not me, bitch

I feel like this moment is not nearly talked enough about for how important it is. We know Sam has despised hunting and wanted a safe, normal life, and felt misunderstood and denied growing up. He knows that they once had a normal, safe life but he was a baby when he lost it. Mary’s a symbol of a domestic and idyllic life, but whereas for John and Dean, it is forever lost, Sam wants that life.

And in his association of Mary with it, he believes that his mother would have wanted it for him instead of a life of hunting and monsters. Like one of the first things we hear Sam say is ‘Do you think Mom wanted this for us?’. And even after returning to hunting, Sam continues to see in Mary someone who would have understood him even though no one else didn’t, hallucinating her reaffirming his actions, validating his pain in the panic room and comforting him.

But this scene here… it confirmed everything that he wished for. Mary did understand… she did want better for them… and now when Sam stands in front of her, it’s bittersweet because he knows that they were all doomed from the start, that despite what he desperately wanted, what Mary wanted, they just could never had had that life.

"Does it? All rest on my shoulders?"

Mom? For me... just, um- having you here... fills in the biggest blank.

sam and mary + kisses | supernatural

nancy friday, forbidden flowers (1975)

every damn detail of that sequence should be considered illegal

Because they hate that it was Jensen who publicly said he 'begged' Kripke for a job, even though Jensen was just networking like 99% of the actors does.

Because they hate that it was Kripke who publicly begged Jared to be on TB, even though Kripke knew Jared couldn't really say "no" for the sake of maintaining good will.

Because they hate that Jared had Walker before Supernatural ended, so they tried to gaslight that CBS offered Walker to Jensen first when that's not how the industry works.