I'll drink to that.

on the bright side i am not addicted to cocaine

I'd like to see how other people are. Do they feel so bland all the time? Do they have motivation? How do they interact with people? At some point it's a realization of that you only feel close to normal after several drinks. Or whatever is supposed to be normal. I'm not really social. I used to be but after a while I realized that that people only hurt me. Everyone is living life to further their own goals. If you try to help other people they just take advantage of you. The only people that help you through life aren't really people, they're selfless beings like cats And dogs, or destructive forces like drugs. And drugs make you feel much better than any pet. What happens when the drugs run out though? You have no friends, and nothing to make you feel better. You start to wonder what's the point of it all? Why go about your daily life? There's literally billions of beings like you. You're not gonna make a difference. You just use up resources in an effort to not feel like shit without providing anything back. You literally do nothing meaningful, and receive nothing meaningful............ Maybe I should just kill myself while I'm not afraid to do so.