Dustland Fairytale

"Well, clearly I'm her favourite. I'm the funny one, the quirky one, the one with good tricks!"

"Oh please Gabriel, I thaught you all those basic tricks. And also, funny? You? Debatable. Me on the other hand, I'm hilarious and I'm the most loving brother so there's no way she would choose you over me."

"Ah! Now that's a good one, you were right, you ARE hilarious Luci. But come on now, let's be serious, she loves me more."

"Must feel bad being in such denial-"

"What is going on here?"

The two archangels didn't even notice their sister, the subject of their bickering, had approached them while they were distracted arguing. They're faces lit up at the sight of her angelic form, smiles immediately adorning their features. Gabriel was the first to talk with a much calmer and sweeter tone than before

"Oh dear sister, you're here! We were just talking about you maybe you could finally settle this for us-"

"As if this even needs settling. There's no doubt to be settled!"

Lucifer interrupted his brother, his voice light and playful masking his real emotion to their sister, but the angry undertones did non go unnoticed to Gabriel.

"What? Are you scared to know the truth Luci?"

"No, I just happen to already know it and the fact that you have to ask her just proves that, you on the other hand are not so sure."

"Will you two quit with the arguing please? It hurts me to see you so tormented, I'll do whatever I can to solve the situation."

Her voice resonated over theirs and once again the two brothers were mesmerized by their sister, such a pure and loving creature. After a few moments were neither of her brothers said anything she broke the silence.

"Well?"

Lucifer cleared his troath and finally admitted.

"We were arguing about which brother you loved the most, me or him."

She stood there dumbfounded, her gaze moving between the other two archangels. They started to worry when the moment of silence became longer and longer, terrified at the idea that she might be offended but then a giggle erupted from her. The giggle soon became a loud laugh and they looked at each other confused. When she finally managed to catch her breath she spoke.

"Oh you're so silly! Obviously I love you both in the same way! As I love all my brothers."

"But you have to have a favourite one, am I right?"

"Gabriel I don't do preferences, you're all equally special to me. I care for every single one of you deeply and I'd gladly give everything up for you."

The two brothers looked at her mildly shocked.

"Not even a little tiny preference?"

"No, Lucifer."

"What if you had to choose to save only one?"

"I wouldn't be able to make that choice Gabriel."

"Even if we all die if don't make that choice?"

"Well, that's putting it tragically now, isn't it? But I guess... no, I could never choose just one of you. All or nothing."

Gabriel and Lucifer were left silent, still trying to digest her response to the question they were so sure they knew the answer to. Gabriel, finally coming to term with the facts, spoke up.

"Uh... I guess you really don't do favourites."

"Well, I'm glad I made myself clear on that pa-"

The brothers looked at their sister when she stopped talking and saw her eyes wandering behind them, but before they could turn around she called out with a huge smile on her face.

"Michael! You're back!"

She ran towards their older brother and wrapped her hands around him tightly. Michael was quick to hug her back, kissing her head.

"I missed you so much big brother!"

"I missed you too little sister."

"Please please tell me everything that happened during your mission! I wanna know all the details."

"I have to go see Father, but then I'll gladly entertain you little one."

"I'll come with!"

Michael and Lucifer watched the interaction with their mouths hanging open. As their siblings walked away hand in hand they looked back at each other and with the most shocked voices they yelled.

"SHE PREFERS MICHAEL???"

I took the little piece of glass I kept under my bed, it’s been my only personal protection since the Saviors stole my hunting knife… it was just a sharp piece of a broken window, 20 cm long more or less, the only thing that I did to It was wrapping a rag around less than half of it to create a grip. As I weighed it in my hand I made my way to the door and without saying anything I got out of the house from the back door. I was going to see what was in the woods. As far as I knew no one meandered in the woods and all the researches for supplies lasted days and were far away from Alexandria, so no one should catch me. With my head low, I walked in a fast pace following the wall, I needed to get to the back of Alexandria there’s a spot where no one will see if I climb over the metal barrier. I was almost there when a voice suddenly stopped me.

“Hey!”

I felt the blood in my veins turn into ice, guilt immediately weighted over my heart like I was found committing a crime. I turned my head and saw Carl standing there, looking at me like a mirage.

“Hey…”

My voice sounded so weak, I feared his words.

“I-I thought you would never get out of your room. You’ve been locked there for three days.”

I was sincerely confused, tilting my head to one side.

“What are you talking about? I stayed there for one day.”

I frowned and I could see some sort of concern spread all over his features.

“No… it’s been three days since Negan visit…”

My eyes widened… How? Did I sleep that much?? Was I so screwed up? My voice trembled as I started taking small steps backwards, getting slowly away from the boy

“I n-need to go…”

“Wait! Are you ok? Do you need anything? I… I want to help…”

I shook my head moving faster.

“No, just- just leave me alone… but… thank you Carl, thank you.”

I turned the other way immediately and never looked back at him. Only when I reached my way out I actually looked around to make sure no one was there, as fast as I could I climbed and then jumped on the other side. I took a deep breath, still taking in the new shocking information, I felt like I had no control over my body and that was the only thing I felt in control of during those days. The trees a few meters from me seemed higher than I remembered them to be, a strange force attracting me towards them. The sun was shining in the sky and the grass still had some dew covering it, walking calmly made me feel in a fairy-tale, no one to be seen, only the bird’s singing to be heard. It was almost like it was before the apocalypse, or at least for what I remembered… so many years passed. Searching for anything out of the ordinary, my instinct told me to go ahead without fear. I moved towards the woods near the front of the survivors’ city, thinking that probably I’d find what I was searching for there, and I was right. I was pretty close to the gates when something caught my eye, an arrow was engraved in a tree trunk pointing down to the ground. I kneeled in the dirt and removed the thin layer of terrain that I soon discovered was covering something. A piece o paper folded up was the first thing that I got in my hands.

