sentience

projects:

killing me to love you

art is chaos

second album

untitled 2020

the kingdom come

characters:

[tiwylm] lizzie adams

[tiwylm] armitage jones

by shelley a. - my pseudonym 

this is where you left me

the land of gods and monsters

writing prompts

sharon carter week 2021

wips

the one series

the one who left me

the one whose heart i broke

the last vampires

A YEAR EARLIER

“Are you not sick of me?” She asked as if this was the breaking point of everything between them.

“No.” He wanted to laugh, she was the only person who could make him feel like he was worth something, no matter how many magazines and billboards her face was on, he would never be sick of her face. She was his everything. The person in front of him is trying so hard to make him hate her with no avail.

“Not now, but someday.” She sighed.

SONG OF INNOCENCE (2022) 

Everything comes back to black and white, when all roads lead to that hometown and high school you’ve been avoiding. Reliving the part of you that you wished you could forget. But, forgetting is a sin for who would you be without the careless and reckless game of love you once played at 17?

THE KINGDOM COME (Twenty Five Twenty One Historical AU)

“Can’t you tell I’m in love with you?” The chaperoned visits, quick glances, and casual touches assured him that this was a love match not just an arranged marriage, as what was first introduced to them. They were bound to get married in the next full moon, after months of careful negotiation with her clan this political alliance will be on its way. Today, he had finally put into words the feelings that filled his heart, giving her flowers and sending her letters were not enough to console the longing ache to be with her. His thoughts wherever he may be always returned to her and she had to know. 

THE LAST VAMPIRES (inspired by The Scholar Who Walks the Night)

The people around the café would probably think that the young couple in the right corner of the room near the window were normal. They were facing at each other, talking with hush voices, there was nothing wrong with them except for the fact that both looked like they belong to a museum. Their faces were what renaissance artists would paint in their masterpieces and what musicians of today would write their songs about. They were terrifyingly beautiful, the kind that makes any human understand the concept of a god. But the world of today was different, customers in the café were too occupied by their phones, the only one who noticed them was the barista who took their orders. People would not admire you in real life unless your photo was posted on the internet gathering a thousand likes and shares. This was the kind of anonymity that they enjoyed living in this new world, the perfect place for this conversation to take place.

“I always knew that you would catch up on me. What is it this time? The cameras installed in the building where I live or the bank accounts under my new name?” She had been called by many names; in this life she was called Eva. Eva had been running away from the man in front of her, but apparently living in a small town with a new identity was not enough.

“I always knew where you were a long time ago, I don’t need any modern technology to find you” Shin answered. Unlike Eva, Shin lived by tradition. He still carried the same name he had thousand years ago.

“Why find me now?” Eva looked at the untouched coffee mugs in front of them, it was still burning hot. She liked how it looks and how humans were able to craft such drink. It was such a pity that both of them could not actually take a sip and taste it.

“As much as I want to leave you and your make-believe life, you’re not safe.” Shin raised his voice for the first time. This frightened Eva, Shin was never this serious.

“When was I ever safe with you? Did you assassinate another president again?” Eva tried to joke referring to that accident when a stray bullet killed a famous president. It was Shin’s fault of course.

“Somebody wants to hurt me.” Shin said.

Eva had to laugh, “Oh please you can’t be killed.” She tried, a lot of times but nobody can kill the great vampire, the creator of all monsters. The kind of monster that books and movies could not even write properly.

“There are other ways to hurt me.” He stared at her intensely, reminding her the times he lost control. She remembered the first of his many outbursts. She could still picture the bodies of the villagers, piled up as he drank all their blood, it was not out of hunger it was for revenge. The villagers accused her of witchcraft and planned to burn her. When he heard their plans, he led the village into a massacre. Every sin he had committed and every person he had to kill; she was the reason behind it all.

“You can’t be that overdramatic, we’re older now.” She shrugged trying to ease up the situation.

He laughed.

“It’s been a thousand years since you’ve become a vampire and your measurement of time, still amazes me, I am still the same person you have met a long time ago. Nothing’s changed. We’re frozen with time.” He took a deep breath and said, “The moment that they try to hurt me through you, you would know how I would react.” This was his other way of saying that he wanted to protect her. Vampires had a different sense of protection.

“When did you know where I was hiding?” She wanted to change the subject, she had left that life of chaos and his words of warning would not stop her from doing what she wants.

“5 years ago, but I saw you with a guy. You were happy.” There was a long pause. “Do you still like pretending that you’re human? Are you still happy?” Shin was disgusted with humans; he could not stand their petty problems and lives.

