i don’t wanna be depressionposting because it’s not the vibe however

So I have a crush on the middle aged woman who works at the CVS in my neighborhood. To the point where I can’t speak when she is at the till 😭 she isn’t even my usual type because I tend to do the lesbian twin thing and date women who look like me and I’m a tall Indian fem but she is a shorter, chubby Korean woman with huge doe eyes who doesn’t wear makeup and is dry to customers and stern and almost rude to her coworkers and unfortunately I find that lack of giving a fuck incredibly sexy. I literally went aisle to aisle watching her fix merchandise once. In a non creepy way I swear lol. Idk she’s probably just a regular straight mom or something but I need her. And I can’t even tell anyone because it would sound so insane to say this probably straight older lady I’ve only ever said thanks and have a nice to makes my mouth water lmao anyway that’s my confession

my confession is that the second i meet a religious lesbian or bisexual I am immediately disinterested and dont even want to be friends. maybe it’s prejudiced but i automatically think they’re a bit dumb idc. and it also goes for people who are overly into astrology. like no don’t tell me i did something because my 11th house is in new york or whatever lol