I opened it slowly, noticing only in that moment that it was a page ripped from my diary, no wonder I didn’t perceived its absence before with the way I treated the personal journal.

“Go there, you won’t regret it I promise. I go there too when I need to switch off.”

The calligraphy was 100% the one on my diary… I took the remaining object from the ground and opened it without hesitations. It was a map, it showed the positions of Alexandria, Hilltop… the name of another place was scribbled all over… everything popped at the eye for being marked in red. I was confused but then I noticed a little circle made with a pencil in the middle of the map, it was pretty far away from everything. I was surprised everything went actually fine till that point, maybe it really wasn’t a trap…

“What the hell… if I’m going to do this, might as well do it all the way through.”

I said quietly to myself, and with the map in my hands I started walking towards the spot.

Everything was quiet for a long time, not many walkers that couldn’t be avoided, I was left me alone with my thoughts. I didn’t want to think about what happened again and neither I wanted to overthink my current actions so I focused on one mystery that still floated in my mind… Who wrote that? Who left the map there for me? Who was sorry for what happened to me? Not knowing was destroying me because I couldn’t even guess it…

Negan? It simply couldn’t be after all that. I won’t believe for one second him being sorry for me. I hated that the attraction towards the man still rumbled deep down.

Simon? Why even? He was Negan’s right hand, I don’t see the point in him being sorry or any sort of kind towards me.

Dwight? The exact same thing… why was I taking them into my options I didn’t understand myself. They didn’t know me, they clearly didn’t care for me, they wouldn’t be “sorry”.

Daryl? I was pretty sure the man found me beyond revolting now. We were not close friends even though I tried to be friendlier with him in the past.

Carl? We were friends sure, but the way he was looking at me before… he thought of me like a wounded animal… he has just pity for me and he already said sorry personally, it wouldn’t make any sense for him to be the one, it would be so obvious. Also, Carl wouldn’t send me to a place so far away from Alexandria.

It was past midday when I arrived near the highlighted location, I could feel my heartbeat speed up with every step I took, some houses were in sight but that was not where I was supposed to go. I brought the map closer to my face, trying to figure out which was the right building, a little shop seemed to be it.

My eyes roamed the area and then found it, a little store on the side of the road. I got closer, a storm pervaded my mind overwhelming it with so many thoughts that I wasn’t able to actually formulate a clear one, my heart stomped so loudly in my ears that a horde of walkers could have been right behind me and I wouldn’t heart it. The sign above the door-frame was completely ruined, what still was legible was

“T— Gre– -asi-”

I made the random letters role on my tongue, unconsciously trying to figure out a name.

“T-Gre-asi, Tgreasi… the Greasi…”

It was a nice looking little shop with red walls and big once-white windows. Time was not gentle with it, but it was strangely beautiful in its crumbling look, a lot of plants were growing around and all over it, it wasn’t hard to identify it as an ex-florist or something like that. A couple walkers were already dead outside, well… actually dead, but still I entered cautiously, holding my piece of glass in hand. The first shelves that came into view were spoiled of everything but the photos of various flowers and plants confirmed my guessing. Nothing special was there… or so I thought.

Slowly I got to the back of the store and that’s when I saw it… My mouth as wide open as my eyes, my breath caught in my throat and it seemed like time froze at the sight.

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“Simon!”

My eyes moved to look at the other savior as he straightened up a little at the call of his name, taking a sharp breath he moved forward, reaching Negan’s side.

“Take this.”

The leader handed the old diary over to his second in command. I watched powerlessly as the other man took it, returning to his previous position.

“You do realize this is all your fucking fault, right?”

My eyes meet Negan’s as I listened to his words, too shocked by the situation to actually show any other emotion besides despair.

“I mean, and this lesson should be for everybody, you don’t get to sneak on me so easily. Thought I wouldn’t notice? Hell, you should know better! And actually, you should be thanking me! I caught you while I was having quite a private conversation with Rick, over there. I could have guessed for the worst and killed you, but I didn’t! Yeah, you should really fucking thank me.”

I was speechless and after a few seconds, when I felt like I could actually talk without sobbing miserably, I said in faint voice “Thank you…”. He leaned towards me with a hand cupping behind his ear, obviously meaning for me to say it louder. I took a deep breath, talking louder, almost screaming from all the stress that overwhelmed me

“Thank you!”

“There we go!”

Finally Negan left my side and took a few steps forward, taking Lucille from Rick’s hands and starting to swirl it around. Shortly after, while I returned my eyes to the ground, I heard him speak

“That’s about it for today, gotta get home, you know? Hope you all learned the fucking lesson.”

He laughed with a deep voice, I heard his footsteps coming in my direction once again, stopping just next to me he whispered in my ear

“Leaving you here… ooh, you’ll see how many friends will be there for you after this little confession. Well, kinda confession.”

He passed over me and the jeeps rumble filled the air. I fell to my knees, not able to bear anything anymore. Someone patted on my shoulder but I didn’t look up

“This is yours.”

