vavielyn

i hate being reminded of why i keep to myself and dont talk to people

once again my mother is in a relationship which means a lot of shouting and screaming and suddenly im back in middle school trying to drown out voices with music

never safe

i love being useless and a burden to my family, i never wanted to be alive and not be able to afford basic necessities, who tf told them to have a kid they couldn't afford

i cant love him no matter how much i try, he will always be a danger to me. how do married couples do this

they all try to make you believe they are the harmless and beautiful flower in the garden full of deadly plants, i no longer will be shocked when they drop the act and reveal they are the deadliest of them all.

why is saying no or i dont want it never enough, why do i need to come up with a million bullshit excuses so they stop asking. i want to be left alone.

does anyone actually believe straight men can love? anytime i try to give it another chance they prove me correct, they are only here to take things and hurt others