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I....I...I'm...not sure if I want that "fantastic surprise" Mike...

(he actually gave me candy in return but without context this sentence is funny af for me XD)

A wonderful experience, at the end they argued with each other and left the table only to come back and play together again

It's strange, but I don't feel satisfied with my art style anymore....

Maybe it's because I've been sick lately and it makes me tired and a bit "depressed"

Idk I just don't like my drawings that much lately

Yes, I think they are nice considering my skills, but I feel there is something terribly missing in them...

Maybe I should start drawing more in my sketchbook again? But that won't change anything tho...Because it's not about sketching, it's about a more "final product" which is the part of what I do on my tablet...hmmm...

I just don't know... I'm just not completely satisfied.

(Warning: irritated yapping)

I'm the gardener performer

but I have the most PTS and Wins as a Grave Keeper (although lately I've been having a really bad streak in general for some reason + I don't play much because I don't have the time or energy ngl)

and all because ever since I got him I've been stuck in the cycle of playing as a grave keeper because no one wants to be a rescuer

which is why I can't play as my girl gardener (every time I try to play her and no one else decides to be a rescuer we are guaranteed to lose no matter how hard we try...Which is kind of funny)

ugh and don't even get me started on the "Explorer" I picked him up because I thought he was interesting to play with.... And then I haven't had a chance to play with him yet... because of this....so I don't know why I even got him in the first place...I only wasted stuff tbh

Don't get me wrong, playing a rescuer is fun and I actually enjoy playing as Andrew, especially because I think I'm slowly getting better and better at rescuing AND thanks to this, I stopped being so afraid of rescuing in generally (like I was at the very beginning of my adventure with idv) It used to seem scary, now it's just... very repetitive? and I'm basically doing it out of reflex (which is good when you're a rescuer I guess)

The problem is that it also becomes simply... boring.

Especially when the same two gameplay scenarios are played over and over again....

let me explain (warning, I don't know about others, what I'm saying is only and exclusively based on what I actually experienced in the game mkay?)

A. Someone is stealing your work even though they had no interest in doing so.

Sooooo the tradition is that i want to go to rescue! But for some reason...out of nowhere.. a player appears that in fact is playing a character who has nothing to do with being a rescuer and to this they literally come running from the other end of the map (WHAT ARE YOU EVEN DOING HERE and like.. WHY????)

Yes I mentioned that I was going to rescue

Yes I'm not hurt

Yes I ran to the place where someone is on the chair and YES I GET FUCKING HIT BECAUSE SOMEONE IS DOING MY WORK FOR NO F-REASON AND YES THAT'S ALSO WHY I PROBABLY END UP IN A CHAIR MYSELF

wow what a amazing fun game

I'm so tired of it so now when I see someone coming to rescue, I just continue deciphering the machine (even if I'm literally as slow as a snail at it) because there is simply no point in me running there just to get hit or have to go back to the machine anyway.

You guys understand right? It just doesn't make sense

BUT OF COURSE! what do I hear next after the game ends?

Either insults directed at me or my fav

"GRAVE KEEPER YOU LITERALLY DID NOTHING!"

Oh... OoooOOOOH

I'm so sorry that I "did nothing"

BECAUSE YOU FUCKING DECIDED YOU WOULD TAKE MY WORK AWAY FROM ME WHEN THERE IS NO SUCH NEED INSTEAD OF FOCUSING ON DECRYPTING OH HOW I AM SOOOOOOO FUCKING SORRY!

Maybe if....I don't know....just a silly thought of mine...maybe if I was allowed to do my job....

maybe I would "do something" (fuck the fact that in this situation I'm often the only one who actually does deciphering btw... So yeah...This is my "doing nothing")

But let's not be so rosy, because there's another side to the coin! Hahahaha FANTASTICALLY

And I don't know which side is worse/gen

B. Nobody is doing resourcing for fuck's sake...

This side of the coin.. however consists of two scenarios of how the game can go.

In the first scenario, no one is resourcing and no one heals the others too (or at least no one wants to heal me...Or at least such a thought doesn't occur to them even though I'm standing right next to them... instead they prefer to run somewhere to do their own thing.... Andrew's life curse I guess) well except me most of the time... which ends with us losing quickly.

And also with that I quickly end up in a chair myself or die because the time to heal (someone has to heal me so I can yk get up and stuff because I can't do it again myself) is over

Second scenario: First person on the chair = sacrifice

THIS IS SO DAMN IDIOTIC AND MEANINGLESS

I don't understand this logic I swear!

We have 5 ciphers still to do (usually) and no one wants to save anyone??? Ke???

It usually looks like this:

The first person is put on the chair, I go to rescue, I get hit (usually during the first or second rescue), after some time again someone is put on the chair, I wait a while because properly someone with full health should go (because if someone has one hit already, there is a big risk that they will actually end up in a chair too), no one is coming... Okay...cool...SOOOOO I'm going to the rescue then I guess, I usually manage to pull the person off the chair but I get hit again, ANNNnnnndso I end up in the chair myself, The hunter stands there for a bit time... No one comes... Soooooooo they go to look for others... Okay great! That's actually good! So I inform others that the hunter has changed its target and that i need help

I'm waiting

And waiting

I'm running out of time

One person is being chased....

Two others are doing the machines mkay...

And the person nearby isssss.... also doing the machine

Okay cool...I have time (Not at all)

I'm waiting... Annnnd waiting.....annnnnnnnnnnd I'm being sent back to the manor

Good game 👍

And only after that either a. Nobody resource anyone anymore or b. Suddenly everyone is doing a resource and stuff

Wow how great

Of course, there are still situations where the game is cool, once I had a really good game where people actually understood what teamwork means... And it was really fun!