The little spoiled diary dropped right in front of me, and that was the moment I looked up to see it was Dwight who brought it back. Without any other words, he left. I watched in pure anger the book and I stayed there… waiting… maybe for the humiliation to be washed off my body or maybe just for everyone else to leave. Several minutes passed and then, completely taken by wrath, I thrown the diary somewhere and ran away. I went to the only place I could think of, my home. I definitely didn’t want to meet Dad so I got in from the back door, going straight up the stairs to my room. The tears just wouldn’t stop coming and I laid on the bed, the only thing I was capable of thinking was how those eyes felt, the eyes of the others citizens of Alexandria… most of them were like an extended family, knowing how all that will ever be in their eyes while looking at me from now on is repugnance was killing me. I ended up falling asleep on the mattress, lulled by desperation.

A strong knock came from my door, waking me suddenly from my light sleep… I stood still, hoping that they would just go away quickly.

“Hey… It’s Carl… mmh, Daryl found your diary on the street… I suppose I’ll just leave it here.”

Steady footsteps were resounding in the silent house after that, getting more and more distant. That damn diary seemed to persecute me… I laid there for a long time before rage guided my actions once again. Reaching the door with big heavy steps, I swung it open, looking at my feet were the book was placed. I grabbed and placed it on my desk, opening the first page and starting to tear apart everything. Hearing the sharp warm sound of the paper being ripped made me feel instantly better, leaving me wanting to do it again. Page after page, tear after tear… I came to the last one… the one Negan read. I poured out all my anger in that last extremely violent movement.

Taking one deep breath I tried to calm down, closing my eyes and embracing myself in my arms. I just wanted to turn back time and change everything… If I could only have such power, so many things would have been way easier… I slowly opened my eyelids, taking in the colours of the world once again. I frowned as I saw something odd. There was something written on the next page of the diary… I kept my little pencil inside the back’s cover, anyone could have used it... my mind immediately remembered all the people who had the diary in their hands… from Negan himself to Carl.

“I’m sorry this had to happen… I left something for you in the woods outside Alexandria.”

It said.

PART 3

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Humming quietly, the demon King read one message after the other. “There’s no queen or king without each other.”, “You know already where this ends.”, “You know already where this goes.”, “You know already your and my words.” … the last one said “On a cold wintery night, everything fell in place at the sound of two voices praising each other’s shades:”. Naturally Crowley understood to which words she was referring to as he started:

“One time, there was a woman. She asked me: ’what’s the best deal I could make?’

I didn’t know the answer, but she did.

She said to me: ‘If someone asked me that I would answer that the best deal is not making a deal.’

Confusion was all I felt because she was the one to call me to her.

‘But if you ask me what’s the best opportunity I could take, things change.’

As she talked I could see in her eyes that she feared nothing, but not because she didn’t know what was coming to her, it was because she knew perfectly.”

Finding himself in front of the big doors he smiled, snapping his fingers swinging them wide open, just like the powerful winds of a storm would have done. There she was, elegantly-sitting on the throne, her eyes locked with his. She smiled slyly as she stayed silent, waiting for him to finish.

“All that that girl wanted was to have ten years without pain, ten years feeling alive and free. I thought that she was out of her mind… no success, no happiness, no fortune… just no pain.

That was actually one of the rare times that I saw someone not regretting his deal.

She died young. She took the black eyes down here, and still now she manages to confuse, shock and intrigue me. With her choices, with her decisions, with her words.”

Crowley slowly got to the throne with heavy steps. That sweet scent overwhelming him, and as he reached the royal sit she rose to her feet.

“One time, there was a woman. Now there’s a queen.”

As he finished pronouncing the words, he placed his forehead on her. Their fingers intertwined gently as they refused to leave each other comforting gaze. She smiled and he mirrored it, just seeing her adorn her own tender face with such beauty made him respond in that natural way immediately.

“My Queen.”

“My King.”

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His confidence is just too much, it’s like a cloud surrounding him. I can only imagine what standing next to him would feel like, I saw grown-ass men terrorised just by being near him, plus he’s tall as fuck and I’m… well, awkwardly short in comparison. He seems such a difficult person even to talk to… I mean, not in literally speaking, but controlling a conversation, I’m sure he could make anyone admit anything. He’s ripped at every edge, sharp in every aspect… but still… he’s a fucking piece of art. Those black hair, salt and pepper beard… can we talk about how that is not grey but freaking silver!? No kidding! Silver… who the fuck has silver beard? I’m being ridiculous. It’s grey.

Anyway, he should really change clothing or one of these days I won’t control myself. I swear, that leather jacket, those nice (unfortunately not-so-tight) pants and those big boots give me all kind of ideas… and then there’s the bat… Lucille as he calls it. Man, I love when he swings that thing around because that utterly terrifies and arouses me. How sick does that sound?

Let’s focus a little on that smile of his. How can any straight woman and any gay man look at that without… good Lord! I can’t even! Now I feel dirty, I’m drooling thinking of sex with that man, be realistic woman! Thinking about it, would he need the blue pill? Are those things findable nowadays? Why do I bother of considering if they could be found, and not on being grossed out by the idea of laying with a man that MAY requires them? I’m so screwed up.

He stayed very little time to Alexandria, I wonder why… maybe he’ll be back soon? I hope so. I could sneak another glance or two at him while pretending to do stuff near the gates.

It’s funny how I just realised all of this page could be summoned in one sentence…

Today I saw Negan.”

Negan read out loud for all Alexandria to hear.

PART TWO

“What are you reading?”

“The Divine Comedy.”

He chuckled taking my hand in his and gently rubbing his thumb over my palm, it looked so small in his grip. I smiled sweetly at him knowing what comment was probably on the way.

“Again? How many times have you read it? I honestly lost count.”

“You were counting?”

“Well, you know, when I found you the fourth time I kinda started.”

I giggled at the idea of him actually counting each and every time I reread some of the poem.

“But this time is different.”

