aroace culture is making comments like “omg *favorite character* is gorgeous” or “dang they fine” to express love for your favorite character and then meeting/seeing someone who comments that bc they are attracted to the character
(not negative to people who do that, just being like ‘huh i forgot people say these things out of attraction and not out of a deep need to give the character a hug’)
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Aroace culture is getting to feel like your favourite school teacher when you get to explain the different types of attraction and people listen and want to learn more!!!
I had a lot of people ask me about Emu which surprised me. It largely comes down to the field she works in and how her family, or, the men in her family, treat her in early stories. While yes some of this can be attributed to her personality leading to them not taking her seriously, there's definitely some stereotypical gender roles stuff going on too (although her personality goes hand in hand with her gender in how she's treated).
Emu is the only woman in her family interested in business and taking a role in her family's corporation. Her sister is training to work with children (a stereotypically feminine job) and her mother's job is vague. She's said to be going on business trips but the most we hear about specifics is that she does volunteer work. So I get the feeling she isn't an integral part of the business like Kounosuke and the sons are, being the head of the Otori group and managers of PXL respectively. Emu is the first woman in her family to want to be at the level of her brothers and father. She also challenges them, a group of men way older and more experienced than her, telling them that they aren't doing their jobs the way they should. And she's in the right. Consider her personality as well: while she's not as typically super feminine as, say, Mizuki or Saki, she still likes pink, and cute things, and plushies. It doesn't help her when combined with her optimistic nature and childish whimsy, because in the eyes of the patriarchy it reinforces the idea that she's an incompetent little girl trying to do a grown man's job. People at her all-girls school don't even believe her intelligence, so how does she look to a man?
In general you have to consider the roles society plays here too. Big corporate business jobs like the ones the Otori men have are most commonly associated with and held by older men. Business is not an easy field for women to succeed in due to how male dominated it is, especially in Japan. Emu being a Japanese woman who wants to go into a typically male job, a head of a corporation at that, is fairly rare. Based on what I've read from some articles/papers that were accessible to me, there are still quite a lot of cases where traditional gender roles are pushed in workplaces and households in Japan, i.e: men/husbands are expected to be the breadwinners, and women/mothers are expected to worry more about marriage and family over careers. They also tend to slack behind on the economic sections of the Gender Gap Index, due to a lack of female workers in managerial and other high ranking positions, which is obviously relevant here.
Choices for the future is a very important event for Emu. She hears about the all-mens group at the opera house being disbanded due to decreasing ticket sales, and multiple members leaving as a result. The situation reminds her of when she helped to save PXL back in Wonder Magical Showtime, and she offers to help Suzu appeal to management and save the group. Aside from Suzu, Emu is primarily helped by her brothers in this event, and we get to see how much their relationship with her has changed since Smile of Dreamer. Compared to previously, they trust her decision making and visions significantly more, and are willing to teach her the skills she needs to help the opera house. By this point not only do they recognise her potential in managing PXL, but her genuine capabilities in the field of management. In chapter 7 she presents her business plan along with Suzu, another woman her age, in front of the management board of older men. She's a childish teenage girl who everyone doubted but is able to prove her worth to the men above her whilst maintaining her unique vision. It's also interesting to note that the group she helps save is the all male one, it completely throws gender roles on its head by having two women save a group of men when the other group of men that had the potential to save them were unable to. Emu is able to empathise with the theatre group in a way the management board couldn't, because of her experiences in not having her voice be heard. She understands the value that troupe has to audiences and the cast, because of her own experiences on the Wonder Stage and her wishes to save it being ignored by those who underestimate her for who she is. As a little side note, the Choices event song, All Save Challenge, was produced by a woman (Kashii Moimi) in a male dominated industry (vocaloid).
Colorful Palette as a company is also interesting to look at here. According to stats from 2023, the company is comprised of 46% women, and they make a point in the article that the near 1:1 gender ratio is rare for a games company. It's also worth noting that, at least as of 2021, the two lead writers are both women. I couldn't find any mentions of a specific gender equality initiative on their website, but they do have the 1:1 gender ratio mentioned on their employment page, so it's clearly something they're proud to advertise. It's not hard to see how the experiences of their female writers and staff are reflected in Emu's story, and the other girls' as well, but Emu's is the one that's blatantly focused on work in a corporate setting.
2. Mafuyu (& Her Mom)
Mafuyu's section will probably be a bit shorter, because I feel like I talked a lot about how gender affects both her and her mother recently (as of writing this paragraph. it was a while ago now). To summarise: Mafuyu's entire family builds their lives on the idea of perfection. They're the ideal family, conforming to basically every expectation in the book. Mafuyu's dad is the breadwinner who works a good job and provides for his family (at the cost of never being around), Mafuyu's mother is a stay at home mom who married a slightly older man from a higher social standing, and prioritised raising her child over a career. Much the same, Mafuyu acts like the perfect child, she's well behaved, always studies hard, and wants to get a well-paying and ideal job. It's perfect and average to an unsettling degree.
Obviously so much of their story revolves around asian parenting culture, but a lot of it can be tied to Mafuyu's gender as well, specifically looking at it from the POV of her mother. Mrs Asahina is unemployed, and had Mafuyu at roughly the age of 24. Assuming she went to university, she probably graduated around the age of 21-22. That leaves a 2-3 year range in which she might've had a job before quitting to raise Mafuyu. In addition to the expectation of her to prioritise her child and family, it's easy to see why she might want Mafuyu to prioritise a career in a respectable and high-paying job. She didn't get that life, especially not in such a good field (if she did go to medical school, she would've dropped out to have Mafuyu because it's a ~6 year course). An assumption on my part, but I think if she had a job it was probably at whatever office her husband works at, since she married very young and he's enough years older than her to the point they probably didn't meet at school (unless their parents or a mutual friend introduced them). Either way, she never got to be the doctor that may have been expected of her when she was younger, and now she doesn't even have a job, so she wants Mafuyu to have the best life possible.
