he said, keeping his hand curled around your jaw so you were forced to meet his eyes. “I’ll save you first, next time.” 

“There better not be a next time. I’m only a medic.” 

“You’re part of the crew now. You’re fair game.” 

You pouted, and he leaned down to brush his lips against yours. Just enough that your body ached for more when he leaned away again. He glanced around quickly, over his shoulder, then around the open doors of the van, and when he realised there was nobody around to see him, he kissed you deeper, hungrier. Your mouths clashed, like he’d been waiting all day for a taste of you and didn’t know how to be polite about it anymore. You didn’t want him to be polite. You liked the way he kissed you when he didn’t need to hold back. The way he rolled you over in the back of the crew van so he could hover over you, so he could press his thigh between your legs and smirk when you keened, so he could kiss you until you were both breathless and had completely forgotten about the prank. 

“If someone catches us–”

“Nobody’ll catch us. See.” Johnny leaned out, grabbed the handles of the van doors, and swung them shut with a loud bang. Now it was just you and him in the back of the crew van, the sounds of the set muffled by the doors, blocked from sight by the tinted windows. “We’re safe.” 

You kissed him again to show him you did feel safe, and when he slipped his hand down the front of your pants, you didn’t push him away like you might’ve months ago, before this set showed you how to step out of your comfort zone.

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You’d given up telling Johnny when one of his ideas was stupid. 

It never worked anyway; he just laughed you off and got on with it. He got hurt, and you fixed him, and you were pretty sure the reason he threw himself into these crazy stunts was just to have you there to patch him up at the end. Afterwards, when you were sure nobody was watching, he’d sneak a kiss that’d made you both giggle and joke about experimental medicine until Johnny’s laugh alerted everyone to your location. 

Outside the department store, Johnny fixed his pink boxing gloves into place with his teeth. 

Your gaze caught the motion and stuck, stomach dropping as Johnny’s eyes lifted to meet yours, mouth tilting into a smirk around the strap of the glove. You ignored the heat pounding through your body best you could, but it was hard to ignore the way you felt suddenly damp. Stupid Johnny Knoxville and his pretty eyes, and his dangerous smile, and the fact he knew exactly what he was doing to you. 

Rick fixed the camera on his shoulder and counted down to filming. You clung to Jeff’s side as you usually did during filming, trying to stay out of the way of the cameras as much as you could, though you were sure they had caught your reactions to the more dangerous stunts once or twice. If you featured in the movie, Kristy would never shut up about it. 

“I’m Johnny Knoxville–”

“And I’m Butterbean.” 

“Today we’re gonna do a little boxing.” 

One of the production assistants, who pretty much helped keep the rest of you organised by running herself haggard around every shoot, entered the department store dressed up like a ring girl in the tiniest pair of shorts you’d ever seen. She held up a Round One sign, though you were pretty sure this wasn’t going beyond that. One punch and the heavyweight champion would have Johnny swallowing his own mouthguard. 

The customers froze where they were, twisting their heads to see what the crew was doing, when Johnny and Butterbean started boxing in the middle of the store. You watched with bated breath with Jeff, and though you’d seen the boys do more than their fair share of dangerous stunts, this felt even more tense. It was like you were just waiting for it to end badly. You’d seen Johnny get pummelled by a bull, Steve-O almost get bitten by a crocodile, and Pontius had almost sheared his balls in half with the electric razor, but this was somehow worse. You let your backpack full of necessities – over-the-counter meds, first aid kit, trauma kit, BP cuff, stethoscope, sunscreen, back pain patches, everything you usually lugged around with you – hang off one shoulder.

Johnny was the first to go down, understandably, but Butterbean goaded him into standing back up. You wished you could have told him to just keep lying there, but he’d never listen anyway. For Johnny, it was all about the shot. For all of them, really. All the boys were willing and wanting to get hurt as long as it looked good on camera. As long as the fans watching would laugh, they’d go for it. So, Johnny pushed himself back up and managed a punch. The next time Butterbean hit him, Johnny was out. 

A few moments passed, as they usually did when filming a stunt, waiting for one of the boys to lift his thumb and promise they were all good. The thumb never came, and you heard it before anyone else did: that odd choking sound you’d heard before in the emergency department. Johnny was out cold, and his tongue was blocking his throat. 

