ღ you idiot. ´
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ღ pairing: lo’ak sully x fem!omaticaya!reader
ღ summary: you’re in an established relationship with lo’ak, one night he comes back after a fight, again, and you try to get him to tell you what made him so angry. you’re mixed (human mother and na’avi father)
ღ warnings: fight, insecurity, don’t really think it needs more warnings, it’s kinda just fluff i wouldn’t really consider it an angst.
ღ note: this is the first avatar stuff i write, and yes i’m aware of his age we’re the same age, anyway, english is not my first language ;) enjoy!
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Once again, you were just sitting there after a whole day of working with your new people, you were just about to go to bed when you heard someone entering the room.
You looked up to see, once again, your injured boyfriend, you couldn’t believe your eyes.
He had bruises and was cut on his arms, he obviously had a fight with someone.
“Hey” you hear as your eyes become black, “You idiot.” you get up and walk to him, your face said it all, you were mixed with anger and worries.
“I just-” he started but of course, you cut him off “No no no, i don’t wanna hear any of your stupid excuses, i don’t care anymore.”
Lo’ak had been in fights before, every single time he came up to you, injured, with a smile hoping for you to help him.
“Sit here.” he listened, mouth shut he sat down, waiting for you to come back with all your stuff to take care of his wounds.
You came back, still not saying a word, the silence was painful, you stood in front of him as he looked up to talk to you, you didn’t even give him one sight.
“Y/N…” you gave him a death stare, of course you were going to help him but you refused to hear him.
“You promised me you would start actually fighting with words and not with your fists! You do really believe that i was going to take you in my arms and nurse you tonight? There’s no way. No way.” You screamed at him, tears coming in your eyes, he didn’t think it would hurt you that much, he really had a reason to fight every time he did.
“I-had-a-reason.” he took your hands, looking up to you, you turned your head to look at him with a pout, trying not to cry as you were really tired of your day.
“Can i tell you the story or are you gonna throw things at my face?” Lo’ak asked raising his eyebrows.
You nodded, waiting for him to talk, “I was with my brother and we were hanging out with some guys from here and they started to talk about girls, and we just started arguing because one stupid asshole said things about you.”
He looked sincere, “So you hit him? Lo’ak you are a good guy don’t you know how to contain yourself? What could he say to make you so mad to the point that you got so injured?” you were seriously trying to understand what crossed his mind.
“Trust me, you don’t wanna know.” he replied looking at you, you rolled your eyes “I don’t care about what they said, i care about you and your health.” you answer, letting go of his hands to clean his wounds.
“Wouldn’t you stand up for me if girls talked about me like that?”
“I would, but i wouldn’t punch them and come back to you half dead.” you mock him, “Ouch! That hurt!” he dared to complain.
“Ah!, that’s what you get for being such an idiot. I can’t believe you.”
“You’re really mad at me, huh?”
“Of course i am. But i understand why you got mad.” you admitted, calming down a bit.
“Why does it matter so much, y/n?” he asked, searching for an eye contact, taking your hands back in his,
“I don’t know. I don’t like seeing you like this, hurt. You have to understand that it hurts me too.” you finally looked at him in the eyes.
“Y/n, my love, i am so sorry.” hearing this, you’re kind of relieved, you really deserved an apology.
“Thank you, for defending me though…” you said, tidying the stuff you used to patch him up.
You heard him giggling a bit then felt his hands on your waist, then he laughed letting his head fall on your stomach while you were still standing and he was sitting.
“What? what’s so funny?” you replied a bit offended.
“Nothing, you’re cute when you’re angry.” he answered, mocking you.
“Oh fuck off Lo’ak!” you giggled then pushed his hands off of you, you turned your back and he was already standing.
He took you by your hips and turned you around to face him, “What can i do to gain your forgiveness?” he smirked.
“Start by stopping your stupid fights and also, don’t expect anything you’re way too injured for that.” you said with a sad face to make fun of him too.
“I’m never too injured.”
“Oh yeah?” you said pressing a bit one of his wounds on his arm as he screamed out of pain.
“Alright, bedtime now.” you quickly kissed him before running to your bed, happy you got your revenge.
You heard him sighing then he laid down next to you, looking at the ceiling.
You tried to fall asleep but you kept thinking and thinking, you noticed Lo’ak didn’t even really try to sleep he was just laying here.
You turned around, watching him closely, something was keeping you awake, your curiosity really wanted to know why these boys upset him so much when they talked about you.
“Psst…Lo’ak?” you pushed his arm a bit, he turned his head with a questioning face, “What? What’s wrong?” he sounded a bit worried as you usually say goodnight and instantly fall asleep.
