Hope is the thing with feathers

The Color of Low Self-Esteem by Nayyirah Waheed

We have no past, we won't reach back Keep with me forward all through the night And once we start the meter clicks And it goes running all through the night Until it ends, there is no end

I haven’t quite decided yet if I’m deactivating entirely but it’s time for me to take leave of Tumblr, friends. Wishing you all a wonderfully joyous, peaceful and prosperous (in whatever way suits your fancy) new year. With love, Jen

I want to be happy. I want to be happy without all the things I wanted, all the things promised. I’m trying. I’m not sure yet if this makes it easier or harder. But I’m trying.

So much to say, nowhere to start.

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night♥️

Merry Christmas!

I was distractedly editing photos and soon realized I had inadvertently created this gem. Which is both super weird and also a super accurate depiction of how I’m feeling tonight. My daughter and I saw Bohemian Rhapsody today, and we can argue about the merits of the film later. What hit me hardest was the predicament of Mary - how cruel and unfair to be the prop in someone else’s story. Yes, I’m reading my own stuff into it, I know. But that line - the one about sheer fatigue and frustration of always being the object of “I love you but...” - it’s playing on a loop in my head.

I’ve been testing out a few 100% compostable k-cups. To be honest - the coffee all tastes about the same to me. But these guys win hands down for being the cutest.

Interesting. I hadn’t heard the song so I researched a bit: “The track itself was a reaction to a drunk text and phone-call from an ex. It was an opportunity for Baker to write from the perspective as something other than the victim, something we so commonly find in love songs. ‘The song is called Rupi Kaur because the girl was the type to post Rupi quotes on Instagram.’”

The haul for the local family we “adopted” for Christmas this year. We all had a blast picking out toys again ❤️

December kicked off quite nicely.

I don’t really have a question, I just love that line. It’s 1:30 and I’m keeping myself up listening to a Christmas playlist in a loop.