“Fuck, let me pass.” You pushed your way through the watching crowd to get to Johnny, backpack hitting the floor as you kneeled beside him. Slowly, but confidently, you rolled him into the recovery position and made sure his tongue had slipped back into its usual place. Only then did you remove his bloody mouthguard. While you waited for him to wake back up, you unpacked your essentials from the backpack, ignoring the sounds of worry chattering away behind you. It was easier to feel calm when you pretended you were in a hospital again, when this was not the man you’d been kissing secretly whenever the two of you managed to split off from the ever-watching crowd. 

This is why you never got involved with stuntmen. 

“Are you an angel?” 

You twisted towards Johnny again, checking the time on your watch. He’d only been out for two, maybe three minutes. He’d probably not be able to retain any short-term memory for the next half hour. 

“Yeah, you died; this is department store heaven.”

“Aren’t I one lucky son of a bitch?”

At least he still sounded like himself. At least he could still get a laugh out of you. He tried to roll out of the recovery position, but you stopped him with a firm hand on his shoulder, and he blinked up at you. Dazed, disoriented, and… shit, was that blood? You’d have to deal with that in a minute; first, you had to make sure he wasn’t going to pass out again. 

“What’s your name? Do you know where you are?” 

Johnny scoffed, and his mouth sounded dry. When he noticed the expression on your face that mixed softness with severity, the one you used to use in the hospital to make patients cooperate, he realised you weren’t joking after all. “I’m Johnny Knoxville. P.J. to my friends. I’m filming for Jackass in a department store in Los Angeles.” You hummed and gently squeezed his shoulder. 

“Good. You got knocked out for around three minutes. You might have some memory issues over the next hour.” Slowly, you helped him into a sitting position. Behind you, the rest of the crew reassured the customers and store staff that this was a stunt and that you were a medical professional. You could feel Rick’s camera on you, and you knew this whole section would be a big hit in the movie. The fans loved seeing the crew getting to do their actual jobs instead of just being on the receiving end of pranks. 

“Is Butterbean okay?” Johnny asked, and laughter trickled throughout the crew. Trust Johnny to say the perfect thing for the camera. Trust Johnny to be able to make you all laugh when you were worried about him. 

“You got a hit.” 

He cheered quietly, and then winced, as if the sound was too loud for his ears. You went through the usual concussion checks while your fingers gently prodded around his neck, ears, and head. Johnny patiently answered each of your questions, one hand lingering on your knee now that you were close enough to touch. Headache – check. Ringing in the ears – check. Nausea – check. Dizziness – check. Slurred speech – check. Delayed response to questions – check. Dazed appearance – check. You were one hundred per cent sure he was concussed. 

You cleaned his head wound as best you could in the middle of the department store with your sterile wipes, but you knew you couldn’t do more for him than that out here. You pressed down with some gauze to staunch the bleeding as much as you could, unaware of the blood on your grey halterneck vest. 

“We need to take him to the hospital,” you told Jeff, who had watched you work periodically between talking to the store staff. “He needs stitches and probably some scans to make sure his head’s okay.” 

“You really look like an angel in this lighting.” 

“And he’s concussed.” 

Four of you accompanied Johnny to the hospital in one of the crew vans. The driver and Jeff in the front seat, Rick, who kept filming to pick up all the best bits, and you to keep the bandage pressed against the wound. And to, as they all claimed you were the best at doing, keep Johnny calm. You’d never seen him wound up, really, but you were still grateful that he slumped against you rather than start panicking. He wouldn’t be the first person to suddenly shift personalities because of a concussion. 

“Where are we going, Knoxville?” Rick asked, since you’d told everyone to keep Johnny talking to make sure he didn’t pass out again. 

“The hospital.” Johnny’s speech was still slurred. It was like he was drunk all over again. Drunk and cuddly, with the way he nuzzled into you. You just hoped Rick and Jeff didn’t think too much about it. You had more pressing matters than trying to explain why Johnny Knoxville wasn’t leaving you alone. 

“What the hell are we doing that for?” 