“How?”

“I’m trying to read the English translation of it. And, I’m sorry, but I have to say the original is so much better. I know it’s obvious, I’m not saying it’s bad but I keep thinking how much more poetic it is in Florentines vulgar.

Like the last verses, listen:

but, like a smoothly moving wheel, that Love

was now revolving my desire and will,

which moves the sun and all the other stars.>>

And now listen to this:

ma già volgeva il mio disio e ‘l velle,

sì come rota ch’igualmente è mossa,

l’amor che move il sole e l’altre stelle.>>

Can you see what I mean? Don’t you agree?”

“Baby, the difference between the two at my ears is that one I can actually understand. We are not all Italians or either have studied it for years so we don’t have really other choices then the translation.”

“Trust me, not even all Italians know how to read it, and we study it in schools! But that’s not my point anyway…”

I made my fingers play with the page of the big book… letting my mind travel again. Sam that was looking at me lovingly shifted on his sit and got a better grip at me by my waist, raising me with his arms and sitting me on his legs as he took my place on the bed. With a swift movement of his arm we were cover with my blanket that rolled off of me during the change of position. I took a deep breath and curled up against him, he embraced my body in a protective way and I closed my eyes listening to his calm breathing.

“You know, when I was little and still lived in Italy my father always read for me, if I love literature as much as I do is thanks to him. Thanks to him I’ve always wanted to be just one thing…”

“What?”

“A dreamer.”

I could almost feel the smile on his face as he tightened his grip.

“You are a dreamer.”

“You think?”

“I know.”

He pecked on my head making me hum happily. Mere seconds passed before he added.

“And if I have to be honest, you made a dreamer out of me too.”

I felt my soul warming up at those words, the meaning they carried was all I needed to hear.

“But that’s obviously not enough.”

I frowned at that, my fluttering heart falling immediately. Pulling away from his chest just enough to look him in the eyes, I glanced at him confused. Seeing my face, he immediately smiled widely fondling my back with one hand in a reassuring way.

“I don’t want to be a dreamer…”

He explained

“I want us to be A dreamer. Conjoined in one, not two single flames but one fire, one dreamer.”

My eyes almost filled with tears of joy as I stretched up to kiss him, letting all my love flow from my being to his. Hugging him immediately after dividing our lips, I enlaced my fingers with his.

“We are a dreamer.”  

“You think?”

“I know.”

The blonde man managed to say between giggles. I rolled my eyes at them, but none of the two really cared, it was like dealing with capricious children. The angel cleared his throat, to calm himself more than anything.

“You know what, Dean? I’m going to show you, so maybe my abilities won’t be questioned anymore.”

The older Winchester looked at Castiel with an ‘are you serious?’ glance, but then rose his arms in the air and assumed a ‘go on then’ expression. In all of this I could see that Sam was checking his phone escaping from the unbearable situation and I… well I tried to pay attention to the tall figure of the detective on the screen in front of me, not a simple task considering that I was just in the middle of the fight. Pointless to say that when Cas leaned forward with his characteristic half-closed eyes to take a better look at Dean, casually getting right between me and the laptop, I lost all hope on watching the show. Sighing I crossed my arms over my chest and just watched the two of them being drama queens.

A few seconds passed, then a minute, and Castiel was still silent… but just as the blonde smirked and was about to say something the angelic presence spoke

“You have ketchup on your plaid shirt but it’s dried out, so you ate junk food in the past that typically contain that sauce. You also smell of hamburger signalling that that was your dinner. It’s passed too little time for that ketchup to dry so I’m going to guess that you have bad eating habits.”

I looked at Cas with an approval look, he wasn’t bad at all! Dean grunted and opened his mouth ready to shut him down I’m sure, but once again the angel preceded him

“Also, the skin area just beneath your eyes is darker even though you don’t look too tired, so I’m positive on the fact that you usually don’t sleep much.”

“Ok, but that’s just too easy! You already knew those things, you haven’t deduced them!”

Cas crocked slightly his head on one side and I melted on the spot, he was just so cute when he looked so confused! Dean then proceeded on proving his point

“Cas, you just “deduced” things everyone here could have said about me, because you know how I live my life. I can do that too!  Look, from how wrecked your trench-coat is I’m guessing that you wear it all the time. See? It’s obvious for me because I know you wear it all the damn time!”

I frowned slightly at those words and looked at Dean, for the first time on that night taking part of the conversation

“Actually Dean, your deduction is just one of the possibilities of why his trench-coat is ruined, and not even a complete one. It could also be because it was of someone else that wore it often and he’s wearing it either because he was affectionate to said person or because he doesn’t have anything else to wear. And why doesn’t he? It could be either for poverty or having every other jacket washed or broken. You choose one of the items that could have a million stories behind, and didn’t give enough specifics to be certain of which one is the right one.”

Cas nodded

“Yes, I agree with you.”

The blonde man gave me one shocked look and started babbling incoherent words. “Shut up!” was his final response.

“Still, I think your guessing were not fair.”

“I did what I said I was capable of, didn’t I?”

“If you ask me, you didn’t.”

“Well, I-” Castiel started but stopped talking at my loud and annoyed sigh. Before they were able to start quarrelling once again I decided on trying to make them stop completely.

“Come on guys! You look like teenagers fighting to look better at the eyes of the girl you both have a crush on! Sam, can you help me here?”

Sam looked at me weirdly like I just said the president suck at his face. I followed him with my eyes as he quickly got up from his chair and started walking towards his bedroom, almost embarrassed

“Oh, guys! Look how late it got! I really need to sleep, I’m very tired. Goodnight!”