Sometimes the game is fun but there is also that one person who don't care about others which doesn't make sense to me because they literally gain nothing from it except losing most of the time

Yeah.. sorry...I got a little angry this kind of thing is just terribly frustrating

Especially if I then hear really bad comments after the game as if it was completely my fault that shit go bad

As if... It's teamwork, if everyone does what they want without thinking about others, no wonder everything goes to hell

I think my bad streak started from that too... Hearing unpleasant things several times when the game goes bad and it wasn't entirely my fault is just so fucking demotivating.

At some point I thought that maybe I was doing something wrong actually...Maybe I am really bad at this game....(I'm not saying I'm super good at it...like... I've been playing this game for about half a year only so yeah...But I think that for as much as I've played, I'm not playing too badly either.)

But then I met someone in the game and it turned out they were saying exactly the same thing.

They were complaining about literally the same problems as mine! I also saw people on the Internet talking about similar problems too...So it's not that there's something wrong with me, but instead there is any actual problem here

Apart from the fact that the higher you go in the rankings, the more other players often start to be terribly rude, toxic and unpleasant... It's easy to lose any will to try do anything in such a situation.

On the one hand, I'm sad that so few people play rescuers.

Because of this I don't have the opportunity to play other characters

But on the other hand, playing as a rescuer and experiencing such situations...yeah it's not hard for me to not understand why people don't want to play them

Because after something like that I too simply started to lose the desire to do it

Which is sad because, like I said, being a rescuer can be really fun! Just... You have to get a good team in the first place...And hope none of them turn out to be complete assholes.

Sorry for this long ass yapping

I think I've gone a bit off topic too but ugh fuck it

Maybe I'm so grumpy because I've been sick for a few days...I'm not thinking very well at the moment either so.... Idk but yeah

Pierrot and Russ

"where is my whiskey?"

The third session was...ugh... Yeah

I mean, I had fun as always, but we didn't do anything special.

It turned out that the people who kidnapped Russ actually wanted to kidnap Mojmir, but SOMEHOW, BY AN INCREDIBLE MIRACLE, the guy who was supposed to kidnap him mistook him for Russ....(I remind you that they are not similar in any way btw... Here is a post with an art where there are both of them)

Soooo....yeah

Russ Rescue Mission!

Bruno found traces of blood and a leaflet in the alley, Amnil found only some a vomiting drunkard in the bar's toilet, and Pierrot asked the bartender if he had seen a redhead.

Pierrot found out that Russ disappeared with some blond guy similar to him.

Then Bruno stormed into the bar, and claimed that he found traces.

They checked the blood and it turned out to be really good and it belonged to a Vampire too... (Yes, they literally did Connor from Detroit: becomes human type of shit....)

They also heard the screeching of tires and that's how we suddenly find ourselves in pursuit of a white van.

Eventually we reached some abandoned Amnil factory, Mojmir and Bruno went to look for Russ and his kidnappers, while Pierrot stayed on the lookout just in case (Besides, let's be honest, he's not a fighter, he's a damn loser....I love my baby anyway 🥰)

They entered the basement through the window and found kidnappers and Russ. Mojmir and Amnil became invisible and Bruno started talking to one of the kidnappers about whether the stove was still available for sale or not (idk Don't ask me, no one had any idea what he was talking about.)

In the end, there was a massacre, they killed those two guys, it turned out that Mojmir was blackmailing them or something and they probably wanted revenge

Bruno called out from under the window to Pierrot to bringing him a shitload of glasses from a nearby restaurant because he hit the Jackpot and they have a shitload of blood...To which Pierrot and Amnil argued with him for a while: A. Who the fuck will give him 30 glasses? B. They just killed two people and taking 30 glasses would be strange and suspicious.

Eventually Bruno found some cups or jars in some old boxes, so Pierrot went down to help him with drawing blood (This is one of his specialties) Thanks to this, they managed to not only draw blood faster, but also more than if Bruno had to do it himself.

Pierrot was obviously a bit scared by the whole situation and was absolutely confused about what the hell was going on (but he also didn't delve too deeply into it because he knew Russ had been kidnapped...So his kidnappers probably wouldn't have just handed him over... so yeah) Amnil wanted to get out of here as quickly as possible, which made Pierrot angry because like "You just want to leave? THERE ARE TWO CORPSES, we can't leave it like this! Someone could see us coming here! If the police would come here, we would be the first suspects!" Of course, an exchange of words ensued, Amnil says that there isn't any place to hide those corpses, He also thought about burning down the factory, which Pierrot absolutely did not agree to, still trying to find a solution.

Eventually Pierrot helped Bruno move all the blood (and the stove he found) to the car, Amnil searched the dead kidnappers' car and found the gun which he took, And Mojmir called some friend who cleans up corpses and told him where to clean up the mess.

Eventually everyone returned to the theater and to Pierrot's house.

Bruno started making some magic potion from blood, staying in the guest room again, while Amnil went to the basement of the theater and went to spend the night in one of the many dressing rooms (Since he can't sleep in the same place twice, he couldn't sleep in Pierrot's second guest room.) Russ fell asleep in the car again, and Mojmir went back to his place.

And that's all

Like...I have ideas and desire... But I just can't seem to get around to it.

Hmm...

I mean it's definitely better than before, being on Tumblr has strangely helped me, I'm less demotivated than when I was on...ugh.. IG