Even lights can fade away

The coloured version of ‘You are my sunshine’ ☀️ (my Supernatural family + Destiel art video)

These pictures - they’re from my Destiel “You Are My Sunshine” fanvideo. The recent SPN script leak had me looking back at them.

When making these pictures there was this certain energy driving me to draw them, a particular emotion, especially when drawing Cas’ face as he looks at Dean. But I couldn’t figure out what exactly it was. Just this fondness that belonged on his face, looking at Dean. I couldn’t quite put into words what it was meant to say though.

Now I can.

Who would have thought that I’d be drawing SPN art today? 2020 really has been a…year. That’s for sure. Lots of words about this show under the cut:

I CAME UP WITH AN IDEA!!!

LETS SEND OUR BELOVED MISHA SOME NICE WORDS OR LOVE ON TWITTER WITH THE HASHTAG: #LetMishaSleep

Lets give him some love and say that we are thankful for him!!

Dean's dream 🌸

If you’re following me, you might know that I’ve been writing codas for all the recent episodes. I will not be writing one for 15x18 because, for once, I don’t feel like I need to create my own fix. Instead, I’m incredibly excited to just wait and see what the writers’ fix is going to look like.

Yes, Cas was taken by the Empty, and yes, Dean didn’t get to respond to Cas’ confession, but I have hope and faith that the writers are not going to let us down. 

Here’s why. (For now, this only goes up to 15x08 because, clearly, I have a LOT of thoughts and need to split them up into two separate posts.)

Season 14 and 15x01-15x03

As Season 15 begins, Cas is at an absolute low point. He’d finally been gaining confidence that he’d found his place, his family, and then tragedy strikes in the form of Mary’s death. Cas states explicitly in 14x18 that he didn’t speak up regarding his concerns about Jack because “we were a family, and I didn’t want to lose that.” He tells Dean “I failed you.”

We know now that Cas has been in love with Dean this whole time, but believed that Dean would never return his feelings. So he wasn’t happy, but he was content and wanted desperately to hang on to any version of a family life Dean would let him have.

Let’s look at Dean’s perspective. In 14x13, Dabb deliberately juxtaposes Dean’s two families: On the one hand, the traditional family that includes Sam, John and Mary. The one that Dean has put on an unrealistic pedestal and felt cheated out of all his life. On the other hand, Dean’s found family with Cas, Jack and Sam. 14x13 tells us that Dean cannot have it both ways, because as soon as John appears, Cas disappears from his life.

Now let’s think back to Dean’s conversation with John.

John: I guess that I had hoped eventually you’d get yourself a normal life, a peaceful life. A family.

Dean (smiles softly): I have a family.

Cas said that one thing that he can‘t have makes him happy.

He definitely didn’t mean the friendship with Dean, because he HAS Dean as his best friend.

Cas gives him a lot of non-platonic compliments.

Cas said Dean changed him since they met. Look at his face, look how emotional Cas said this.

This is also a stereotypical quote couples like to use. I can tell you at least 100 of movies and series where they used this kind of way to let characters express they love to each other.

And this.

How he said this.

Cas is so happy that he can finally say this.

And YOU tell me the thing that Cas makes him so happy is telling his bro-buddy-pal that he loves him?

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This I love you is nothing like the one in season 12. That one looked platonic, this one looks romantically.