You have to remember that in addition to being an only child, Mafuyu is the only daughter. She looks just like her mother, it's a constant reminder of what Mrs Asahina could've been or perhaps once was. Think back to what I said in Emu's portion: an expectation of women is to focus on marriage and raising a family, while a job is still important, it's often second place, and such is the case for Mrs Asahina. Additionally, less than 30% of doctors in Japan are female as of 2022. In flashbacks, we actually see that Mr Asahina was the one who originally suggested a job as a doctor based on Mafuyu's grades, but Mrs Asahina very quickly jumps on the idea, and is the one who continues to push this on Mafuyu for years. Never once is the idea of marriage and children brought up as something Mafuyu should think of in her future, it's only medical school. This may in part be down to the sort of game this is, relationships have only been brought up once and as a joke if memory serves, but even if that is the case it does add a nice layer of characterisation. Despite conforming to expectations by pushing Mafuyu for perfection, there's also this idea of pushing her because she wants Mafuyu to break expectations and break that cycle. Mrs Asahina wants Mafuyu to have the opportunities she didn't. She sees herself in Mafuyu, and wants Mafuyu to have the best life possible. At the same time, she uses Mafuyu as a way to prove herself as a mother and as a person, making sure Mafuyu looks good so everyone knows her mother raised her well, making sure she has all the best textbooks, all the best clothes and the best packed lunches. It's the best life for Mafuyu, while proving herself in the position she's in, conforming to the roles forced upon her as a mother.
Sorry this is a bit disorganised it's mainly afterthoughts of the linked post.
3. Tsukasa
Tsukasa's pretty interesting because gender doesn't actually affect his arc and development too much, but it affects his backstory a lot. Obviously, Tsukasa based his entire personality around being a good older brother to Saki, and what that entails is a seven-year-old boy's idea of what a good big brother should be. He acts brave because he doesn't want to make others worry, he's responsible and looks out for those younger than him because he's a reliable senpai, he's capable of anything because a star shines at everything, he doesn't accept defeat and he never shows weakness unless pushed (and he would never show this face to Saki specifically, as we learn in his fes story).
The Tenma's situation was entirely out of their control, so it's no one's fault that it happened, but as a result of Saki being in hospital, Tsukasa was often left at home alone. His dad is a company exec, an important job that probably takes up quite a bit of time, and then on top of that he was often doing overnight stays at hospital with Saki, eventually not even in the same part of the country. Tsukasa was 7, and functionally became man of the house, simply because he was the only one consistently there.
Tsukasa's entire personality is structured around the idea of being a star, which is very nondescript and I'm not even sure if he really knows what it means either, it's not something the game has ever really elaborated on (yet, if ever). However, if you read a few stories with him, it's very obvious this whole idea of a star is just the mature older brother personality he adopted as a child with 'become famous actor' tacked on. Now, "brother" is inherently a gendered term, and you can see where these ideas of responsibility and maturity fall into that. I'm sure if Tsukasa was a girl and he was an older sister, the result would be the same, but as i've brought up for the last two characters, consider the sociocultural aspects.
As is, some of the societal expectations of a man are for him to be self-sufficient, strong, hardworking, and to be the breadwinner of a family. What happens when you put that on a child? It's easy to see where Tsukasa as a child saw these concepts associated with masculinity and decided to fold those into his personality. Obviously outside factors contributed too, such as Saki's illness and the general responsibilities of an older sibling, but there's definitely aspects that tie more strongly to his masculinity than those, specifically the idea that he's good at everything that the story has deconstructed over time as we see him regularly hit roadblocks with his acting and watch him realise he still has a lot to learn. There's also other aspects that we see of this in how he acts on the regular. He's a very caring person as part of his older brother personality, but this results in him always looking out for everyone, and usually keeping his own problems to himself and his family. Again, this is something that the story deconstructs over time with him being more openly vulnerable (usually about the aforementioned acting roadblocks, but sometimes more personal matters like in OHE) as the story goes on, I feel like this really climaxes with Phoenix when he has his breakdown.
As I said, it's not a huge influence on his story or character, but there's definitely aspects of gender and societal expectation that informs his backstory, and thereby personality, very heavily.
4. MMJ, individually and as a whole
MORE MORE JUMP!'s story is that of four girls who have been wronged by the entertainment industry, how it mistreated them and broken them, and how they come together to build a career and work towards a shared dream without the shackles of a predatory industry holding them back. It's not perfect in the story its trying to tell, it obviously can't get too deep into the problems with the idol industry due to the audience of the game (though this isn't the fault of the writers), and it does encourage some unhealthy aspects of the industry (such as constantly praising Haruka's inability to take breaks and labelling it as super cool and professional), but it definitely says a lot about the treatment of women in society and especially within entertainment.
Minori, no matter how hard she worked, faced constant rejection from talent scouts and audition panels. The details of why she was rejected from these is not given in too much detail, but given comments made in later events, there's a chance some of the rejections were due to her 'plain' appearance, especially in comparison to Haruka or Shizuku. Minori represents the average teenage girl. She's a schoolgirl who wants to be something more than she is but in the grand scheme of things isn't particularly noteworthy or special. She gets good grades, she has nice friends, she lives in a cosy house with her family and dog, she's average height and isn't super pretty. She's girly and clumsy and gets excited about the things she loves. But she's not special and no matter what she did she was never special.
