another vent blog

What I was saying on the “Living Wild: LGBTQ Animal Comics” panel at the Queers & Comics Conference in a nutshell.

when you are sad and alone and desperate.

I can hold your hand and hold you together

through your darkest times.

I can come to you when no one else would

and care for you like no one else could.

back to obsessing.

back to late night thoughts.

back to self destruction.

back to compulsive behaviors.

back to wasting time.

back to procrastinating.

back to spending most of my time in bed.

back to self sabotage.

back to ruining everything i touch.

back to not getting shit done.

back to posting on all my accounts.

back to overthinking.

back to spending too much time on my phone.

back to feeling helpless.

back to oversharing.

back to feeling lonely.

back to feeling worthless.

back to spending too much time my socials.

back to feeling hopeless.

back to realizing i don’t have a purpose.

back to binging.

back to being fat.

back to having urges.

back to being stuck in a cycle.

back to going too far.

back to my bed.

i’m going backwards instead of forwards.

i can’t be who i was before.

my therapist: …you’re dissociating…. 

me: