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My fundraiser from last month fell significantly short and I really need help. I am so sorry that Iām still in a position where I have to ask for help. But I am. Iām an unemployed transgender woman living in wildly conservative Orange County, CA. I had to leave my job because of consistent transphobic and sexual harassment. Itās a hard and stressful time, and Iām so broke that I donāt know how Iām going to keep paying for groceries, let alone medication, therapy for cptsd and depression, paying off the phone I had to buy after my old one stopped charging. I am hoping to raise $500 but literally any little bit you can give helps. Thank you all so much.
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My fundraiser from last month fell significantly short and I really need help. I am so sorry that Iām still in a position where I have to ask for help. But I am. Iām an unemployed transgender woman living in wildly conservative Orange County, CA. I had to leave my job because of consistent transphobic and sexual harassment. Itās a hard and stressful time, and Iām so broke that I donāt know how Iām going to keep paying for groceries, let alone medication, therapy for cptsd and depression, paying off the phone I had to buy after my old one stopped charging. I am hoping to raise $500 but literally any little bit you can give helps. Thank you all so much.
What's the deal with dogheaded men? I was reading some early arthurian texts and those guys were always fighting dogheaded men, with absolutely no explanation given. Was it a common mythical monster? Was it a metaphor?
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This Pride, Please Consider Helping an Unemployed Trans Woman
My fundraiser from last month fell significantly short and I really need help. I am so sorry that Iām still in a position where I have to ask for help. But I am. Iām an unemployed transgender woman living in wildly conservative Orange County, CA. I had to leave my job because of consistent transphobic and sexual harassment. Itās a hard and stressful time, and Iām so broke that I donāt know how Iām going to keep paying for groceries, let alone medication, therapy for cptsd and depression, paying off the phone I had to buy after my old one stopped charging. I am hoping to raise $500 but literally any little bit you can give helps. Thank you all so much.
The movie Obsession really triggered trauma for me. I probably should have anticipated that based on the premise⦠but it REALLY did. š¬ maybe if you are someone who has experienced trauma or abuse⦠be VERY CAREFUL. Effective and deeply horrifying storytelling. And itās not about the scares or gore at all.
I watched bone tomahawk and I walked away from it really confused?? like let me know if this doesn't make sense but I like don't understand the point of the movie. I thought maybe they'd correct a little bit of the racism demonstrated by every single character from the town but no it was just 'yeah these are actual disgusting 'godless' cannibal savages. that's just how they are. you know how it goes. isn't it scary how uncivilized they are?' and the ending it felt like there was zero character development. they're just more traumatized and more solidified in their racism and then credits roll. I can't tell if I just really missed something. it feels like I did
honestly, iām glad you asked!
first things first: i donāt think youāre missing anything, and i donāt think youāre wrong at all. it is, at its core, a brutal movie about the inherent violence of the american frontier, and that includes a LOT of really evil racist shit almost every main character is implied to believe or have done, or has been explicitly stated to. i donāt disagree with ANYONE bumping up against that.
however, for me, Tomahawk comes across as a searing indictment of the white genocidal violence of the west, and all the misfortune the characters endure is their earned punishment for their beliefs and actions.
putting this under a cut because it got long but i have some thoughts
the thing about Zahler is that he's a hardcore cynic. if you've seen his other movies, you'll notice he has a real fondness for characters who are simultaneously likeable and deeply, profoundly wrong. he doesn't really do moral victories. he hardly does victories at all. he doesn't do lessons. he doesn't do redemption arcs.
look at Brooder. on paper, he's one of the movie's most competent and successful characters. he's handsome, capable, brave, and positioned as a romantic rival to Arthur. he's also a self-admitted killer of women and children. when he casually reveals this, the other men are visibly disturbed by it.
they're disturbed by it while riding off to kill people en masse, sight unseen.
that's the contradiction the movie is interested in.
to me, Bone Tomahawk is a movie about the inherent violence of the frontier. not just the explicit violence, but the violence required to exist there in the first place. every white character in that town is living inside a system built by conquest, displacement, law enforced at gunpoint, and the constant threat of death.
even the plot only exists because Purvis desecrates a burial ground. the people who get abducted are collateral damage, sure, but the movie goes out of its way to show that none of this happened in a vacuum. the violence didn't begin when Samantha was kidnapped.
honestly, the only characters i feel pretty uncomplicated pity for are Samantha and Nick.