“What the- Sam?? Where are you-? Wait, are you the girl they fancy about? Sam!”

And before I knew it he was gone leaving me confused and giggling from his strange reaction. As I turned around I saw the two men silently arguing under their breath, I only caught on Dean mounting something like “don’t you dare” to Cas, but they stopped immediately as they noticed I was watching them. I glanced at them with a questioning look

“Ok guys, what’s going on? Why do you keep arguing? And what was that with Sam??”

Silence filled the room for a few second and it was almost surreal. Dean inhaled deeply before talking

“Oh nothing, it’s just… we could say that you made the right deduction.”

Okay, now I was completely lost, what were they trying to say?

“What? I’m not sure I understand… Are you fighting because you both have a thing for Sam?”

“What!? NO!”

“Then what?”

I locked eyes with Castiel hoping to find an answer there, at least. He took a deep breath

“What Dean is trying to say is that we do have a crush on the same girl, and that girl would be you.”

My eyes immediately widened to the fullest, my brain unable to catch up with my ears, not really.

“Are you kidding?”

Once again, I turned to face Dean, he was looking at me with his mouth agape not sure of what he should say.

“No sweetheart, Cas is telling the truth… I wouldn’t have said it so straight out of the blue, but yes. I thought you’d figured out by now that our fights and competitions were for and over you, but maybe you’re not so good at deducing after all.”

He laughed awkwardly and I was completely shocked as I watched them. Well, that actually explained a lot of things.

“So, what do you say?”

Castiel’s voice awoke me from my thoughts, and while switching from poetic-blue to happy-green eyes I started giggling and I couldn’t help the smile on my face.

“Well, I can’t believe my luck! What else I could say?”

Dean smirked and winked at me and I could feel my cheeks warming up.

“Great! Obviously you’ll go on a date with me, right sweetheart?”

“Why are you so sure? I think I could be a better date for her.”

“Oh really? Tell me about it. I’m curious.”

“First of all, I’m more of a gentleman than you are.”

“Cas, you have never been on a date! How can you say you’ll be better than me?”

“At least I won’t look at other girls bottoms as they pass by.”

“You son of a-”

As the two started fighting yet again they didn’t even notice as the girl silently slid back her chair and got up, quickly reaching the hallway to the bedrooms. As she walked she smiled to herself, still hearing the two angrily talking. Maybe that evening wasn’t completely ruined after all.

He’s voice cracked but hearing it was still a relief for my being. Silence followed the plead but it didn’t last long as someone else spoke.

“Lucifer, you are guilty off disloyalty, treachery even. You sinned of pride and created this filthy creature out of maleficence, it is an outrage to our great Father and a dishonour to all our kind.”

“You don’t know what you’re talking about Michael. She’s no such thing.”

“So you admit your crimes?”

“That makes no difference, you are not accusing me you are already condemning me.”

I watched speechless as he talked to his brother angered, how did we get to this point? What’s our crime?

“Our Father is not condemning you, he’s giving you the blessed possibility to redeem yourself. He offers you salvation and to have back your place among us. All you have to do is open your eyes and realise that what you did is wrong. Obey, kneel to the humans, respect his will. Forget this flawed evil and embrace once again your true self.”

“And what do you know about my true self? Mmh? What do any of you know? Because, if you ask me, I’ve never been so true in my existence. You call her flawed when we all know that the one you ask me to bend for are the most imperfect. I will never do that. I’m never going to leave her, all the more so if I have to accept those cockroaches instead.”

Lucifer’s words echoed into the limitless space and it almost seemed like time froze. I couldn’t take it anymore, I couldn’t stand there and watch them treat him like that in silence.

“You have no right to make assumptions like those. Isn’t he your brother?”

Taking a deep breath, I saw the terrified expression on the archangel intensifying as I spoke, but I just couldn’t shut up, it was too unfair. I looked up to the fiery light above.

“Isn’t he your son? How can you stay were you are and punish him for not being like you? All of this is meaningless! You did nothing to us, you can’t take anything away from us, because each other is all we have. Our lives will go beyond everything. Do you know what happiness is? Any of you?”

The room was dead silent.

“Happiness is seeing someone smile and can’t help but do the same. It’s this great warm feeling that makes you forget of everything else, and you want to cuddle in that sensation because it’s just too good to be true… but it flies away like a bubble, you shouldn’t touch it or it will disappear. It’s something you live and admire as it goes away and all you can do is make another bubble.”

Still no one spoke, I didn’t know why or how wise it would be to go on but I did.

“We are happy. I don’t even understand our crime, aren’t w-”

My voice stopped in my throat and an aching pain flashed all trough my body. I fell to my knees unable to breathe. All I heard in that moment were muffled screams, then deep cuts started to form on my skin, slicing my flesh apart to the bones.  It was a never-ending whirl of unbearable pain, those mere seconds felt like years of torture. All of a sudden it all stopped. With the remaining strength I had, I looked up to my beloved, his eyes filled with tears.

“Speak, brother.”

The sour voice of the archangel hurt my ears. I glanced at Lucifer, smiling weakly at him. Anger filled his eyes as he looked away from me, nodding to himself and now starring at Michael.

“No. I won’t do what you ask me, cast me out. I don’t care. I have no interest in following a father that is everything but that. I have no interest in loving a brother ready to stab me if I disobey. But Father, if you ever loved me, you will let her live.”

“Do you have any idea how sinful all of this is!? You are not only loving someone more than Father, you choose to love this-this DEMON more than him!”

“Yes, I do! I choose to love her because she more than anyone understands! And I swear, if you touch her…”

“What brother? What happens if I touch her?”

