雄炎 hell

wdym i have to keep going

i need to killl myself but like nonchalantly

i wish i could go to sleep and never wake up ever ever ever but i'm not dead im just sleeping so no one is sad or anything silly like that

every 5 minutes i go wow i NEED to kill myself and then i ignore it because i have things to do

whatever lol (in tears)

i can handle one (1) Event™ per day. whether it be a phone call, an appointment, trip to the grocery store, play date with a friend, etc. only one, that's it. any more than that and i am Stressed

a long distance friend is kind of a dead wife in a way

i wont worry about it i say to myself with the always worried disorder

it is impossible to watch a movie. every night i think i want to watch a movie. no movie gets watched. because it's not possible

and yet they keep making movies with the hopes that one day humanity will discover a way to watch them. it's so inspiring