“I don’t know. Apparently, I have a big gash in my head, and I think I’m a little concussed.” 

This time, you scoffed, and Johnny’s eyes flicked up to you, softening. The camera would catch it immediately, the simpering way that Johnny looked at you. The very easy tell that there was something more going on than just a budding friendship between a stuntman and his medic. 

“A little, he says.” And it was enough to split the tension in the car and make you all laugh again. 

In the hospital, Johnny asked that you hold his hand throughout getting his stitches, even though it wasn’t the first, nor the last, time that he’d get stitches. You were pretty sure he just wanted the excuse to slip his fingers between yours, to press his palm firmly against yours, to feel the soft way your thumb traced the rise of his knuckles. He didn’t even flinch at the anaesthetic, nor at the stitches; he just watched you with one of his goofy smiles until you cracked one of your own to show him you weren’t so worried anymore. To show him that you could slip out of your nurse persona just as easily as you zipped into it. 

He still hadn’t told you just how much he liked being ordered around by you. 

“There’s my angel.” 

You blushed so brightly it even made the doctor laugh. 

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The motel room in Florida was hot, and stuffy, and smelled of sex. The last part was entirely your fault, but it didn’t help that the air conditioning wasn’t working in Johnny’s room. 

You stretched in the bed, legs tangling with Johnny’s under the duvet, skin sticky with sweat and thighs aching in that sweet way that made you never want to move from this position. Johnny mumbled something in his half-asleep state and tightened his grip on you, as if he didn’t want to dare let you get up. You wouldn’t have anyway. The one day you didn’t have a single thing to do, and you were going to spend it right here with Johnny Knoxville, with the broken air-con, with the heat clinging to the walls, with his hands crawling over your body. 

“You awake, angel?” Johnny whispered against your neck. 

“No. Don’t wanna be.” 

“Good, me neither.” 

His arms tightened around your waist and tugged you closer until you couldn’t tell who started where. You let your legs tangle, let your arms hang loosely around his middle, and opened your eyes just enough to catch the golden light glinting through the half-open blinds and drenching his sweat-soaked, messy hair. You couldn’t help but smile. This was nice. Even if you were too warm, even if you did feel sticky, you didn’t mind waking up to this every morning. 

You’d snuck over to Johnny’s room last night when you were sure none of the other cast and crew was milling around the parking lot with the beers you’d bought way too much of. He’d left the door on a latch for you, but he was showering when you snuck in, and you were pretty sure you forgot to lock it behind you in your sudden desire to join him under the lukewarm water. Florida was far too hot. But you’d complain about that later. In here, you weren’t going to complain about anything. In here, you were going to enjoy the rather soothing way Johnny’s kisses tickled your neck. 

Laughter erupted from the next room, clear as day through the motel walls, and you and Johnny froze. The walls here were thin. Thinner than either of you was expecting. Bam and Ryan were sharing one of the rooms next to Johnny; Jeff was in the other, and they would have heard everything. They would have heard you fucking in the shower, on the dresser, on that stupid little armchair that you were pretty sure broke with your combined weight on it. There was no way in hell they didn’t hear. What if they were laughing because they knew? 

“They won’t have heard.” 

You sat up and let the duvet fall around your waist. “They absolutely will have heard.” 

The laughter got louder, and you mentally cringed, remembering all the noises you made last night before you could feel too embarrassed to shut yourself up. All the whining, all the too-loud fucks, all the almost screams. You were never a quiet lay anyway, but God, Johnny had coaxed out every little sound he could just to have the smug satisfaction that he could. 

“Will you–” Johnny grabbed your waist to pull you back down on the bed, a breathy giggle escaping you before you could hold it under your tongue as you landed beside him. “–please stop worrying?” He nuzzled his face against your neck, then scattered kisses along the skin as he was prone to doing now. Every time you showed the slightest inch of skin, he could barely hold back from peppering sweet kisses over it, like a claim, like a reverence. You were still giggling as you jokingly tried to push him off, though your arms felt like jelly with each kiss pasted along your shoulders, or neck, or collarbone. It was easy to ignore the laughter with Johnny trailing his hand down to your thighs. 