“I am. We got engaged.” She answered firmly. Shin then raised his eyebrows, looking at her ring finger. None of her words mean something since she was not wearing any ring. “Then I told him I can’t bear him a child, he left.” She added as she tried to cover her left hand with her right.

“This is a new world. Isn’t it okay to not have a child?” Shin lifted the mug in front of him, he examined the drink, smelling the fragrance.

“Like you said, what I was before is what I am now. I was born a lady, I was the crown princess, with an obligation to provide an heir.” She recalled her past life; this was something that still hurt. The kind of pain that stings time to time.

“Does it change anything? Your worth as a woman does not change if you can’t produce a child.” Shin returned the cup to the table, looking down as he talked. If there was anything that he could do to ease the pain that Eva felt he would have done it, but he was the reason of all of it.

“Unlike those girls, they have a choice. I have none.” Eva said, if she was a human, she would have been in tears by now, but she was not. She was a vampire, a fact that she still could not face. “How about you? What were you doing these past years? Did you find a problematic girl and broke an engagement?” She said trying to lighten the mood.

“You know there’s only you.” Shin stared at her again, this was the truth even how many years have passed, his heart was only for her. “But I roamed around the world finding the reason of our existence and I found a cult who worshipped me as their god.” He added seriously.

“But?” Something was wrong, Eva could sense it. This was not the first time, Shin was worshipped as a god, as a deity, as an emperor, or as a king. She was with him during those times as his partner, as his queen, her absence could make a great difference.

Day Two of Sharon Carter Week 2021 |  Favorite Spy Tropes 

Mr. and Mrs. Rogers 

A bored married couple is surprised to learn that they are both spies hired by competing agencies to kill each other.

Day One of Sharon Carter Week 2021 |  On The Run

Of course it was Steve who found her first, no matter how many people tried to track her, nobody can outwit the brilliance of Sharon Carter. 

They were naturally born enemies, both were from different clans that fought each other on the opposite side of the war. But every year they meet in the farthest side of the kingdom, a tradition that none of them want to acknowledge.

The Land of Gods and Monsters (working title) by Shelley A.

It was the sudden change of the breeze, the abrupt coldness of the weather and the smell of the sea in the busy city, that made her realize what was happening. He was back. When you have walked the earth for thousands of years, nothing would surprise you but this was different. He was in front of her and there were a lot of things she wanted to say. Why did he leave? Why come back now when everything was finally the way it should be? Before he could even say a word, she slapped his face. Years of exile, they had each other’s back as they fought their way to survive the land of mortals. But why did he leave and caused a wreck of havoc. He was and still the reason why mortals can’t sleep soundly at night, the shivers the humans feel down their spine. “you’re a monster.” she hissed. After he left her, wars started happening, he introduced catastrophes to this fragile world, and caused too much pain that humans could not even bare to live in it. He laughed and said, “better a monster than an arrogant god.” While he was destroying the world, she fixed it in return, thinking it as a way of penance for all his sins, a give and take. She stopped conflicts, healed their lands of diseases and even performed miracles. She created wonders that no one could do, but that was not the reason why they were here. They were exiled, the forbidden citizens to their own land. They did not have any right to destroy or help this world, this was their punishment but they could not even stop themselves. They were too proud, foolish immortals disturbing the earth and the humans living in it. Maybe that was why they were made for each other. Maybe that was the reason that even after all the things that happened to them and the years that passed, they still looked at each other’s eyes with so much care and affection.

This is where you left me by Shelley A.

“I thought you'd go to France and study art, how did you end up becoming a corporate slave?” She asked with a joking tone.

This is where you left me by Shelley A.

A singer-songwriter, record producer, and actress. She is best known for her narrative songwriting that often centers around her personal dating life. Her debut studio album was the longest-charting album of the 2000s on the Billboard 200, which made her an overnight sensation. Her breakthrough second studio album, won numerous awards. It became the best-selling album of the year. Her second album is an apology to a past lover in the form of songs, something that she has never done before.  She continued, “I’ve never felt the need to apologize in a song before, because it’s always been me who needs to hear an apology. But in the last two years I’ve experienced different kinds of love.  And sometimes you learn a lesson too late and at that point you need to apologize because you were careless and cruel. So the album is an apology to the guy whose heart I broke”

Despite the lack of support from his noblemen, the new Emperor was determined to present Woo Hee to court. He was committed to prevent the accession of his elder half-sister, aware of her name’s association with the rising rebellion.  However it would not be as easy as he thought, considering his sister brought out the account of his illegitimacy.      

Two unlucky children of enemy families become lovers but did not commit suicide. Their unfortunate circumstances put a start to their country’s longest civil war.

  — A Romeo and Juliet Love Story With A Twist

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