Rant/Vent Account

Just been told it’s highly unlikely that I’m going to grow out of ADHD and that it will almost definitely stay with me through adult hood AND that my Ritalin will eventually stop working so I’m basically a non crack crack head for life, FUCKING MINT!. I mean it doesn’t really bother me that much it’s not like I wanted a FUCKING RELATIONSHIP AND TO START MY OWN FAMILY, but yeah

‘Have I done something?’

Do you ever just want to be left alone to just hurt yourself in every possible way but also want to be helped? Or make an attempt of taking your own life but only so you can see who cares? Because honestly that is how I’m feeling at the moment, everything little that happens makes me feel irrelevant, makes me crave death like it’s heroin for a user or gives me addictive urges to rip away at myself and just watch who I used to be run away and pretend that the girl I was is no longer inside me. I wish I was 9 again when a hug from mum would take away any anxiety causing me discomfort.

Every part of you is special, even your eyelash so hold on to it tight and remember you’re AWESOME!!!

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How my ocd feels, the grey drawings are what my intrusive thoughts look like in my head and they are laying down bricks blocking me from being able to think positive. the yellow above my brain are all my skills and qualities that are being blocked by the bricks causing me to feel in a low state of mind.