The door slammed open, and you knew you forgot to lock it last night. 

“He’s got the car up his ass, dude–” Steve-O froze. Johnny froze. You froze. You stared at one another for a beat too long. “Wait. What the fuck? Are you fucking our medic?” 

Johnny grabbed the pillow from beneath his head and lobbed it across the room. It smacked Steve-O in the face as he tried to stumble from the room, and he laughed as he fell to his knees, clutching his face and screaming about how he’d been hit. In no time, the rest of the guys would appear to see what all the fuss was about, and whatever secret you and Johnny had been trying to hide would be no more. 

You hid your face in his chest and felt his laughter rumbling there.

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Hi!

The reality of it all was that all it brought was trouble. Which was exactly why Smoker had spent the last three days practically buried beneath reports. The seemingly endless mountain of paperwork covering his desk had stopped looking like paperwork hours ago. It had become a battlefield to the Captain. Patrol logs, ship manifests, witness statements, supply records. Anything that might reveal a pattern before it became a disaster.

His cigar burned low between his fingers.

He barely noticed. Barely did care to.

Tashigi had tried to make him eat sometime earlier that morning.

Or maybe it had been yesterday- He couldn't remember.

The Captain’s office smelled of smoke and stale coffee. Outside his window the harbor remained deceptively calm, but Smoker knew better. Crowds this size always attracted predators. Criminals loved to create confusion. Loved crowds. And therefore loved celebrations.

And something about this year just felt wrong.

He couldn't prove it.

Not yet at least.

But experience had taught him to trust the feeling.

A sharp crash interrupted his thoughts, as the office door slammed open.

Smoker didn't look up immediately.

There was only one person on this damned island who entered his office like they were kicking down a fortress gate.

"Has nobody taught you how to knock?"

He already knew the answer before he bothered to raise his head.

And just like he expected, there you stood.

For a moment his irritation vanished.

Not visibly, of course.

Years of practice prevented that from showing.

But the sight of you standing in his doorway stirred something uncomfortable in his chest.

You hadn't come to see him voluntarily in months. Maybe longer.

However, despite everything between you, every argument and every bitter exchange over the years, he found himself oddly relieved. Which was ridiculous.

"You look like hell."

His eyebrow twitched.

Of all the greetings the Captain could have expected, that one somehow felt inevitable.

"And you look like you've got too much time on your hands."

The response came automatically. Familiar. Comfortable, in an irritating sort of way.

You stepped closer.

Far closer than most Marines ever dared.

Smoker watched you carefully. Eyes tracing the rifle slung over your shoulder. The tension in your posture. The frustration which was clearly already simmering beneath your skin.

He knew that look.

He had caused it often enough.

"Tashigi said you've been pushing yourself for days."

Of course she had. He made a mental note to have a few words with her later. Though if he was honest, he had somehow suspected this was exactly what she had been trying to accomplish.

Tashigi worried.

You acted.

Together, the two of you were a headache he had never quite figured out how to deal with.

He listened while you listed every single complaint.

The lack of sleep.

The skipped meals.

The extra patrols.

The endless reports.

All of it delivered with growing irritation.

But Smoker wasn’t an idiot, he could tell that beneath all that irritation was concern. Of course, you were trying very hard to hide it. You always did, which was something he almost considered amusing.

Almost.

Because hearing concern in your voice was dangerous.

It made him want things. Things he had no business wanting.

"You've always done this."

Your voice cut through both his thoughts and the room. Sharp and accusing. Yet so utterly familiar.

"You step in. You act like nobody else matters."

That made something hardened inside him. Not because the accusation was unfair, but because it touched onto something that was too close to the truth.

The problem wasn't that nobody else mattered to the Captain. The problem was that they mattered too much. Every Marine under his command. Every civilian walking those streets. Every idiot who thought they were invincible. Every single one became his responsibility the moment he failed to stop or notice something.

And you...

You had always been the worst of them.

Not because you were reckless, but because you were willing to risk yourself. Because you seemingly never understood how valuable your own life was.

Smoker’s gaze drifted briefly over your face. You looked exactly the same as you had that day years ago. Maybe a little older. A little harder. But still stubborn enough to charge headfirst into danger if you thought it was the right thing to do.

