She just wants to know where they stand, but Adam is bad at feelings and has trouble answering.
âWhy are you dragging me outside at so late an hour?â Adam complains as I pull him out onto the roof.
âOh, I donât want to hear it,â I scoff. âBesides, itâs not like you would be sleeping.â
âBut you should be,â he counters.
Shrugging, I raise my hands in a âwhateverâ gesture. âEh, I donât sleep much, anyway. Bipolar, remember?â I remind him.
âYou still have not answered my question,â he points out.
âJust shut up and look at the damn sky.â Rolling my eyes, I sit down and dangle my feet off the edge of the roof.
âYou should be careful,â he warns, sitting next to me. âA fall from this height would gravely injure you.â
âIâll be fine,â I insist. âBesides, with your reflexes, you would grab me before I even fell in the first place.â When he doesnât respond, I turn my attention back to the sky, admiring the stars.
âWhat, exactly, am I supposed to be seeing?â
I sigh. âBe patient. Just wait a second.â After a moment, a streak of light traverses the sky. âThere!â I exclaim, pointing excitedly. âDid you see it?â
Adam hums in response. âIs there a reason youâre showing me a meteor shower?â
âYouâve seemed stressed lately,â I explain as another comet flashes across the sky. âI thought this might help you relax.â
âI appreciate the sentiment,â Adam replies. âBut I am fine.â
I bite my tongue, attempting to refrain from making one of my usual smart-ass remarks. Adam seems to notice my struggle, glancing over at me and heaving a sigh. âIf there is something on your mind, you should say it.â
Scowling, I cross my arms over my chest. âYouâre exhausting, you know that?â
âPerhaps you should spend less time concerning yourself with my welfare and more time worrying about your own,â he shoots back, but thereâs no bite to his tone.
Sighing, I gaze up at him. âIs that really what you want?â I ask tiredly. âBecause I can try, if you tell me to. I canât promise itâll work, but Iâll make the effort if thatâs what you truly want.â
Adam frowns, looking away. âIt⌠would be easier if you did,â he says hesitantly, âfor the both of us.â
âBut is it what you want?â I press.
He turns back to me, eyes pleading. âIt doesnât matter what I want,â he whispers, sounding defeated.
âOf course it does.â I give a soft smile. âIf you do, then I can do that, but if not, I can keep waiting,â I admit, barely louder than a whisper. âIt would be worth it. So tell me, Adam: do you really want me to leave you alone?â
âNo,â he breathes, almost desperately, voice so quiet I almost think I imagined it. âNo, I donât.â
Swallowing hard, I nod, ignoring the fluttering in my stomach and trying to collect my thoughts so I can form a coherent response. âOkay then,â I say finally, turning back to look at the comets. I lean my head on his shoulder. âIâll keep waiting.â
It takes him a moment to respond, and for a second I worry Iâve scared him off again, but then I feel him relax into me. âOkay,â he repeats, and I canât hold back my smile.