My Chemical Panic!

www.csmusicmediathings.wordpress.com 

I started a new blog on wordpress to start writing in a way that was more informal than the writing I do for the newspaper but more formal than the nonsense i post here.

I write about nothing but the music scene! Bandom and pop punk and alternative and all that fun stuff! 

Check it out pretty please and tell me what you think!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENDON URIE!

I wanted to say a few things before your 30th birthday ended and I don’t know how to put it into words but I’ll take a shot in the dark.

You mean more to me than I think even I fully understand. You’ve always been there to pick me up or help me calm down. Your drive has inspired me to push myself creatively every day of my life, but the way you take care of yourself reminds me that I have to do what’s best for me in order to keep being the best version of me I can.

I remember the first time I heard my first Panic! At The Disco song in seventh grade. It was Ballad of Mona Lisa and I remember thinking to myself “Wow that guy is so weird.” And I loved it. I loved the music, the energy, the theatrics, the sheer amount of personality you packed into three and a half minutes. 

I remember the first time I heard Girls/Girls/Boys and thinking maybe my sexuality wasn’t something I just had to accept but maybe it was something I could embrace and love. 

I remember the first time I saw you live years later. I remember you coming on stage and my first thought being “Holy shit, he’s 3D” because for the first time in my life you were physically there. Your voice, your music, and your silly personality had always been there for me, but for the first time (during a particularly bad week in my life) there you were: there for me in person.

Seeing you in March was beyond anything I ever hoped for. Once again you were there for me at a trying time. You have a habit of that, Brendon, showing up at exactly the right time. You took my flag during Girls/Girls/Boys with a “Thank you, darling” and got it back to me signed at the end of the night. That night was everything to me. I had never cried such genuine tears of joy before. Within a week I had come out to my family. That flag is now hanging in my room and it’s a reminder to me of everything that is good in my life and everything that will get better.

Because that’s what you are to me, Brendon. You are an inspiration. You are a symbol of everything that is good and a symbol that tells me everything will get better. You are a reminder to love life and love myself and love music. You are such a huge part of the reason I am throwing myself into music and giving it everything I have. 

So Happy 30th Birthday, Brendon Urie. Because you deserve to have a day that is as incredible as you are.