Idols are a product manufactured to be sold to the people, this will become far, far more apparent as we talk about the rest of the girls, but it's still seen in Minori's story. Minori is average, she's not marketable, she lacks the qualities that agencies think will appeal to audiences. She's not particularly pretty, her singing voice isn't anything outstanding, and if you ask her about her life she'll give you the same answer as thousands of other girls. Minori can't be sold the way the other three can, at least in the eyes of capitalism. In reality, Minori's appeal to MMJ's audience is entirely rooted in the fact she's your average teenage girl. While she didn't have many fans at first, he had Yuina, who was inspired by seeing a girl her age with her lifestyle so passionate about her dream and able to achieve entirely through her own hard work.
Minori represents every girl in a way, it's why she's the face of MMJ in the game. She's been underestimated by an industry looking for something superficial when she's been able to bring hope to so many through her own actions. Even if she's not as pretty or graceful or charismatic as the other MMJ girls, her background and personality allow her to connect with the audience in a way they can't. It's why that scene with her and the little girl in Dear Me As I Was Back Then is so important. She's someone any little girl can look up to and aspire to be, she's not the last in a legacy nor is she the first, she's part of a line of girls inspiring one another and is passing that on to the next generation.
Haruka's most interesting to talk about in terms of her most recent events and how they showcase the way men in the industry use women and pit them against each other just to benefit themselves. As I talked about with Minori, MMJ was deemed not to be marketable as a group of four due to varying reasons, from difficulty marketing Minori to competition with rival agencies. As a result, they took it into their own hands to build their presence as a group and started freelancing. Ultimately this is a choice that benefits all the girls: Minori doesn't have to worry as much about her 'lack of marketability', and Airi and Shizuku don't have to worry about their agencies handling their careers and images in ways that actively harm them.
Haruka is sort of the outlier here. Haruka's relationship with the idol industry up to this point had actually been fairly healthy, she hadn't run into problems with the way agencies treated her and her image, she wasn't pushed past her limits, she didn't have toxic groupmates. The reason she quit is due to how the industry affected one of her groupmates. Mai felt constant pressure to catch up to the other members, Haruka specifically, and as a result pushed herself until she suffered a career-ending injury. And even still, Haruka doesn't blame the industry, she blames herself and deems herself unworthy because of the harm she indirectly caused on someone who once looked up to her.
Haruka benefitted a lot from the industry, and it's why I think giving her the arc of becoming producer and facing off against Hiiragi is best fitted to her over any of the other girls. Personality aside, she has a certain naivety to how she interacts with the industry. She's the one least likely to suspect Hiiragi of pulling strings because he'd been a good producer in the past. She doesn't have experience of being used and mistreated by the industry like the others do, so she's more trusting of him at first. Rise and Strive was a good learning moment for her, she learned about how competitive the industry truly is and how willing they are to throw you under the bus once they don't need you anymore.
Hiiragi gained a lot of success with ASRUN; they were one of the top idol groups in the country for a few years until Haruka quit and the group disbanded. It's evident from the way Hiiragi explains his motives that he holds a grudge against Haruka for this. Haruka leaving ASRUN meant that his biggest success became his biggest failure. ReLight exists solely as a product of that grudge, purely as a way to get back at his ex-talent. He uses ReLight to attempt to sabotage Haruka's current career and get himself back up to the top.
It's a wake up call to Haruka. The people in this industry don't care about her. She's a teenage girl, MMJ and ReLight are groups of teenage girls. They're easy to use and manipulate, and it's easy to take their autonomy away. Hiiragi and other producers will easily and willingly use these girls in order to benefit their own careers, the talent doesn't matter as long as they can be puppeted. Hiiragi pits ReLight and MMJ against each other when it's clear they'd rather be friendly rivals. He does it against their will because engineering infighting between the two groups of women is how he can get back at a young girl he blames the downfall of his career on. The industry does not care about women, especially young women. They're pawns for men to use in their game of corporate chess.
Airi's story is about the constant scrutiny women face, especially those who do not fit expectations of femininity to the degree society wants them to. I feel this aspect of Airi is often overlooked due to how much more upfront Shizuku's story is about its themes, but there's a reason for Shizuku and Airi's past rivalry and friendship and why their bond is so deep.
For a first time reader of Airi's first event, Re:START from Here!, it may seem sort of odd how they open with her backstory and how disconnected it can seem from the rest of the event. It's there to inform players of how important being an idol is to Airi and her motivations, but also provides us with the context of why being pushed as a tv star by her managers was so frustrating, on more levels than just it not being what she wanted to do.
Her fes card and Happy Lovely Everyday are essential to understanding this. Airi was mocked by other children when she was younger because of how rowdy she was. She was a tomboy, she was messy, she got into fights with boys and was rude to them, and she didn't dress like other girls did. No one took her seriously when she decided she wanted to be an idol, because she wasn't girly enough. She didn't fit those expectations of femininity other kids had for her. She'd never acted or dressed 'like a girl' before, so no one could see her as that even when she started performing the way they'd always expected of her. It's easy to read this as a trans allegory, but it's just as much something many women experience. Rampant misogyny means any women who doesn't perfectly conform to societal expectations are looked down on, they're judged and scrutinised and mocked for not ticking every made up box they're tested against.
Happy Lovely Everyday gives a bit more insight on the misogyny Airi faced in the actual idol industry and not just by the general public. When Airi made her debut as an idol with the group QT, one of her groupmates interrupted her self-intro, and people found her reaction to be entertaining. It's due to this that she was invited to guest star on variety TV shows, and the more time she spent on TV, the more people found her attitude amusing, and the more and more requests she got, eventually causing her agency to want to pull her from QT. She was too 'run of the mill' to be an idol according to them, so Airi left.