Still impossible.

Still alive.

A fact he had never once regretted protecting.

"You look terrible."

Once again it were your words, which pulled him from his thoughts. Smoker almost laughed at the fact that you sounded genuinely bothered. However, that realization settled strangely in his chest.

"I don't need your concern." The lie tasted familiar on his tongue.

Of course you didn't believe it and neither did he.

When you admitted you didn't even know why you had come, Smoker found himself staring at you for a little longer than necessary.

Because that answer felt honest. Painfully honest.

And honesty from you was rare.

Not because you were deceptive.

Because you hated exposing weakness.

The same way he did.

For a moment neither of you spoke. The office fell quiet except for the distant noise of the harbor. In the quiet moment, Smoker allowed himself to study you. The way your fingers rested against the desk. The slight crease between your brows. The frustration that never fully disappeared from your features whenever you looked at him.

He knew exactly why it was there.

The mission. That damn mission. Years later and it still sat between the two of you like a loaded weapon. A part of him had hoped time would bury it, but instead it had festered.

Every promotion.

Every commendation.

Every sideways glance.

The resentment you carried never truly left. And perhaps that was his fault.

He had let you hate him.

Because the alternative had been watching you throw yourself into danger again trying to prove a point.

Because explaining it would've changed nothing.

You would've argued…You always argued.

"You care more than you want to admit."

The words left Smoker’s lips before he could stop them. He watched your expression tighten, as the words registered.

Good.

If he was uncomfortable, you could be uncomfortable too.

Yet the satisfaction didn't last.

Not when you looked at him like that.

Not when you admitted it.

Quietly.

Reluctantly.

Honestly.

God. You had no idea what that did to him. No idea how difficult it suddenly became for the Captain to keep his composure.After all, he had spent years convincing himself that whatever existed between the two of you was nothing but unresolved anger.

It was simpler that way. Safer.

Anger could be managed.

But what sat glimmering behind your eyes right now was much harder to ignore. Before he could give it any more thought, the conversation shifted back to that forsaken mission again. Back to the wound neither Smoker nor you had ever properly addressed.

It was when you accused him of wanting glory, that something finally snapped within the Captain. The desk rattled beneath his hands. Papers scattered across the floor. The office echoed with the impact of his fist and before he could stop himself, the truth came out.

"It means you're still alive."

The silence afterward felt deafening. Smoker closed his eyes briefly.

Years.

Years of keeping that to himself.

Years of watching you carry hatred for something you never fully understood.

And now it was finally out.

The second shooter.

The line of sight.

The impossible choice.

The certainty that if he had hesitated for even a second, you would've died.

He remembered every detail of it.

The angle.

The rifle.

The glint of metal.

The realization hitting him all at once.

And then smoke. His smoke. The only thing fast enough to save you.

He would've done it again.

Every time.

Without hesitation.

Even if it meant losing your respect forever.

When you asked why he never told you, he nearly barked out a laugh because the answer was standing right in front of him.

"You would've argued."

And you would have. You absolutely would have.

The years hadn't changed that. And probably no amount of time would ever manage to.

Neither had the affection he had spent far too long pretending didn't exist.

The room felt different after his confession.

Lighter, not in a fixed or healed way. Just…different. Like that old wound the two of you shared had finally stopped bleeding.

Then you stepped closer. And for the first time all day, Smoker completely forgot about the reports and the harbor. He forgot about the crowds. Forgot about every threat waiting outside his office.

All he could focus on was you.

Your hand resting against his arm. The hesitance within your touch. The concern you could no longer hide. Concern for HIM.

Smoker stared at your hand longer than he should have. He couldn’t help himself, it had been years since either of you crossed that line. Years spent maintaining distance because distance was easier.

Distance required less honesty.

Less risk.

Less vulnerability.

And yet somehow your hand felt natural there. Like it belonged.

What a dangerous thought that was.

Very dangerous.

Still, the Captain couldn't bring himself to pull away.

And when you offered to help, he wasn’t sure which he was more surprised by, you offering or him accepting. But Smoker didn’t bother trying to get behind that, as the exhaustion was catching up to him. More importantly, however, he wasn't ready for you to leave.