“I will kill you.”

A big racket stormed from all the angelic presences but it all stopped at one simple word of that almighty voice.

“The Mark changed you in the worst way possible, Lucifer. The judgement is made, you are going to be locked in a cage in the pit of the world, never to see the light again, never to walk here among us again.”

I watched with anger as Michael made his way to Lucifer, two angels keeping the chained archangel still.

“And if it’s true that each other is all you have you won’t be punished if she lives.”

My anger turned into terror as I saw him coming towards me, a spear of flaming light appeared in his grip, and before I realised, it was going through my heart. I looked at my chest in complete shock. I glanced up at lucifer who was screaming and struggling but not a sound reached me. For the last time I fell to the ground, it was cold… now I noticed properly.

 Lucifer’s screams could be heard in all of creation that day. Not being able to even have her in his embrace for the last time. That was the day he was casted out of heaven, the day he truly lost everything. His first creation, the only creature he was ever able to love as much as his unjust father. That was the day Lucifer’s eyes lost all the angelic beauty becoming that crimson red of wrath. That was the only time his eyes cried. That was the last time he cared.

All those he created after, they were weak and filthy compared to her, easy to control… he called them demons to remind himself what getting attached and being happy leads to. He called them that to remember what his family truly is.

Lucifer looked at me finally relaxing himself, smiling sweetly. Hunted by heaven and hell, we were obviously always tensed up and those moments of safety seemed too good to be enjoyed.

“This foolish senseless side of you, so human… you have no idea how clear it is that you are not a full prince of hell.”

“I think I got a win-win! Demon and human all at once, very perky. And don’t pretend you don’t love it.”

He grinned mischievously at me, wrapping his arm around my waist and pulling me to his side, I instinctively hugged him.

“You know too well, quirky little thing.”

I giggled at his words, how funny that the angel was pronouncing them. That little moment was so perfect, if only I could I would have lived there forever like that, in his embrace cuddled by his quiet breathing. Silence filled the room and neither of us moved, afraid of making all of that slip between our fingers, but everything ends… With a kiss on my forehead he said

“Ok.”

“Ok what?”

“Take the damn picture.”

I smiled the brightest of smiles before taking my instant camera with my right hand, trying to stretch my arm to make us both appear in the photo. His remarkable tallness now feeling so real next to my pathetic shortness, he laughed at my efforts and I stuck out my tongue while letting him take the little work of lenses from my hold. He easily got it in the right position and I hugged him even more smiling for the camera.

“Just one.”

“Alright but make it nice.”

The characteristic “click” of the camera was heard seconds after and the little photo got out from the side. Jumping of happiness, I took it and impatiently waited for the image to appear, and when it did I couldn’t help the big grin on my lips. It was perfect. Proudly, I showed it to the amused archangel in front of me and I could see a joyful sparkle in his unbelievably blue eyes.

“I love it! Thank you, Luci.”

“You’re welcome, quirky little thing.”

“I’m going to always keep it with me.”

Another hug was shared between the two of us, the awareness that each other was all we had. Because when everybody let us down and no one was there to help, we raised together and together we will always be.

The body fell heavy on the floor, twitching slightly. Lucifer felt the most powerful rage raise inside him, his eyes a dreadful red as he looked deadly at the group of angels.

“What have you done…How dare you!”

One simple move of his hand was enough to make all the angels fly, pinned at every wall of the room. An aura of pure death surrounded him like a storm. Clenching his fists, he watched as all his brothers and sisters started dying a painful death, chocking and burning of white pure light, sliding to the ground miserably. Still taken by the fury it took him a moment to realise the situation and actually turn around looking at her worried. Her defenceless figure not moving an inch. His eyes widened and he rushed to her, taking her in his arms all he could mutter was a cracked and repeated “no.”. Looking in her eyes none of the life and light he was so used to see in them was gone, her expression of sorrow gave him a sharp pain to the heart, it was something he just couldn’t bear. Pressing forcefully a hand where the angel blade stabbed her he tried in vain to stop the crimson blood, shaking slightly his eyes turned red one more time as he screamed a terrifying “NO!” that made everything around him quake. Given into desperation he looked at her one more time, not believing any of that was happening. One thing caught his eyes, it was something picking from the inner task of her leather jacket, and as he took it in his fingers for the first time ever Lucifer felt a single tear slip down his face. The photo.

Her smile, her eyes, just her being her… that was what he saw in that photo, so different from the girl now in his hug. And suddenly it was her voice that echoed in his mind, that sweet dear voice that he learned to love, remind him

“Something to look at one day and smile, something to make my heart happy when everything is so unfair even heaven wants us to cry.”

The warm teardrop fell from his chin on the girl’s clothes. A new determined look ran trough his features as he putted the picture in the little pocket of his coat, placing one last sweet kiss on her forehead.

“I think what they say is true… you don’t realise the value of things till you lose them… I’ll go on, for us, raising until I’m over the sky.”

He smiled sadly. Taking a deep breath, he calmed down the overwhelming emotions in his voice, too intense for him. Putting her gently down he inhaled and raised to his feet.

The hunter couldn’t help himself, frowning and angrily muttering to himself while looking away.

“What was that? Sorry didn’t catch what you said.”

But only a wall of silence was the response for Lucifer. That was fine by him, all those days without a word from his victim were kind of ended with those barely whispered words, he felt stronger and knew exactly what to push know.

“Well, if you don’t answer me Sam I’m just going to make assumptions and say you really do have a crush on her. You see, the problem is that you’ll never make a move, too scared of ‘ruining the friendship’, right? Don’t you worry dear… I’ll take good care of her since, know that I think about it, you probably don’t care that much or else you’d defend her right now.”