“What did they say? The boys?” you were a bit embarrassed to ask that to your boyfriend, it felt a bit weird.
“It doesn’t matter, why do you want to know that?” he really didn’t want to tell you for some reason.
“Please, just tell me i can’t sleep i just keep thinking about it…” you beg him.
“Y/n, i love you, i don’t want to say that to you.” he smiled, holding your hand.
“Come on, was it that bad?” you started to worry about it.
“No no, it’s just, you know, we don’t care about what they think, right?” Lo’ak tried to reassure you as much as he could.
“Well, it’s not that i care but i wanna know what made you lose your mind like that.”
“It was at the same time, bad compliments and degrading things that’s it.” he made a small smile and then gave you a peck on your lips before just stopping the conversation to go back to sleep.
He pulled you closer to him, in his arms, but
you were still so upset, you really needed to know, it somehow mattered.
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Of course, the next day, you didn’t want to ask Lo’ak about it again, so, you knew Neteyam was there when the fight happened, the only way to learn about these bad compliments was to go beg Neteyam to tell you.
During the day, you were cooking with Neytiri when you just sneaked out to find Neteyam.
When you finally found him near the beach you ran up to him, after a little talk you finally brought up the fight.
“Yesterday, Lo’ak came back after a fight with some guys, he told me he was with you.”
“Oh, yeah, sorry i couldn’t dissuade him to jump into that fight.” he apologized scratching the back of his head.
“No worries, it’s just that, you know, he refuses to tell me what the boys could’ve said to make him so angry, I had hoped that you would resolve that mystery.”
“Well, it’s not really flattering y/n. Not sure it would be really useful for you to know that.”
“Oh come on give me a break just tell me and i’ll go.” you were tired of begging for someone to just tell you.
“Okay, okay…I don’t remember it entirely i just know one said things about your body, nice ass and all, they said they’d mate with you then another said you were too human, they just talked about you as if we weren’t there, dirty things, stuff about your human blood. I wanted us to go but Lo’ak definitely wanted to kill them.”
After Neteyam told you, you thought you’d feel relieved but in fact, it kinda hurt. They talked about you like a piece of meat in front of your actual mate and all this story about your origins made you sick.
“Oh- alright, thank you Neteyam, see you later.” you tapped his shoulder and then came back to Neytiri.
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“What is wrong, dear? You seem somewhere else.” she asked, as you were lost in your mind.
“Do you think i look too human?” you sincerely questioned.
“I don’t think any of you look “too” human, you are mixed, this is how you are, having 5 fingers and being a bit smaller than the others doesn’t make you one of the sky people.” Neytiri honestly replied.
You smiled to her, she saw you like she saw her kids, just a bit different but that’s not how you saw things.
You were more human then them, at least you looked more human, and it was no secret, everybody knew it.
You weren’t just a bit smaller and had more fingers, you were a bit lighter, your eyes were smaller too and they were darker. You really looked different.
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The whole day, you were just questioning yourself about what some stupid teenagers said about you.
That night, when you and Lo’ak found each other in your room, he immediately noticed something was wrong.
“Y/n? are you listening?”
“Huh? you weren’t listening… Sorry i wasn’t paying attention.” you smiled at him.
“Are you okay?” he walked to you.
You of course said you were fine, Lo’ak made a small pause and then talked.
“I’m gonna be completely honest with you, Neteyam told me that he told you what the boys said. And he explained that you took it great so…”
“I did, i don’t care about what they said it was simple curiosity.” you lie very very badly.
“Mmh mmh…y/n who do you think you’re fooling right now? You’re doing that thing with your ears when you lie.” he laughed.
“Wh-what ear thing are you even talking about?”
“Don’t change the subject.” Lo’ak replied, tickling your left ear.
“Fine, i just, i don’t know i thought i wouldn’t care but then i thought what if my chest is too this or my ass is too that and then my body is too human and…you know.” you admitted, looking down in shame.
“It’s okay, i didn’t want to tell you because i knew you would question yourself and get insecure. You are perfect. You should’ve seen how ugly these guys were, and still they were judging the most beautiful woman that they’ll ever see. I wish i could lend you my eyes to look at yourself, you’d see how amazing you are. And you and i, with our 5 fingers, we’re Na’avis, and our human part is only genetic, nothing about our heart is from the sky people.”
A little tear rolled down your cheek, you were always scared to not be enough for your people, especially for Lo’ak.
“I, see you.” he whispered to you before he put both his hands on your face, he pulled you into a huge comforting hug, kissing the top of your head, as you were gaining your confidence back into his arms.
You definitely needed to hear that, that’s probably why you wanted to know what the boys said, because you don’t really believe that you’re perfect.
You were so glad your boyfriend was like you, you understand him. You see him.
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