i dont wanna lose control

-> If I interact with you in any way and you aren’t cool with it just block or send a message and I’ll delete the like/reblog or unfollow. I’m not here to make anyone feel like shit. You deserve to feel safe in your online space. On that note I also do not expect follow backs or mutuals or anything. If I follow you and keep interacting with you PLEASE KNOW I DON’T EXPECT FRIENDSHIP I just like talking.

-> I also feel the need to mention that I follow a wide, WIDE array of people on this site. Who I follow and reblog from is not an endorsement of their personal views. I follow people I disagree with on a lot of things to keep myself out of an echo chamber and sometimes they put stuff on my dash that I also agree with. This does not mean I agree with every single thing they’ve ever posted.

-> There will be kinky, weird shit here. I am into almost every single thing given the right context. I am an unapologetic freak of the highest proportions. I try to tag stuff but am bad about it unless it’s one of the things listed below.

Absolute favorites that will be on this blog:

father/son incest - #dadson

brother/brother incest - #brocon

age gaps - untagged

noncon OR cnc (depending on if the post is fiction or irl fantasy) - #noncon/#cnc

piss (anything/everything about it) - #piss/#hey peebrain

shota OR ageplay (depending on if the post is fiction or irl fantasy) - #shota/#ag4play

sadomasochism - untagged for the most part but if I remember it’ll be #sadism

-> I reblog irl porn. These posts will be tagged #irl.

This blog is a mix of real life sex stuff and fictional sex stuff. I talk about kink regarding myself and my own experiences and fetishes and also about fantasies in my brain that aren’t possible in real life and also about my OCs and characters I like and their sex lives and proclivities. Sorry if it gets confusing but I trust everyone to make the distinction between fantasy, fiction and real life even if I don’t explicitly state something is fantasy-only. I believe in RACK (Risk-Aware Consensual Kink). Ask for my fetlife if you want.

-> Sometimes I have an untagged queue running. I am a chronic post deleter. What you see when scrolling my blog is not what you get.

-> I am fixated on the Fallocaust series by Quil Carter. My containment blog for that is @nerodekker but I also post on this blog about it sometimes. The tag I use is #falloposting. Absolutely fucking nobody on this site has read these books. That’s ok. <3

-> I love love love writing fucked up characters who do fucked up things. I believe that absolutely anything is allowed to happen in fiction. Pushing the envelope when it comes to fiction is important and a societal necessity. Comfort breeds complacency. I reblog/talk about censorship in both fandom spaces and original media spaces, I try to tag all of the posts about it with the worm emoji (#🪱). I don’t really like the proship label because I don’t think it captures all the nuance in my stance but it’s the most convenient word to call myself.

-> I do not give a fuck about intracommunity queer discourse. Be whatever you wanna be and call yourself whatever you wanna call yourself, I do NOT care in the kindest possible way! I don’t want to be involved in discourse. Life sucks I know but online discourse genuinely furthers no cause at all and just turns people very mean.

-> I’m very firmly against generative AI. Embrace the creativity that was gifted to you upon birth and find joy in the process of making things. However saying this I am also against harassment so I won’t witch-hunt you or yell at you for using it. I just really dislike it and the implications of its use in creative spaces.

-> Information about my OCs:

OC masterpost can be found here.

Matthew is 45, has 3 kids, an ex wife and he’s a high school teacher. He’s bisexual. Very much having a mid-life crisis. Not a very good person. He’s actually kind of awful. (#🗒; matthew)

Angel is 18, a senior in high school, a swimmer and closeted gay. Popular. Kind and funny and just trying to make it through school. Also Matthew is his teacher. (#🪽; angel)

Matthew and Angel are the main characters in my currently-untitled teacher/student romance novel. (#mattangel)

Jason is 51, has a wife and kid and a vaguely academic shaped job (haven’t decided yet). He had a FIRST kid with a grad school girlfriend when he was 30 but basically abandoned him and doesn’t care to be a father towards him. (#🥃; jason)

Heather is 21, Jason’s first kid, and growing up he always wished his dad loved him. Until he got to be a teenager and decided he actually hates his dad. (#🚬; heather)

Jason and Heather only have sporadically spent a few weeks together every year or so until Heather turns 13. Then contact is cut.

On Heather’s 21st birthday they reconnect drunkenly. Push comes to shove and suddenly they’re fucking crazy style.

Jason and Heather are the main characters in my dadson romance novel. They’re fucking weird (#jason & heather)

Tzul, who also goes by many other names, is a vampire that is around 3,000 years old. His origins are Maya, in current-day Belize. He is a sadist to the extreme who hunts, captures, tortures and kills humans for sport. (#🩸; tzul)

Alex is 25, straight, and extremely normal. He’s got a business degree and works in marketing. Unfortunately he catches the eye of Tzul who abducts him to be his latest victim. Alex is in for a fun time in the vampire torturerape dungeon. (#⛓️; alex)

Tzul and Alex are my OCs for my more hard interests when it comes to exploring sadism in fiction. They were created solely to be my proxies for extreme things such as amputation, gore, mutilation, torture and copious amounts of noncon. (# tzul & alex)

These are the only OCs I talk about here currently. This is subject to change at any time though. Catchall OC tag for my original posts about these boys is #oc babbling.

-> TO WRAP UP, I love making friends and yapping. Please feel free to send me asks or messages. Mutuals are free to ask for my discord as I prefer chatting on there over the tumblr messenger.

Also this bears mentioning I think, I am truly crazy about Halsey and post about her very often and WILL talk your ear off about her music if given the opening.

Peace and love.