The archangel smiled widely seeing the man struggle to remain silent and was in that moment that a strong knock came from the door of his room.  Sam glanced at the clock on the wall that marked 2 am, every nerve on alert. Strange hour for anyone to come visit his room, Dean took the keys so he wouldn’t need to nock. He rose from his sitting position on the bed and took the gun on the nearby table, getting nearer and nearer to the door.

“Who could it be at this hour? Mmmh, do you feel the tension Sam?”

The poor guy crooked his head trying to bring away the unbearable voice. Once he was at the wooden door, he took one deep breath and slightly opened revealing Y/N standing on the other side with a concerned look. His body relaxed at the view but soon he found himself pretty confused, why was she there?

“Y/N! Why are you up this late? Do you need something? Are you not feeling well?”

The girl looked absently at him and he immediately knew that something was off. She opened her mouth to speak but no words could be heard in the cold night. Sam without further hesitation opened the door completely, taking her by her left arm and dragging her in the warm room, closing the door right after.

“Ok, you need to sit down. Here. Please tell me, what’s wrong? Something happened?”  

Y/N just looked him in the eyes but then… she smiled and winked at him, laughing at his face. What the hell was going on? She placed her hands on his shoulders pushing him away and, considering that he was crouched in front of her sitting figure, he nearly fell losing his balance for a moment. The girl made her way next to Lucifer, swinging her hips in the process. Placing one arm around her waist, the archangel held her close to him leaving Sam speechless, coming to the realization that that wasn’t his friend but an illusion… Lucifer’s illusion. Oh, he was enjoying how messed up Sam was in that moment, his eyes open wide, refusing to comprehend what he was seeing.

“As I said, I’ll take good care of her…”

Lucifer kissed the girl and she responded enthusiastically while trembling in his embrace, the boy sitting on the bed dropped his jaw, eyes glued to the scene in front of him. Lucifer slowly but passionately started kissing down Y/N’s neck and little moans of pleasure escaped her lips, she took one of his hands that was resting on her hips and forcefully placed it on her breasts.

“Mmh, eager, aren’t we?”

He teased her everywhere with his touch, the sounds she was doing and the reactions she was having to the angel’s attentions were affecting Sam way more that he liked to admit. Not in the way that they should. He knew that he should feel disgusted and angry for what the Devil was making him see but… he found himself aroused more than anything. Quickly looking away he tried so hard to ignore them, ignore his own body that was responding happily to the situation while all she was doing was worsen everything. Her moans were all that could be heard in the room but soon enough the slicking noise of the two of them kissing was added, Sam was able to restrain himself from turning around… until the sound of clothes hitting the floor was heard. He eyed them so fast his neck hurt and he wished he never did. She was bended at the waist taking off her jeans, her t-shirt already on the floor leaving her in just her black lace lingerie. A long whistle echoed and Sam suddenly remembered that he was not the only one drowning in the view.

“Come here sweetheart, you’ve been a nasty little girl… making Sammy over there want you so bad and having no clue about it. Don’t you know that everytime he jerks off he thinks of your body? Your hands wrapped around him, your legs spread in front of him… and most of all he likes to imagine those soft lips of yours and all the profanities they could do.”

The Winchester’s eyes were glued to the scene now, there was no hope that he could pretend they weren’t there, Y/N was sitting in Lucifer’s lap and the icy eyed man was touching her in the most sinful way possible, suddenly grabbing her bra and ripping it of her chest making her whimper. Sam inhaled sharply unable to not look at the girl’s breasts, so perfect in his eyes and so much better than he imagined them to be, seeing The Devil’s hands roughly grabbing them he felt his own hands twitch, finger flexing almost feeling the soft and warm skin.

“I get why though… I’m sure you can tell.”

Lucifer smiled mischievously and the girl nodded, grinding on his lap whispering a needy “Yes…”.

“Get on your knees darling. Lets put on a show for him.”

She happily obliged, glancing at Sam and slowly licking her lips in the meanwhile, the hunter was shocked, speechless and simply not in control of his body anymore, he watched as she placed herself between the archangel’s thighs and with nimble fingers undo the leather belt, unzip his jeans and cautiously pulling him out of the white boxers that he was wearing. A small gasp escaped her lips, looking up at Lucifer that was still smiling pleased, she hesitantly placed her right hand around the base and moved it slightly. Sam could feel the clothes constrict him more and more, he was unprepared to what he saw next, from the precious lips he always dreamt about came her glistening tongue moving gracefully up and down her new toy making both man twitch, the young tall man had to touch himself, his arousal becoming even painful. Lucifer was overwhelmed, not expecting such sensation, he gripped her hair and forced her on him, she struggled and panted for air when she had the possibility but never in a complaining way.

“You like it, don’t you? My dirty girl.”

Sam eyed him with hatred and felt so ashamed for what he was doing, especially when he saw The Devil watching his lack of self-control over the lust in his body and mind. The scene went on for a few more minutes, Lucifer’s animalistic panting and grunting spreaded in the silent night with the wet noise of her actions and soon the hunter’s heavy breath was added to the sexual chorus. All of a sudden she was forcefully rose to her feet and spinned around the room by the angel, Sam jumped of surprise and watched as Lucifer pinned her down on the small wooden table of the motel room, it cracked like it was going to break but no one in the room cared about that.

“This is going to be so much fun.”