It's similar in a sense to Minori, it's why Airi always tries her best to look out for Minori. She sees her younger self in Minori. She was average, she wasn't beautiful and graceful like the idols at the top of their game. She didn't have that natural idol aura. She was cute, but fairly average, but her attitude made her stand out. However, that attitude wasn't idol-like enough. She didn't fit the expectations that the industry had for her. She was too outspoken and snappy, but that made her funny. It's why Airi is so jealous of Shizuku in main story. Shizuku is beautiful and charming, she's the perfect girl. She's everything anyone expects an idol to be, and in Airi's eyes she was handed the world on a silver platter. Shizuku quickly became popular, she was promoted within her group and she got to do modelling on top of that because of how pretty she was. She's everything Airi wanted to be but Airi just wasn't 'marketable enough' to have that.
The way Airi was treated in the industry mirrors that of how she was treated as a child. She didn't fit the boxes people wanted her to. She was too rowdy, too short tempered, she wasn't girly or beautiful, but these things made her easy to laugh at. Her attitude made for good entertainment, not to be taken seriously. Her whole childhood was filled with people trying to control her because of how she looked and acted, but her autonomy is something she constantly fought for. She dressed how she wanted despite her classmates mocking her, she aimed for the career she wanted in spite of her agency. She constantly has left people behind and run away if they try to stop her or take away all her control.
This is in contrast to Shizuku, who always let everyone decide for her. Shizuku has a lot of natural beauty and charm. She's a lot prettier than most girls her age, she's incredibly polite and she's full of kindness and love that she wants to share with others. She makes for the perfect idol, and that's what her friends thought when they signed her up to an idol audition behind her back. Shizuku never had any autonomy from the very beginning, no one ever let her make a decision for herself. Everyone has always seen her as something she could be, all this potential from surface level characteristics, and never as her own person.
The same characteristics that her friends saw is what the industry saw and preyed on. Shizuku on the outside is a perfect girl, and that concept is easy to capitalise on. Beauty is a commodity, she can be sold on that alone, but a manufactured personality to go alongside it makes Shizuku incredibly marketable. What use is a pretty face if she has flaws once she opens her mouth? If Shizuku can be the most beautiful girl in the country and never make a mistake, constantly be the kindest, most mature, and most talented girl around she's guaranteed to make her agency a load of money
The idol industry never once thought of Shizuku as a person, she's a product to them. She's stripped of everything that makes her Shizuku, and her face is put on display for every consumer around. Her second world link card demonstrates this idea perfectly. Shizuku is laid out on the table, perfectly posed, perfect outfit, perfect hair. Everything about the card composition and design is done to make her look appealing. So you the player want to pull for this card, so you want to spend money on her. She's the main course, she's been prepared to feed consumers, she isn't a person to these people. She's robbed of her autonomy and she's dehumanised to a ridiculous degree. But you won't notice her face, how pained she looks and the utter lack of hope in her eyes nor her body language. Her face is deliberately positioned away from the focal points of the card. Your eyes are immediately drawn to the brightest section of the card, the lower focus point of the right side of the card, where Shizuku's body is laid out. That's the focus of the card, not Shizuku's feelings, not who she is as a person, but what she looks like. You don't get to her face until you follow the Z line upwards, and even then her face isn't in focus, it's slightly off to one side. They don't want you to look at her face, they don't want you to realise that she's suffering. The way she's posed is intended to look attractive, but if you see her face you'll realise she's resigned, she's given into what the audience wants. Shizuku is one of the greatest victims of misogyny in the game and the story isn't afraid to shy away from this fact.
Aside from harming Shizuku's own self image and identity, the way the industry treated her caused her relationships to crumble, it started to ruin every aspect of her career and life. Her groupmates envied her for everything she was sold as, and so did Airi, one of the first friends Shizuku made in the industry and one of the first people to show her kindness when she was debuting. Airi was always Shizuku's idol, she was someone who showed her warmth and brought her hope, so it hurt to see the jealousy caused by the mask the industry put on Shizuku. Shizuku wasn't as talented as the industry had people believe, she was constantly working hard and training extra behind the scenes. In public she had to constantly maintain a persona and suppress any traces of her true self. She was constantly working to maintain the persona of Shizuku Hinomori, center of Cheerful*Days, and she was so good at doing everything that was wanted of her that she was losing friends and feeling like she was failing people.
Shizuku and Airi are like mirrors of each other. Airi suffered because she stayed true to herself, Shizuku suffered because she pretended to be someone she wasn't. Airi fought back, but Shizuku let people walk all over her. Airi ran away, but Shizuku stayed put for as long as she could bear. Shizuku's bravery and hardwork inspires Airi, and likewise Shizuku is inspired by Airi's ability to be outspoken whilst also being so immensely kind. Freelancing with MMJ finally gives them the ability to be themselves and decide on their careers, on their own terms.
5. Ena
I'll be honest I don't have too much to say about Ena herself, more to do with Mizuki and the importance of Ena being a cis woman in this scenario. So this is only short.
Ena battles with a lot of insecurities with her artwork, but as a way to cope with this and as a way to receive attention, she turns to social media, specifically posting photos of herself. Ena's been doing this for a long time as well, while she's an adult in the story now (barely) she has been posting photos of herself online since she was around 15 years old. This alone shows some harmful ideas that a younger Ena had regarding her self image. She never received recognition for her art and faced constant criticism, so she turned to seeking validation from her appearance from a young age. The fact she even thought to do this in the first place indicates an understanding and compliance she has towards the patriarchal values of her society. She recognises that the easiest way for her as a woman to get the validation she desires is through her good looks, her age aside. As long as she's pretty people will give her attention, and that can give her small short-term boosts to her self worth, even if it ends up eroding it in the process due to the fact she only gets attention for her appearance and no one can recognise her outside of that.
