opening tumblr after trying to avoid it for an extended period of time makes me feel poorly considering its essentially just like, a graveyard of several past loved ones that have been long gone for years. also the last 20-25~ plus messages ive received since my evil caty era's been dissolved from my psyche are erm bonafide freaked out men calling me kitten or something adjacent to that. i feel very physically cold and far away thinking about it all. im glad my memories are mine to keep forever













