Sometimes I feel that I'm slipping away more and more...I don't know what I want. I don't know what or who I'm supposed to be or who or what I want to be anymore. I'm lost. My children are grown, they're adults, and while I'm still their mom, I'm having a difficult time navigating "mom-hood" at my age. I want my adult children to make their own choices and live their own lives, but it's still kinda weird finding yourself in a place where you're not needed like you once were. My greatest happiness in life has been being a mom to my kids, baking for my kids, cooking for my kids, being a school room-mom for my kids, tucking my kids into bed at night, reading them stories, or singing Teachers by Leonard Cohen or Joey by Concrete Blonde trying to get them to go to sleep for the night...I dunno...I dunno...But now they're grown, and I'm going through perimenopause, and nothing is how it once was...Not that that's a bad thing. Life is nothing but a series of changes, but sometimes, the changes seem to happen at a speed you're not prepared for...We have only this small moment in time, this small moment of human consciousness...how do we really want to spend that tiny moment in time?











