drawing? sometimes

♡Joker holding you while you cry after a panic attack ♡

♡Joker giving you a bath and feeding you soup when you are sick♡

♡Joker tucking a strand of hair behind your ear and asking "Why So Serious?" to try to cheer you up when you are sad♡

♡Joker letting his painted red smile slip, just for a moment, after answering a phone call from Hospital saying you got hit by a car. He cries one tear ♡

♡ Joker being vulnerable with you and crying on your lap as you stroke his hair with your one good arm Other one fell off in car crash ♡

♡Joker's eyes lighting up fondly as he looks at you, his gaze softening when he thinks you aren't looking ♡

♡ Joker finding the man who ran you over in a hit and run, beating him up and crying FUCKER! SHE LOST HER FUCKING ARM BECAUSE OF YOU! then he gasps and wimpers so sad for you♡

Well...

I put the blog on password protection for a few days while I took a break to evaluate what I wanted. Running this blog and interacting with my followers has been a lot of fun, but it's also been negatively affecting my mental health and making me more online than I'd like. Playing the character of "insane teenager who argues" means I have to argue with people all the time, and I don't really like doing that for long periods of time because it makes me insane.

So what did you find then?

I found that not posting is better for me than trying to run this blog further. I feel like I've extracted all the funny content out of this and any further posting is just running the joke further into the ground. There's only so much rehashing of the same bit I can do before I get bored, and Bethany's anger at receiving the same stupid questions became genuine after a while. I don't want to be enslaved to my phone all day calling everyone "fuckstick" anymore. I'm just not having any fun with it.

But Ivy! Bethany brings me SO much comfort and it's problematic to get rid of her!

Yeah, that's why I'm not deleting the blog, but if you feel this way I recommend logging off. My insane, written-to-be-irredeemable Argument Character being critical to your daily routine may be a sign you need help.

What are you doing now?

I'm retiring this blog. I'm leaving it up but I'm not gonna post on it anymore. If by some miracle I get to a place where running this won't kill me inside, I might come back, but for now I'm done with it. If you have a problem with this, fuck off into the sun, you and your spawn will be cursed hitherto until the end of time. Thanks to everyone who sent asks that were actually funny, and to the extended croakerverse for supporting me in this, I have not been doing well and yall being there and understanding helps a lot. Thanks to Strange for the video, I'm looking forward to hanging out in Toronto in July.

But for now, this is my Fecal Farewell

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