it's all relative

(flowey "and because you 'can' you 'have to'" speech) i guess i do anticipate the FOV in one month from now strategizing of making the moves necessary to get to the front of a Bullant set again. That obligation always persists, like spending a long time engaging with imitations of Typals that if an opportunity for authentic engagement arises it's like, Ok? Obviously I should just pursue? I like things that I like and having fun is fun?

i think when im not in the midst of my craze like i was i might forget what about gizz even pertains to meraTypes. like it's not viily, not inherently, just a little by circumstance of kind of being the catalyst/topic/subject of viilys. its not meu or mir or even nonn. but it's Grove and i forget about Grove because i felt Grove/Cove as a feeling the most in 2022 so maybe if i just listen to Nonagon or Mind Fuzz then i could recall "oh, this is very very emblematic of grove, like, the most even" and go look at pictures of them from 2014. Because if anything abt gizz is a meratype then it's Grove so by this logic my favorite gizzthings come from that middleperiod up to eric departure. and i'll look at michaelcavs pictures and remember that i actually would change my middle name to like mickey or mackey and it's maybe the only ounce of like, transmasculine euphoria i might ever feel within my genderfluidity, because kglw as a band of friendguys do encapsulate that like, to the extreme, so actually yeah there has always been substance, aww, aww.

It's true though. I'm literally nice.

I think I've entered the humble and natural stage of progression of feeling personally that I actually do have more varying bias for gizzard albums and songs than the decree ive had that I think they are just "all good." And everything is relative and maybe I am referring more to say their electronic stuff because I really like electronic music genres but I actually really very often find gizztechno to be mmmmmm uninterestinggg (gasp). Alien Metal has the chance to feature gabber or hardcore breaks or cooler breakbeat or maybe even downtempo and Maybe we'll see. In the meantime I have my boardsofcanada and toriena and nanoray.

Imreally interested in creative works that demonstrate the author either being very good at or sort of bad at inserting themselves, like when does it become apparent that an author is writing a character as a mouthpiece, what writing techniques allow the author's ideologies to be integrated into the narrative relatively seamlessly? But as not to oversaturate the narrative with just that perspective?

(remembers) noelle is viily (Wow....)