“Yes…” she exhaled, the blonde man behind her, that was roaming his eyes all over her, laughed and made eye contact with Sam, winking he mounted “You too.”. The other man, still sitting on the bed, was feeling so guilty because he knew Lucifer was right and he hated it. Seeing her like that was killing him but it was when he noticed that she was looking him straight in the eyes that he completely lost it, a jolt of pleasure pervading him at the sight. She moaned loudly when the powerful being took her completely without warnings, with every forceful movement her voice seemed louder, her face chaotically covered in sweat and hair but in Sam’s opinion that was the most angelic vision his eyes ever landed on. All her innocence long gone, at that point the young hunter couldn’t stop himself anymore and he couldn’t care less of the amusement on Lucifer’s face, he just wanted to feel that sinful magnificent pleasure and he knew she was, once again, the one providing it. It was almost surreal, everything was slowly but inexorably moving faster and faster, becoming rougher and rougher, feeling more and more primordial. The Devil was enjoying every second of it, every sensation, her little trembles, how warm and strong the feeling of her was, how beautiful her body was… she was definitely one of the most wonderful between Daddy’s creations, in her imperfections he could really see the beauty. The amazing feeling was intensifying by the second, a so worldly want his vessel was making him able to feel, his name rolled out her mount over and over, it was just incredible. In the meantime, Sam couldn’t help but replace it with his own, his mind overwhelmed with the idea of being him the one to bring her such pleasure, with the idea of feeling her beneath him, wrapped around him while making all those delicious sounds. His hand moved in all the ways he liked the most on himself. For the first time he didn’t have to close his eyes to see her naked body. Getting closer to the extreme pleasure he had eyes just for her, steading his feet on the floor he gripped the blankets of the bed and sooner that he expected he threw his head back, eyes shouted and mouth agape, jerking and releasing himself of that pervading desire, a fiery sensation running trough his body. Once the feeling was over he opened his eyes just in time to see the woman he loved reach the same sensation. Lucifer groaned loudly at the sense in his body, everything that till that moment he would have described as the most amazing feeling intensified so much that the only word he could think to describe it was heavenly, he moved with all his force seeking for more, desiring more. On the other hand, what broke Sam’s hearth, now that his thoughts weren’t obscured by his lust, was that he was not the one keeping her in his embrace in that moment, he felt dirty and guilty because he enjoyed all of that, he felt angry and sad because the first time he ever saw her like that was with Lucifer inside her. The Devil kept going until he reached his own pleasure, one last moan filled the room, and he was sure that nothing so pleasurable was permitted to him to feel, once again the proof that Dad cared more for mankind than him or his brothers, honestly, in that moment he just wanted to feel that again and again and again…  he retook his composure and attitude before remembering why he was doing that in the first place, sighing satisfied with his work, with his torture for the poor guy. Grabbing the girl by her waist he kissed her one more time, taking her closer to Sam he pushed her over him.

“Look at her Sam, look at her because this is the only time you’ll ever be able to see the bliss on her face, and remember who it was to bring such joy over her.”

Lucifer smiled wickedly while watching the Winchester embrace his friend in that protecting way, like he was a shield for her and nothing bad could touch her in that moment. The archangel chuckled and snapped his fingers making her disappear, leaving poor Sam hugging the absolute nothing.

“Well, as I predicted that was fun!”

“Go to hell.”

“Oh! Nice one Sammy! Wanna have a trip back with me?”

Sam let himself fell on the bed covering his ears while Lucifer started talking without stopping even to breath.

The next morning Dean was still missing, the younger brother figured that he must have been lucky enough to go home with some chick. After a night of hardly any sleep Sam gave up on trying to rest and went out to take some breakfast. The blonde man following him as always. The memories of the previous night were hunting him, cursing himself for felling in that trap, for everything that happened he blamed himself. The voice of the other man was disgusting him even more, making him feel sick. Slowly returning to the motel room his only intention was to take a cold shower and distract himself with the case they were working on, obviously he couldn’t be so fortunate. Just as he was opening the rooms door he realised that his brother had the keys and now he was locked outside.

“Dammit.”

“Something’s wrong Sam?”

Y/N’s voice made him froze on the spot, slowly he turned to face her and when her features were on sight all he could think of was when he saw them the night before while she was bended on that table. He blushed slightly and replied a little too quickly…

“Nonono, everything is good- everything is great.”

She gave him a strange look but shoved it off her mind. She smiled sweetly at him and he could feel his hearth skip one beat, pointing at Dean’s and his door she gently asked,

“Let me guess, Dean took the keys and now you’re stuck out here?”

Sam looked awkwardly between her and the door and then smiled rising his shoulders

“Yep.”

She laughed and he melted on the spot, or at least he was until he saw Lucifer right behind her, smiling widely like he won the lottery. His eyes full of lust as he examined her body.

“Oh Sammy, you have no idea how that ass feels…”

A flash of panic was clearly visible on Sam’s face and Y/N didn’t miss it.

“Are you sure everything is alright?”

The concern was so clear in her voice as she spoke and that warmed the man’s heart.

“Yeah, don’t worry, I just got another sleepless night.”

“Oh, trust me, it wasn’t hard to deduce.”

Sam laughed with her, but seeing The Devil smelling the perfume of her hair was difficult to ignore.

“Come in, I’m not letting you out here, when Dean is back I’ll free you, I swear!”

Giggling the girl walked back in her room, Lucifer took a step back letting her pass. The two men locked eyes.

“This is by far the best torture ever!”

The archangel was quick to follow Y/N inside, leaving a frustrated Sam to close the door, wondering how bad that day could possibly get.

Thanks for reading! Let me know what you think! This was my first smut and I know it’s written in an unusual way (I think?), I really hope it was good.