vern, xoxo

I ended my Spotify subscription, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE help a gal out and give me reccs, (free with offline listening but I’m not being too picky)

this might be unbelievable to say and I can feel the tomatoes getting ready to be thrown, but I still haven’t watched Sinners

(hint hint, I’m a poc, and everyone around me seems to have watched and loved it, so keep my secret, thanks!)

I’m deleting my chatgpt account and jai.

Im starting to feel hella guilt like actually, bc it’s becoming a regular conversation topic/debate in my classes about ai, and im anti-ai in public but ugh, i don’t wanna be a fucking hypocrite.

Boom deleting, now gonna reconnect with nature and my hobbies, and I understand the effects of AI on the planet and peoples abilities or cognitive skills .

my most fav gif btw!!!

I kinda scrolled thru old insta texts w ppl I lost contact with and BRO, this guy and I were nearly thick as thieves if I never moved, and it’s weird reading back our dms bc i feel it’s all my fault we don’t talk anymore

Currently, I find myself having trouble really holding friendships with anyone, especially guys, I always like manipulate myself into distancing and then I get depressed and shit when I realize we’re not as close as I’d thought, (close as in, talking regularly after school, like bro, when school ends most of my “friends” never text me.)

I don’t know if maybe I was affected by the move or past experiences I’ve had, or maybe it’s my current situation and how life is sucking, but I genuinely can’t interact with people the same when I was younger. I never second guessed myself, never waited for them to text first, and if they didn’t respond to mine I’d just drop them, bc I genuinely had a spine and standards back then.