rambling about my feelings and Past Tense and Julian and covid and other 2024 problems
Adding a cut since this is a long post.
I have a lot of grief and disappointment about covid stuff I haven't fully found my way out of. Maybe I never will, and that is what it is. You love the world and the world breaks your heart and you love the world. There's probably some wonderful quote about that I can't remember right now. But, this moment from Julian in the first part of Past Tense was something that resonated really strongly for me for a while when it came to my struggles (that haven't ceased to exist, but the pain is a lot quieter these days) with people (especially friends and those I knew directly) not masking in shared public indoor spaces:
SISKO: It's not that they don't give a damn, Doctor. It's that they've given up. The social problems they face seem too enormous to deal with. BASHIR: That only makes things worse. Causing people to suffer because you hate them is terrible, but causing people to suffer because you have forgotten how to care? That's really hard to understand. I have my own little desperately-clung-to headcanon that Julian, who I relate to and admire so much, would share these feelings. That he'd still put on a mask in our 2024 when running an errand and definitely in a medical facility. That he wouldn't accept the vulnerable falling "by the wayside" as an acceptable cost of forgoing that practice.
Masks work. Cleaning the air works (it's why risk is so much lower outdoors if not in a crowd). We could have had something so different than our current circumstances in the US where we insufficiently track infections, where vaccines (which do not stop covid transmission but remain incredibly important) are becoming inaccessible to so many. 1 in 10 infections (a fairly conservative commonly used stat) results in long covid and access to effective treatment is a huge issue. We don't have access to up-to-date at home tests and our current generation of RATS suck at giving us accurate negative results. Even as so many of covid's dangers sicken and disable, it remains a leading cause of death. And I know that so many people do not know these things. That they have been under-served and lied to by the institutions that should (sigh, "should") offer accurate science, and affordable (or free) resources to stay safe with—but don't. Even people who do know these things often have to face isolation, or ostracism, or worse if they try to hold out on some of their precautions.
It could all be better. The exchange between Sisko and Julian at the end of Past Tense's second part made me reflect the other day—maybe I saw it in a gifset? Julian says:
BASHIR: You know, Commander, having seen a little of the twenty first century there is one thing I don't understand. How could they have let things get so bad? The Past Tense two-parter focuses on issues of (I don't think I can do a good job of summarizing this but) failed and oppressive systems, houselessness, classism, societal collapse. It reflects so many of our current problems. "How could they have let things get so bad?"—"they" meant generally, I think. But they didn't. We didn't. This fucked up situation we're in is a product of choices from very rich and very powerful people. I know that's an obvious statement. I know! But it's a true one. I don't have any polished conclusion to this. We can do what we can. We can try to build community. We can use every tool we have available to us and that also involves contacting our representatives and shit even when they ignore us. It's very, very, important that we look to our local communities and see where we can help. If we all put some time, which will look different for everyone, into helping each other locally that would, has, will change so much. We don't have to do that alone. Help can look like so many things, our needs and skills have so much important variety. This isn't a conclusion but it's the end of the post. Transcripts taken (and cut down in places) from http://www.chakoteya.net