So he took your rifle off your shoulder instead.

Carefully. More carefully than he handled most things.

The weapon was familiar.

You were familiar. Far more than either of you probably wanted to admit.

As you settled beside him, the office felt different once again. This time it felt warmer. Quieter.

The years of tension hadn't vanished. But something had shifted. Something important.

Smoker gaze settled on your form as you picked up the first report. He watched  how you immediately focused on the task. Watched the way your brow furrowed whilst reading. And despite himself, he felt a faint smile tug at the corner of his mouth.

You were still alive. Still stubborn.

Still here.

The realization settled heavily in his chest and before he could think better of it, he reached down and lifted your legs onto his lap.

The startled noise you made, made a genuine chuckle vibrate through the Captain’s chest. Trying his best to suppress the amusement, he shifted his focus back onto the paperwork in front of him.

Or well…he pretended to.

Truthfully, he hadn't read a single line.

Not when he could feel the reassuring weight of you by his side.

Not when part of him still remembered how close he had come to losing you all those years ago.

His hand settled lightly against your leg.

Possessive.

Protective.

Careful.

The way someone held something precious.

And for the first time in days, maybe even weeks, Smoker felt himself relax.

Just a little.

Because after years of distance, years of resentment, years of silence—

You were still here.

cosmic joke | @gav-san

You’re a normal person with the unfortunate position of having him as your soulmate. You’ve never met the guy, but you’ve been hearing his inner thoughts most of your life, and he should absolutely be locked up.

He’s Kind of Cute. | @mooncleaver

Your (not so) quiet crush on Sanji through Nami’s eyes

Miss Goldenweek paints you afraid | @undiscovered-horizon

[When Miss Goldenweek paints you afraid, that includes Sanji as well. If he wants to wipe that paint off of your arm, he needs to get much closer, witnessing how fear turns into terror with each step towards you.]

morning company  | @clare-875

Sanji wakes before the dawn breaks, and so you find yourself doing the same to keep him company

Taking care of him | @strawberrychansora

sanji’s heart is weak for his wife, especially when she’s taking care of him.

blackleg sanji as your husband | @/strawberrychansora

Late Night Cravings | @/strawberrychansora

Masterlist | @jar-of-pixel-hearts

Anything for a Reaction | @spenceragnewfics

A Bet with Zoro | @/spenceragnewfics

Kiss for Good Luck | @/spenceragnewfics

Patch Me Up, Love | @/spenceragnewfics

The Sparring Incident | @lilmoonbunny

You challenge Sanji to spar, unaware that it would change your friendship forever (aka Zoro has terrible timing).

Imagine comforting Sanji when his emotions unravel… | @theladyofmanyfandomsfanfiction

Now She’s Here, Shining in the Starlight ! | @sanjisluver

a sleepless night aboard the ship brings you face to face with your greatest nightmare; sanji is forever there for you, even if you think differently

My love, my life ! | @/sanjisluver

you swore to yourself sanji's advances were a collective experience—his yearning for you is never something he'd give others.

Picky | @solitaryearthperson

Your pickiness frustrates Sanji.

sanji and quality time | @galamalion

Whiskey and Jealousy | @feyhunter78

Whiskey Peak's saloon holds a lot, liquor, patrons, pool tables, and two jealous Strawhats.

3 Times Luffy Thought You and Sanji were Acting Weird | @/feyhunter78

Luffy might not be an expert at emotions, but you and Sanji have been acting weird as of late and he’s taken notice.

Seeing Red | @/feyhunter78

Unbeknownst to you, you’ve been affected by Miss Goldenweek’s paint, and Sanji is within emotional range.

Got Your Back | @/feyhunter78

Luffy has the crew running through tunnels and your weapons run on sunlight, good thing Sanji has your back.

nightmares | @chibinasuu

first snow; confession | @/chibinasuu

little mouse | @/chibinasuu

An espionage mission gone wrong had you on the run from the Marines. You snuck onto a random pirate ship to hitch a ride out of town but were discovered by the ship’s cook, who was oddly fond of mice. 

peaches | @sanjifucker42069

Sanji keeps finding you sneaking food. Just what are you hiding?

missing | @/sanjifucker42069

You wake up to find your little friend gone. Panicking, you turn to Sanji.

