I Don’t Know What I’m Doing

feels like some of u aren't properly appreciating the fact that he sleeps in a berry patch. and he rolls over and squishes the berries into his fur. because he's so sleepy and content.

maybe people think he's an ugly dog but just to be clear he is actually a beautiful pig

Guy who never feels like his problems are “bad enough” to be taken seriously: what if I hurt the character so horrifically that everyone around them could not possibly deny the severity of their pain even if the character themself tries to downplay it.

NEVER be vulnerable. FLUSH your medication down the toilet. LIE when people ask how you’re doing. SUPPRESS your feelings. ALWAYS be irritable and abrasive. MAKE SURE you push away anyone who’s close to you. CANCEL your therapy appointment.

#i like to think data took him all the way to the brig tossed him in and left#and then came back 60 seconds later and was like ‘i believe i have successfully played a ‘practical joke’ on you :)’#riker loses it & claps him on the back like ‘wow. good job u rly had me going. dont ever fucking do that again’ Perfect.

The thing about grief is that if you are vocally honest about how it feels you sound like someone about to be involuntarily committed

is it a hot take to say that i think you need to understand why something is bad, not just that it simply is?

while digging up old taz fanart i often see people say Lup would have short hair (or shorter hair than Taako) because long hair is a fire hazard, and i want to examine this solely from a character study perspective out of sheer curiosity/desire to engage with the characters, rather than a "telling you how you should/shouldn't draw a character" perspective, but... basically, short hair for Lup doesn't really ring true as a Necessity for me. in particular, because lots of people draw Taako with long hair when he's both a chef (baking with long hair sucks if you don't secure it first) and a wizard who casts plenty of fire/explosive/otherwise messy spells of his own during the campaign — and that's while Taako infamously doesn't have spell sculpting like Lup does, therefore having way less control over the crossfire than Lup would! so if Taako could get away with long hair, then Lup definitely could too if she wanted to; if a braid keeps things practical and safe for Taako, then it would be more than enough to do the same for Lup. so really, there's not a practical reason for Lup to have shorter and/or more tightly secured hair than Taako does — and could there be a personality reason, sensory reason, or a fashion taste reason? of course, though your headcanon mileage might vary — personally, I've just always liked the idea of Lup being Extra enough, and rightfully confident enough, to grow out long hair as a flex as a fire-magic user, as proof of just how good her spell-shaping is, of how much control she has. when Lup's whole Thing is having so much control of all her very dangerous magical power, it's just very fun potential characterization I think we might all be sleeping on. hell, what if Taako's insistence he has spell shaping during the campaign is also a reason for him to grow out his hair, in confused imitation of Lup? what Situations does that get Taako into because he doesn't have spell shaping, and his hair gets in the way for him? I'm just meandering but there's so much variety in the stuff you can explore here

Shockingly, the game about shepherding spirits to the afterlife is making me feel things.

"character doing a c+ job of breaking the cycle of abuse" is such a crunchy dynamic forever. what if i'm giving my all to give you a better life than i had and i'm succeeding but "better" just isn't quite enough. what if my blind spots and deeply ingrained trauma and inexperience mean that you will be indelibly scarred by me despite my best efforts. what if my abuser's influence still bleeds through at times because i know nothing else. what if i go so far in the opposite direction to avoid it that i hurt you in ways i couldn't have anticipated. what if my undeniable love and unforgivable shortcomings came part and parcel with each other. what if your love and gratitude and resentment and pain came part and parcel too. what if we both knew you deserved better but i was all you had. what if we had to move forward and reckon with that. what then