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i have diagnosed aspd, and whether you like it or not, it dictates my behavior 99% of the time. be aware that this account contains explicit mentions of taboo concepts, artistic nudity, sexual themes, nsfw, gore and other mature topics.

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recently, a group of my ex friends decided to slander me the second we had a falling out.

for a little backstory, it started when i decided to take a brief break from my relationship and step away from the internet to clear my head, regulate my mental health, and have some necessary personal time. it was an EXTREMELY difficult time for me. i wouldn't like to get into it, but during my episodes, i get extremely irritated, so to protect myself and my girlfriend, i stepped back from the relationship and some of my peers. after that short break, my girlfriend and i communicated and got back together. after returning, i was later made aware that these people took my temporary absence as an opportunity to spread blatant, defamatory lies about me behind my back, and had manipulated my girlfriend during her vulnerable state of mind

these ex friends had labeled me a bigot simply because i made it clear i didn't want to be their friend anymore. i asked my girlfriend to remove them from her spaces, which apparently made me a bigot. what does disliking someone have to do with systemic bigotry? I dont hate people for being "different" from what i am, i simply wanted her to remove them because they hate my guts. if that makes me a bigot, then I guess so be it!

fyi, i never claimed i was okay with "fictional pedophilia". where did that even come from 😪? i don't give a fuck about your opinions on fiction, i dislike you because you are insufferable and exhausting to be around. you quite literally claimed to be a "woke profic", yet you AREN'T a profic if you don't believe in the freedom of fictional media. it is an ultimate anti censorship viewpoint on media as a whole, even media involving taboo or conventionally sensitive subjects, glorified or not. you are not what you claim to be

both of these people quite literally preach that they are "bad and insufferable" people in their BIOS.

several of them relentlessly ( yes, relentlessly, this isn't all of the screenshots, theres far more. ) spammed my anonymous asks with messages calling me a bigot, branding me an abuser, and telling me to kill myself. i know for an absolute fact that it was them, or at the very least, people operating directly within their immediate circle. harassing someone under the cowardly guise of anonymity isn't clever. even if you try to hide, I will always find out.

one of them also called me a schizo when my girlfriend called them out on their blatant bullshit. you are all between the ages of eighteen and twenty years old, yet you conduct yourselves like toddlers. it is time for you to grow up and leave me the fuck alone.

some of them stated i was suicide baitingwhen i was actively going through an episode. i genuinely do not understand why my episodes and breakdowns are things that need to be picked apart and psychoanalyzed all the fucking time. venting while in crisis or having a breakdown is not baiting anyone. you people are just cruel asl.

the level of hypocrisy is astounding. yes, dude. you are obsessed. considering you are actively and obsessively harassing me while simultaneously stalking and harassing an ex partner you broke up with years ago. you are just as malicious, if not worse, than the very things you condemn. even your current partner explicitly said, "we will never stop making fun of kleef," yet you somehow have the audacity to claim that i am the one who is obsessed

the only reason i ever address this is because people continuously pester me about it and invade MY spaces. i would gladly drop this useless bullshit and move on with my life, but i am forced to address it simply because they refuse to keep my name out of their mouths.

why on earth would i NOT want my girlfriend to remove people who are actively harassing me and telling me to end my life? and because of that, they immediately jumped to weaponizing abuse terminology, claiming that i was manipulating and isolating her

nobody gives a fuck about u being a lesbo, you two tried to manipulate and gaslight my girlfriend into believing i was cheating on her with MY FRIEND, using the "evidence" that i was being polite to someone who followed me on tumblr and stating it as concrete evidence and fact. the abysmal level of REACH required to claim that me being friendly into infidelity is fucking INSANE. you are saying that I cheated on her with your chest even though there's zero proof of me doing so.

when my girlfriend was explaining to me what happened, she quite literally burst into tears. you are animals. stop trying to force domestic abuse onto a relationship you know NOTHING about just because you dislike me.

it is funny how there's this teeny tiny percentage of people that i have a falling out with that escalates into that person developing a vendetta against me. when we were on good terms, you had zero issues with me, but when i acted in a way you didn't like, all of a sudden i am this awful bigot groomer abuser person, despite the fact that when we were friends, i was NEVER what you claim i am! #noticing

it is genuinely disgusting that these people have the nerve to accuse me of being "rcta" simply because i don't "look black enough" for their arbitrary standards. i know what you are sayinf. youre saying i don't look black. you have zero authority and no right to dictate how a person of color should look or exist. i have COUNTLESS photos of my dad where he is clearly, unmistakably black

what absurd level of documentation am i expected to parade around just to prove to you that i am not faking my race? why do you feel so fucking entitled to treat my race like a debate? it is such a deeply painful and exhausting thing to have my identity turned into a joke by people who simply dislike me. you will never understand how it feels like not being able to fit in anywhere.

its really interesting when mixed people don't fit into a specific, commodified stereotype that people expect, they get accused of faking their heritage. i have never claimed to be anything other than what i am. i never claimed to be a different race from what i am. i rarely even talk about my race online anymore because of people like this. all of you are insufferable and racist animals.