Samantha spends almost every scene caring for other people. she tends wounds, removes shrapnel, looks after the sick, and even makes sure an imprisoned outlaw receives medical treatment. she's arguably the most consistently compassionate person in the entire movie. Nick is just a kid.
everyone else exists somewhere on a spectrum of constant systemic violence.
the christianity is another thing that really colors my reading. Zahler has never struck me as a religious filmmaker. if anything, i'd call him a Reddit Atheist. there's a noticeable disdain for religion running through a lot of his work. so when Arthur is constantly begging god for strength and protection, i don't read those scenes as triumphant. i read them as pitiful.
there's almost a sense of: "your wife is missing. isn't that enough? why are you talking to the sky? why do you need a cross around your neck?"
but then Arthur survives and suddenly that disdain transforms into something that feels almost like envy. not admiration. envy.
like, "maybe if i was capable of believing some bullshit that completely, i could survive the unsurvivable too."
and then there's the Professor. my feelings are mixed here; i wish his character had been way more impactful. i love the concept, but introducing a highly educated Native man whose entire purpose in the story is to explain that these people are not really considered Native Americans by surrounding tribes is disappointing. however, thatās the most explanation and the most Professor we get. they're described as cave-dwelling cultists. troglodytes. literal cavemen. their skin is a dusty bone-white. that's such a strange choice that i have a hard time believing it's coincidental.
the movie goes out of its way to separate them from actual Indigenous people (whether itās effective in this is debatable) while simultaneously making them this grotesque reflection of the white frontier itself: isolated, violent, territorial, horrifically misogynist, and pale as death.
earlier, the men are horrified by Brooder's admission that he's killed women and children. they treat it as a line that shouldn't be crossed. and then they discover the trog women.
limbless. blinded. deafened. heavily pregnant. reduced to breeding stock.
and they leave them there.
i'm not even saying that's the wrong choice. i'm not sure there IS a right choice. that's what makes the scene so effective. suddenly, all those clean moral distinctions start collapsing.
Brooder killed women and children. that's monstrous.
the survivors refuse to kill women and children. that's civilized.
except⦠the women they āspareā have been mutilated beyond recovery, can't care for themselves, and now exist in a cave full of corpses with no one left to sustain them.
what exactly IS the merciful option there? the movie doesn't answer. it just leaves the question hanging in the air.
Zahler tends not to be interested in rewarding people for having the correct beliefs. he's interested in forcing those beliefs into situations where they become impossible to cleanly apply. the men get to keep their principles, and they also get to walk away from two unspeakably tortured, doomed women and the children growing inside them.
that's not a triumphant affirmation of morality. it's a brutal demonstration of how inadequate morality can feel when confronted with reality.
the troglodytes are dead, but the violence remains.
it survives in Arthur's broken body.
it survives in Samantha, who has seen things that cannot be described.
and it survives, however briefly, in those two women left behind in the darkness, suffering a fate the heroes couldn't bring themselves to end and couldn't possibly fix. so they just stop looking.
however, the final kiss is what really sells the movie's cynicism to me.
Samantha recoils when Arthur tries to kiss her because he's had the troglodyte whistle bones in his mouth. so he washes his face and tries again.
but washing his face doesn't actually change anything. thereās blood in his mouth. fragments of bone in his teeth. the only thing that's changed is what can be seen. suddenly the kiss is acceptable.
everybody draws lines between civilized violence and uncivilized violence, righteous killing and āsavageā killing, good men and bad men. the deeper the movie goes, the more those distinctions start to look cosmetic. the violence is still there. the blood is still there. we just become more comfortable once it's hidden from view. itās ācivilizedā if the blood is behind teeth and lips. even if youāre still tasting it.
firstable. a kisseroo from me to you for your kindness. however no i canāt save Poughkeepsie Tapes š they really do have a Ted Bundy impersonator going on about how the main character is the coolest serial killer of all time and then later itās implied he orchestrates 9/11 to escape scrutiny. itās out of my hands entirely
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Took Ollie to the vet today. And I'm not gonna say who. But ONE of us had a panic attack immediately after the checkup and wouldn't get out of the sink