Something like that | @starkourtmall

You wanted to push him overboard. He wanted to make you tea. It took three months to figure out those weren’t opposite goals.

Hands that wander | @/starkourtmall

You’re the kind of person who touches everyone — hugs, hand-holds, leaning on friends like it’s nothing. Sanji watches from the sidelines, burning with jealousy, because when you touch him, it means everything.

Too much salt | @/starkourtmall

You’re the kind of person who stays — through the silence, the criticism, the way he looks through you like you’re not there. He doesn’t understand why you never fight back. You don’t know how to tell him that his cruelty is easier than his kindness.

Soft edges | @/starkourtmall

Sanji has a habit of showering people with affection. You have a habit of disappearing into the nearest shadow when he does. He doesn’t understand why you flinch at compliments. You don’t know how to tell him that his words feel too big for someone like you. But the galley is a small place, and avoiding someone with a heart as loud as his is harder than it looks.

Between Me & the Deep Blue Sea | @joequiinn

You should’ve known better than to bring a mysterious plant aboard the Going Merry. When you run into some strange side effects from its pollen, Sanji offers to lend you a hand.

Almighty Cure | @catbayunthestoryteller

the reader is studying to be a doctor like Chopper with the Witch up on the mountain. She heals Sanji and he falls for her while she tends to him. Later, she and Chopper join the Strawhats crew and Sanji tries even harder to pursue her.

ON MY MIND ! | @cheriecokezero

sanji knows exactly how to get under your skin.

Oblivious | @obsidianimagines

With a little help from Nami and Zoro, you and Sanji finally realize that your interest in each other is mutual

The time we shared together | @jjuleslovely

Sanji catches your eye, and you catch his. A collection of moments spread across your relationship and it's evolution!

A picky little kitty | @/jjuleslovely

Your pet kitty hates almost everyone who isn't you, you're a little worried about how she'll react to your new date.

oblivious idiot. | @pusheenwritesthings

Was he always this hot? | @/pusheenwritesthings

Sick | @/pusheenwritesthings

memories forgotten | @/pusheenwritesthings

Silent Cry | @mim16s

Citrus | @mugiwarie

sanji never felt at home within his own family’s walls. but maybe that was the bittersweet part of the fruit—the sweetness lived in you.

A recipe for love | @arixella

During a quiet moment in the galley, Sanji lovingly tends to your needs as you navigate the exhaustion and joy of pregnancy.

A morning with our little angel | @/arixella

Sanji embraces the joy of fatherhood as he shares a quiet, loving morning with you and your newborn daughter, cherishing the peaceful moments that make their family complete.

sanji x fem!reader | @ilovaevi

confessions | @madswritesstuff

flaws and all | @lawsvalentine

The Cook and the Healer | @theglitterypages

i’m scared i’ll never sleep again | @namis-wife

“Can I kiss you?” | @luffydotcom

a taste of home | @inseobts

Whispers into silence | @/inseobts

you, a guarded mind-reader and runaway pirate, find unexpected feelings with sanji amid marines, pastries, and way too many loud straw hats.

love story | @/inseobts

The idiot who turned to stone | @/inseobts

sanji turns to stone from love for you, leaving boa hancock questioning her powers—and everything she thought she knew about love.

crashing into you | @/inseobts

you try to escape from the enemies only to find yourself in sanji's room — what will happen if you have to stay and secretly share his room?

pregnancy baby girl , part 2 | @one-pieces-things

on baby duty | @/one-pieces-things

nervous flirting | @sanjiobsessed

special delivery part2 | @dfortrafalgar

Sanji reaches out to Zeff for the first time in years.

girl dad sanji drabble | @nene-yasfics

can’t sleep | @chocolateshortcakesblog

Sanji is sweet when it comes to your food preferences | @sleepymarimo

The gentle Hum of Love | @whatiswrongwithpeople

You’ve decided to guard your heart against Sanji’s empty flirting and his practiced charm. What can Sanji do to show you that he’s genuine?

The cook & the crown | @frost-queen