It's worth noting as well that the reason she falls into this habit is all because of men. Does she lack talent and was she overly confident? Yes. But like with Shizuku and Airi she had men trying to determine her life every step of the way. Shin'ei, similarly to Akito, views her as overly emotional and reactionary. He believes she's unable to handle criticism and again it's true this is something she struggles with, but Shin'ei goes about this in a completely backwards way. He tells his daughter she's talentless and unable to handle the art world, leading to her enduring years of self hatred and insecurity over her ability, leading to her nearly giving into him and giving up on her dreams. Shin'ei tried to dictate how Ena should live her life and yet never held Akito to the same standards, the only child we really see him be involved with is Ena. It tells us a lot about Shin'ei and how he views his kids, Akito is the boy who can handle himself and Ena is the girl who needs to be handheld and guided through life. You could put this down to Ena being the only one interested in art but there's a clear relationship between Akito and Ena's gender roles and their relationship to Shin'ei.
6. Akito
Akito's the one who started all this, and I already briefly explained the situation around him but I'll do it in a little more detail here.
So there's this really old 4koma, I think from Nocturne, where Akito says something on the lines of "why bother worrying about a relative's feelings, much less a woman's". Ensekai opted to translate this slightly differently removing the obvious misogyny from the comment. Obviously, this is not a huge aspect of his character anymore, but for a pre-any focus events Akito, it makes a lot of sense that he thinks this way.
Out of all the boys, Akito's maleness and masculinity is probably the most important to his character (I already talked about Tsukasa, but Akito's gender is far more important to his overall story and arc than him). Something we were actually talking about on here a few days ago (as of writing) is the Shinonome parents and their parenting style, mainly Shin'ei. Compared to Ena, who frequently has Shin'ei, and occasionally her mother, appear in stories, Akito extremely rarely is shown interacting with his parents, and if he does it's usually in an Ena event or card story. Akito is also a character who is incredibly in the mindset of needing to be independent and being dogshit at dealing with or being open about his problems, at least prior to SBD. Shin'ei is a character with terrible communication skills as a baseline, but also is also not really close with his kids and doesn't tell Ena about his past until her fourth event. So that's Akito's first impression of what he, a man, should grow up to be. Obviously he sees the flaws with his father specifically with regard to his treatment of Ena, but Shin'ei's personality is like a blueprint for Akito (and you can see this in how he keeps things to himself early on), alongside general patriarchal values of masculinity which probably led to other parts of his personality. You could even argue that the reason Shin'ei is so uninvolved with Akito is because of his gender, he's the boy so he doesn't need as much guidance as Ena, he can be independent and work out life on his own.
In comes Ken and Vivid Street. Vivid Street's community is still very male dominated. Nagi is the only major female Vivid Street NPC, and she's dead by the time the story starts. Consider how the people on vivid street treated him as a kid. He was mocked for his ability by guys way older and with way more experience than him, and once again had no one to go to, having to just work everything out by himself. After failing again though, that's when he meets Ken. Ken is important to talk about here, because he's far more present in Akito's life than his actual father. Ken takes the role of father figure in Akito's life and pretty much treats him like a son.
Ken is important to Akito because he's an adult man that he can actually look up to. Akito doesn't have any male role models outside Ken at this time, the only other prominent man in his life is Shin'ei, who around this point is ruining Ena's life. Ken is an actual responsible adult who treats Akito with respect and gives him the support that he needs. While Akito still needs help and support in the present day of course, Ken is the first person we see him be truly vulnerable with. Ken helps to break down some of the walls Akito put up and the expectations he boxed himself into, and continues serving this role until Burn My Soul. Find a Way Out is particularly important in showcasing what Ken provides for Akito. Ken advises Akito to actually let his emotions out instead of bottling everything up all the time. Akito very briefly doubts doing it as well, it's not something someone like him should do. He failed, he shouldn't forgive himself for what he did and he definitely can't mope about the consequences of his own actions, but despite all that, Ken listens to him. He's taken seriously, and encouraged to express his raw emotions and not to impose harmful ideas upon himself (even if these habits persist later on).
So to return to where we started with me ragebaiting people on twitter by calling Akito a misogynist, let's answer the question: is Akito a misogynist?
Kinda. He definitely shows it in earlier stories. We've already covered the 4koma, how he says why bother with how a woman feels. This comment was made in part in reference to his experiences growing up with Ena and people often bring that up to excuse it but just because they're related doesn't mean he can't hold misogynistic opinions. He views Ena as emotionally volatile and doesn't see the point in trying to work that out, it's demeaning. You can see other aspects of his earlier misogynistic mindset in his treatment of Kohane in the main story. Again people excuse it with "he was just angry she wasn't taking it seriously", and again, while this is true, there's layers and subtext to everything. Akito is deeply passionate and serious about his goals, so of course he's quick to write her off. But have you considered why he writes her off so quickly, besides her being a newbie. He was a newbie once too, so was Toya. Toya had musical training, but like Kohane he was a fish out of water. Kohane is also a naturally talented singer, so if anything he should have the same reaction to her singing as he did with Toya. The difference is, Kohane is a cute, feminine, and shy girl. She's the antithesis of Akito, and she doesn't fit in at all on vivid street unlike he does, and yet she's able to instantly gain the respect of An, and she's able to immediately be talented at something he worked tirelessly for.
He's definitely better nowadays like he doesn't just say shit like that 4koma or act like he did in main story anymore. I think dealing with his own insecurities helped him a lot. He changed and grew as a person somewhat.
