sometimes i think

one must imagine Sisyphus as Bernard Rieux

if you put Rieux in a time loop for a random day in the middle of the plague he lowkey wouldn't even notice

i had another weird dream but this time it was about me reading a modern highschool au tarrieux fanfiction that took place in japan for some reason 😭 and Tarrou was an angsty teenager on antidepresants (both of them should be on antidepresants tbh) who was inner monologuing about how much will to live he was going to lose when the summer is over but also about how unbearably hot it was and at some point he wrote a note to pass to Rieux that just said "I'M GENUINELY GONNA KILL MYSELF" 😭😭😭 and also for some reason there was an entire section of the fanfic dedicated to their classmate who kept bringing his cat to school and the cat was always sitting on that guy's shoulder and if anybody asked he insisted that the cat is in reality a canary and that it's a part of his drag performance 😭😭😭😭😭😭 i'm crying what the fuck was that