𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐍 𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐇𝐀𝐋𝐅-𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐃𝐋𝐘 because he’d heard all of this shit before. her scholarship, her job, her contract, all the reasons that they couldn’t do this and none of them held water to actually being a firm no. ‘ i don’t know. sounds like to me, you’re all ready half in love with me. i don’t see why you get so long winded when we both know that you wanna be with me. ’ with half of the campus sorority girls under his belt, owen was sure that it was more valerie making excuses because she thought he’d cheat on her or do something to embarrass her, but in his defense, they’d all asked and he was bad at saying no. tilting his head as she broke without him even saying something, a grin spread across the male’s features and he entertained her ‘rules’ when these were the same things that she always told him. it was nothing new. ‘ it’s cute. ’ he held his hands up in defense against her command over a pen. ‘ like you. ’ watching her narrate her own rules as she wrote them down, he knew that he had to really be obsessed with her to even let her write down a relationship contract. valerie was weird, he’d say that much, but she was pretty and she paid attention to him past his dick and when owen fell hard, he fell really hard. his crushes always consumed him. ‘ you know that i’m gonna do whatever you say, but i know you love me and i all ready love you. so i don’t think i can agree to that last one. ’ he shrugged as if he was talking about the weather rather than asking her to risk her scholarship for him. he had gone to a few meetings to become an ra, but the rules were so strict that he knew that he’d never be able to keep up. being in a frat was far more fun anyways. ‘ so, i’m just signing myself over to you in a glittery pink pen to prove that i love you? ’
Valerie thinks, no, she knew that part of the reason she kept going back on her word with him was that he was smart enough to call her out of her bullshit. Owen was absolutely right, she was practically in love with him, but she didn’t want to admit it to herself, because that made it real so oftentimes, she got defensive out of frustration for this. Just imagine what her friends, some of which have fucked him too, dragging his name through the mud or judging her for going out with him because ‘he’s only going to break your heart’ when really, they were just upset he wanted to be with her and not them. God, Valerie needed better friends. Sighing deeply, Valerie would say She couldn’t actually be bothered with some petty ass contract for an education that she didn’t even actually want to have. Yes, she realized that she was privileged and to some, lucky to have a scholarship... to study and become a lawyer, just like the rest of her family, but what she truly wanted in her deepest heart of hearts, was to sing. She just didn’t want to get cut off for choosing that. Maybe that was the reason she kept going back to him. All of this? She wasn’t passionate about being a lawyer, therefore she only really wanted to keep her scholarship to save face with her family and their ‘bragging rights’. She knew Owen threatened that, but she also knew that every time she was with him, whether they were having sex or just simply hanging out, it was the happiest she’s genuinely been in a long time. The brunette wanted to allow herself that bit of happiness, even if he broke her heart in the end, at least she could say it was worth it. “It’s just, complicated.” The RA finally replied softly, neither confirming or denying that she was halfway in love with him, but giving him a small glimpse of the havoc in her troubled mind. When Owen called her cute like her pen she smirked but continued on witout a word, just a smile. Moments like these were why she felt like he showed her a different, sweeter, much more gentle side to him than his other hookups, but then again, how could she know that? She could ask, but there was no way of confirming it to be true unless she was in the room while it happened with someone else, and Val definitely didn’t want to do that. She’d just have to leave it up to faith. Her fingers stopped moving the pen against the lined notebook paper and she looked at him with obvious shock on her face, not expecting him to say that he loved her. She blushed and her eyes drifted back down to the notebook, eyeing her third rule, tempted to just rip the page and crumble it, because, fuck the rules, but she just crossed the third rule out instead. She didn’t exactly know what to say to that. Having been so focused on her studies growing up and in college she didn’t find time for firm relationships so she’s never heard a man or a woman say that they loved her romantically, but when Owen did, it just, her whole body got anxious. Not necessarily in a bad way, she did love him, but she honestly didn’t expect that affection back. “No, you’re signing so I know I can hold you liable if you don’t keep your mouth shut.” Her voice was softer now, she didn’t joke or anything, her mind was on too much of a high to do that. Handing him the pen and the notebook after she signed herself, Valerie King gauged at Owen’s reaction to the words she added under the crossed out the third rule. ‘fuck it, fall deeply in love, get messy as fuck.’.
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