I think considering prsk's motives, that being to portray realistic characters and stories for a tweenaged/teenaged audience, Akito is a very important character for young boys to have. He's someone who can appear tough and confident at first glance, yet when you look further he's not unlike his sister. He's got a lot of issues under the surface with his insecurity in his abilities and sense of self-hatred. He punishes himself for not meeting expectations and falling behind, he pushes himself to the point of harm to try and chase what he wants to be despite this only being to his detriment. He teaches young boys that it's okay to rely on others, it's okay to just try your best even when that might not be the same as someone else. Akito's stories break down a lot of those expectations of men and all of those first impressions of his character.
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Obviously, there's also Mizuki, but I don't think anyone needs that explained to them. Another one I'd like to bring up but only in like, a couple sentences because it's not massively relevant is Toya. Toya's whole arc is informed by the idea of freedom (and legacy), and the main way we see Toya express freedom in the story is through discovery and expression. He didn't get to experience a lot growing up, so he's learning new things about the world and himself as a teenager. He's notably not as bothered by appearing masculine as, say, Akito. He collects plushies and isn't bothered by carrying them around in public, whilst in his 1* story Akito is completely against the idea of being seen with the plushie in public and questions why Tsukasa would be okay with it as well. The fact that the plushie is going to Saki seems to be enough of an explanation though, because, of course, plushies are considered something only girls are interested in past a certain age. Toya also hides the plushies from his dad, which although is just because of him wasting time in his dad's eyes, could easily have the layer of Toya's masculinity put on it. Additionally, Toya serves as Kohane's makeup model in Take the Best shot, instead of Haruka who was working with them. He's very excited to learn about makeup and wearing it in the story, and it should be noted he's modelling for a brand that is probably geared towards women based on how it's described. Anyway that's all I have to say about him. Yay GNC Toya!
Hope this explains my thoughts vaguely coherently.
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i posted these write-ups i wrote about some of my thoughts on ratio's character on another platform a short while ago, but i want to post them here too in case someone would be interested in reading them:
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You know, I think it's interesting how there's kind of an emphasis on how people don't understand him in Ratio's character
I mean, there are multiple times where Trailblazer has said something along the lines of "Wow I didn't expect that from you" to him
And then his character stories are literally all excerpts from a book titled "Wisdom as a Privilege: Decoding Dr. Ratio" that tries to decipher Ratio as a person, and in said book, it's noted that Ratio is "as contentious as his research" as well as that "despite the plethora of commentaries [about Ratio in his homeworld], none of them seems to provide a compelling perspective." There is also this quote from his character stories: "At that time, Ratio was already a prominent figure in society, but there were varying opinions about him among his teachers and peers."
Although, despite him (Iirc) being canonically described as "the epitome of a disliked person", when you read the social media section in his character stories and the Hoyolab Dr. Ratio's Notes post, it seems like Ratio is pretty respected in the academic world... I suppose it's his personality which is highly contentious
Anyway, to give another example, there is Sunday in 2.1 who in his conversation with Ratio says "I understand you're an avid learner who seeks the pursuit of knowledge above all." and offers up The Family's research findings on Stellarons in exchange for Ratio helping him. Of course, you can say that the perceived friction between Aventurine and Ratio was part of their plan to fool Sunday, but it is nonetheless another instance of someone just fundamentally misunderstanding Ratio.
There are a few other interesting things my mind draws connections to, such as how in the Hoyolab post I mentioned earlier, Ratio is talked about like this: "He is still the insurmountable legend in our school. We all call him the Scholar King! And see? It's exam season again, and it's time to pray to the Scholar King..."
Someone exceptional to "pray" to. Something "divine" you could say, which is interesting because in 1.6, Geniuses are compared to the divine and the mundane to humanity, and Ratio readily calls himself an ordinary person yet it seems a lot of people don't quite perceive him that way.
(And that in itself is intriguing because Ratio is actually named after a Goddess, namely the Goddess of Truth in Roman Mythology, Veritas. Not to mention how his design is seemingly specifically made to represent both geniuses and the mundane, and which one he is changes depending on which angle you're looking at him from, but both angles are ultimately from the same body which could mean, from a certain perspective, he's both an ordinary person and a genius. If you're interested in what I mean by that:)
Which you can relate to Ratio's technique name, "the mold of idolatry". And actually, is it not interesting that Ratio's technique is essentially him creating statues of himself that taunt the enemies around him, making them to pay attention to it while he, the real version, can walk around unseen by anyone?
On that note, in some ways it feels like Ratio being a not very understood/widely debated person is partly... well, his fault. Whether that's something he does intentionally or unintentionally.
There is this EN dialogue of Ratio's in 2.3 that I've always found interesting, one you get when you ask him to rate Aventurine (lol): "[...] From my perspective, I am invariably the teacher, and [Aventurine], along with you and every other individual, is the student."... This line very much makes it seem like putting himself in the role of the "professor" is something Ratio purposefully does, which seems to be supported by his Penacony sticker's description, "I'm just doing what a supporting character should do." Arguably, you can see him doing this in both 1.6 and 2.1.
