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unprompted musical magic! // @doryphore

Shift picks Music for the Masses, a Depeche Mode record, excited by the idea of adding more music to their repertoire. It was a shame, to them, how music went to the wayside on Creatia, but what could they do about that?

They want to tell him about the Scavengers and their parties, though party wasn't exactly the right word. They can't identify the correct translation into Earth English, and they don't want to ruin the music by talking. But they still want to tell him, eventually, about the Revolutionary Group, and the underground parties they throw, filled with music and dancing and all sorts of things that are frowned upon by the Creatian Government.

There's a lot of nuance when it comes to Shift, more than they like to let people in on. Shift is 221, which, for a god (especially compared to the others that are more or less ageless), is quite young. A human equivalent to it would probably be about 21ish. Dipping their toes into adulthood but still immature, especially when you consider their socialization or... Lack there of.

While, as a deity, they aren't exactly bound to human, or creatian in this context, ideas of neurotypicality it should be noted that the way they are written (by me, also an autistic person), is meant to not shy away from their autistic traits. They struggle a lot with things such as misophonia, self-harmful stimming and aggression. They are also more easily influenced by outside sources than your "average" neurotypical person.

Their actions or more often reactions to stimuli that is distressing to them often makes people consider them to be extremely immature or even downright childish. This isn't to say that their actions should be excused, especially when they harm other people, but in order to be able to find better coping mechanisms and grow as a person they shouldn't be demonized, either.

Bringing their lack of socialization into the conversation, Shift spent very little time with other gods or with other creatians. They had no model to look to on how to behave, and kind of had to make it up as they went along. The government of Creatia denies their existence, half the gods want them contained somewhere and the other half ignore them outright.

Although in more recent years they've managed to start sort of... Well, infohazarding their way into the lives of more Creatians, rarely are they able to really make any sort of meaningful relationships with them because... Well, honestly? They get very overstimulated very easily because of that lack of socialization as they "grew up." Without learning proper coping skills to learn how to deal with things such as their misophonia or aggression or lack of understanding of most social cues, when people act in ways they don't understand or do things that they find upsetting they just melt down because... They were never taught how to get a better handle on their emotions.

take care. // @red1es

Breath comes in rapidly. Whatever equates to a heart beneath their grayish-blue flesh rams up against their ribcage and they are clinging to him, their claws dug in his shoulders. A shudder runs through them. The lights above them buzz loudly, an angry swarm of bees bent on detonating.

Shift knows that tears are unbecoming, but they don't understand why. They don't understand a lot of things that the elder gods attempted to teach them, attempted to explain to get them under control. It just wasn't fair, how high their emotions ran, and how no one seemed to be able to grasp the concept of them feeling a lot! All of the time! Or perhaps they didn't care. Shift didn't know the answer to that quandary either.

The tears are born more from frustration than true anger, if they'd been angry things probably would be going a lot differently right at the moment. Frustration, they can be pulled back from. Anger is more difficult. They tilt their head over to Fizz, and they start smiling, not because they're instantly cheered up but because they understand, objectively, that a smile is better than tears. (But why? Why can't they just feel what they feel?)

Like these guys

But at the same time, they are naive to many things because, as far as deities go, they're impossibly young, comparatively. While they often play off things that they don't know as part of their cute, innocent, wouldn't harm a fly schtick.... They get annoyed when people end up thinking they're actually just stupid.

Their struggle is mainly that they don't understand how to interact with others? Partly because they haven't been socialized, partly because they've got .. idk god autism, and partly because everything (besides technology) is new and different to them. this is especially true when interacting with things and people on earth. They just don't Know. They can't read other people well.