Seeing/treating yourself as the teacher and everyone else as students, intentionally making yourself a "supporting character" so other people can improve their own lives, putting yourself in that role which is different from everyone else's... If you look at it a certain way, isn't that sort of... lonely? Isolating? And that's what this whole post is supposed to be about, really
I think most people would agree that of the characters we know, the one closest to Ratio is Aventurine. You can argue that he knows Ratio better than most people as he has this dialogue in 2.1 where he asks Ratio "I thought you'd already given up on [joining the Genius Society]?" while it's said in Ratio's character stories that he has never spoken about wanting to join the GS publicly. But then if you look at Aventurine's voiceline about Ratio, you can see that he suspects Ratio doesn't care for him much, which to us is pretty clearly wrong... Of course, that's partly due to Aventurine's own insecurities, however you could probably say it's because of Ratio's "tsundereisms" (which are partly him just being a tsundere, but also connected to his self esteem issues) too, and you can also still count it as another instance of someone not fully understanding Ratio, with that someone being a person who knows him better than most
Having mentioned Ratio's "tsundereisms", I want to talk about how in the DU Human Comedy quest, Screwllum talks very highly of Ratio, clearly likes and respects him a lot, even asks TB for advice on what gift to give him, but then when TB asks if Ratio is the "partner" Screwllum mentioned, Ratio's like "Oh, calling me his 'partner' is just him overstating my contributions"... Just accept that he values you and your insights man
In general, Ratio is just that kind of person. I feel like a lot of people in this fandom think he is very arrogant and has a superiority complex or something, but when TB congratulates him on his research paper being a significant breakthrough in its field in the 3.5 drinkmixing event, Ratio replies with "Thanks... But these kinds of praise are unnecessary."
Also, you know, don't most tsunderes basically put on a certain image and try to convince others of it because they're afraid to show their true feelings (cough which if you squint, you can actually connect that to the plaster head Ratio wears that hides his expression with the head of a cold, unfeeling statue cough)? Isn't it just pushing people away? Like how intentionally putting yourself in a certain position different from others around you, causing them to often misunderstand you and/or not see you as one of them, and embodying the role of a harsh, strict teacher because you think criticism is invaluable for learning *also* pushing people away in a sense, if you ignore the matter of education and focus on what the person doing that may be feeling/experiencing on a personal level? Hmm...
Whether or not that interpretation is true, I doubt Ratio himself thinks of it that way though. I feel like I have to mention how when Ratio texts you about Human Comedy in 2.5, if you ask him "Who are you?", he responds with "It doesn't matter if you know me or not, but you should know yourself and the data I sent. That's very important." If you look at his Express visit dialogues, you can see that he's "aware that [he's] not the most endearing person" too... So if you look at all of the things mentioned in this comment, it really makes it sound like Ratio doesn't mind if you know him or understand him or like him as long as you can learn from him, right? He really is the embodiment of the role of a "professor"...
Oh, and I didn't even talk about how if there really is supposed to be a focus on the different ways people perceive him in Ratio's character, that might imply very interesting things about his past desire and efforts to join the Genius Society... Namely, perhaps he felt pressured to become a Genius because people expected that of him. In general, I've always thought that Ratio's story has a lot to do with the perceptions of ordinary people and how beings/concepts such as the Paths, Aeons and their chosen affect them and their lives
I'm really starting to just ramble at this point but what I'm trying to say is: Doesn't Ratio seem lonely? He's a contentious public figure who most seem to view as an exceptional genius (even if not a Genius) and don't fully understand, and you could argue he himself has this tendency to push others away, or perhaps push himself away from others (and I haven't even gone deeper into the possible self esteem issues Ratio has in this post, which is of course related to that!), which intensifies this. If you look at things from a more meta perspective, he's also still our only Intelligentsia Guild character and when he released, he had voicelines for 3 people, 2 of which explicitly said they did not know who tf he is in his release patch and the remaining 1 being unplayable (Screwy 💔), while nobody had voicelines for him
All that is to say, Hoyo PLEASE give us more information about Ratio's past. Specifically about his homeworld, home life and family, as well as how he grew up and whether he had friends. I genuinely think those things are very important for his characterization, especially the matter of his parents and whether he grew up with love and support (Though, Ratio's parents are never mentioned even in his character stories so it's actually fully possible Ratio is an orphan???), since the answer would likely explain a lot about his character
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Connected to what I talked about yesterday with nobody really understanding Ratio in-universe, this voiceline has always been very fascinating to me for what it could mean about his identity/his own view of his identity
I feel like the other languages make it sound even more like he's talking about himself here (with the "Well, that's true for me, at least" part seemingly being translated into something more along the lines of "That applies to me too."), though among them I only speak English so I can't confirm it myself
To be honest, I think there is a really interesting conversation to be had here in relation to Ratio about the way a person is perceived by others and the way they perceive themselves, the differences between those perceptions and the biases that inevitably colour them, what someone's "true self" means and whether such a thing even exists
To elaborate on what I mean, for example, there was this Bilibili video for a collab featuring Fugue and Aventurine a while back where the punchline of the joke was that Fugue was describing certain characters and Aventurine kept thinking of the wrong people. Iirc Fugue would say something like "a fierce swordsman" and think Blade while Aventurine would think of Sushang or something lol. And in that video, when Fugue said "gentle scholar", she thought of Ruan Mei while Aventurine thought of Ratio
And even if "gentle" would likely not be the first word one thinks of when describing Ratio, I can see why Aventurine would think that way considering their bond and all the truly shitty and harsh people Aventurine has certainly met throughout his life.
But I don't really think Ratio would consider himself gentle. Does that mean Aventurine's perception is wrong and he does not understand Ratio's true self, because it does not match Ratio's own perception of himself? Not really, as like I said, the way people perceive others is inevitably coloured by their own biases, both negative and positive. And Ratio is a critical person who likely has some self esteem issues, so I'd argue his biases towards himself would skew more negative. So really, what does a person's true self really mean, and what does Ratio consider his unchanging true self that does not depend on others' perceptions to be like?
In general, there are other things related to the matter of perception in Ratio's character, such as his ult line which literally translates to "To be is to be perceived", a quote said by George Berkeley who argued matter does not exist independently, instead it has to be perceived by a mind (of a human or of God, who in his view guaranteed the continuation of existence through his perception) to exist. If we apply that to Ratio's self, can we say that Ratio's "true self" continues to exist independent of others' perceptions because he himself perceives it? And if he's the only one who perceives it and in doing so he ensures the continuation of its existence, can we maybe even consider that another God(dess) motif he has?
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hihi sorry to rant in your inbox but i hate when people use aven's line about jade that says her kindness comes with a price to make their relationship seem worse than it is. while the ipc is. well. the ipc i dont thinl it would benefit her to harm him like theyre both stonehearts AND hes her subordinate. personally i think the price he mentions is like, testing him like she did in her social media post with the ores. it certainly would be less incongruous with her want to guide those that come after her..
I think that people really struggle with Jade. They took one look at her dommy mommy appearance and her status as one of the top three in the Stonehearts and they just want her to be unrepentant evil soooo bad.
Don't get me wrong, she is definitely a master manipulator and she definitely has a specific personal goal she's working toward using the IPC as her vehicle to do so. Her overall idea of creating an endless vortex of desires that can't ever be sufficiently met is very Voracity-coded and not really the kind of idea a very well-adjusted person would be espousing. We have no idea how loyal she really is to the IPC's goal of aiding Preservation against Destruction in the War of the Aeons.
But she's also, over and over again, been painted as having "True Neutral" moral alignment in-game. She's literally xxxHolic's Ichihara Yuuko with a bad case of capitalism: She always demands a price, but never asks more than is fair.
It's literally Fullmetal Alchemist's first law of alchemy: Human kind can not gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost.
All of Jade's exchanges are equivalent and none of her customers enter into a bargain without understanding the price they are paying. In fact, she won't even let Firefly try to make a deal at all without doing her research in advance to truly realize the extent of what she is asking for. Jade is inherently an honest businesswoman.
The issue is that greed is all-encompassing. The ability to have any wish granted is a temptation that virtually no one can escape in the end.
Therefore, I think the best way to understand Jade is as the Honkai Star Rail equivalent of Mephistopheles. In the legend of Faust, the eponymous Dr. Faust longs for more in his life--he is endlessly pursuing knowledge and power, but has hit the limits of his own ability. He meets the devil, Mephistopheles, who agrees to enter into a pact with him: Mephistopheles will fulfill all Faust's wishes while Faust is still alive, but then Faust's soul will belong to the devil when he dies. The deal is fairly presented. The terms are not unclear: If Faust agrees to the bargain, he knows what will happen to his soul in the end.
Mephistopheles doesn't trick him or force his hand when it comes to this bargain. Faust could say no. He could resist. But he doesn't. He agrees, because human greed and pride are simply that overpowering. He thinks he's smarter than the devil; unlike the thousands of others who have come before and suffered damnation for their deals with the devil, Faust thinks he is different, better than others, more deserving... The actual temptation doesn't come from the devil. It comes from human hubris.
Like Mephistopheles, like the serpent in the Garden of Eden, Jade merely presents the choice--it's humanity's endless desire that leads to the downfall.
It's a snake and an apple and a contract for a reasonnnnnn, Jade haters.
So, I don't think that Jade represents any danger to anyone who can resist temptation. Firefly walks away from Jade's exchange entirely unscathed. Trailblazer isn't pressed into surrender.
But Aventurine?
To be honest, I think his relationship with her is a bit more complicated.
Aventurine likes Jade. She did him a solid when he was at his lowest in life. His character stories make it clear that he views her as, essentially, someone "safe" in the IPC, unlike other Stonehearts.
But... I do agree that Aventurine approaches Jade more cautiously than he approaches others. And I think that probably stems from a couple of different factors:
Jade has positioned herself as Aventurine's "pseudo-mother," and Aventurine responds to her as if she, indeed, a mother figure he has to obey. He is more respectful of her than anyone else we see him interact with in the game--Diamond and Opal get called by name, but Jade is always "Ma'am." Which is very close to "Mama;" this is not an accidentttttt. When Jade disrupts his banter with Topaz, Aventurine immediately does as he is told, hands over his room card, and simmers down. Even in joking social media posts, when Jade asks Aventurine to do something (judge the uncut jade stones she sent him), he does it even when she rejects his high demand for profit sharing.
But:
2. Jade actually failed Aventurine's moral litmus test. From the beginning of his adulthood flashbacks, we see Aventurine explicitly troubled by the fact that his human dignity was denied and that a market value was assigned to his existence. And not even a high value. He was sold for pennies. It's the ultimate mortification, and we can tell it is still bothering him to this day because even "future" Aventurine brings up the sting of that bone-deep insult during Aventurine's long walk through Penacony.
In response to the indignity, Kakavasha gave his original master a moral test: Kakavasha says that he'll go willingly into the hellscape of the death maze if his master will give him 30 copper Tanba, just half his market value. His master refuses, demonstrating that he does not view Kakavasha as a human being, worthy of any respect. By refusing this tiny, insignificant request, the master exhibits his utter moral depravity, from which there is no return. In response, Kakavasha ultimately kills him and takes the 30 copper coins he asked for (nothing more, nothing less) from his corpse.
When Kakavasha meets Jade, he then makes the exact same demand: He wants 30 copper coins and exactly 30 copper coins. At this point, it is very clear that--to Kakavasha--the coins are emblematic of his value as a human being. (I promise you, somewhere in his apartment right now are the 30 bloody coins he took from his master's cold corpse.) His freedom, his dignity, his worth... All of these things hinge on being able to acquire the original 60 Tanba coins. Thus, those who refuse his requests for the coins also symbolically refuse his request for basic respect, his request to be seen as an equal human being who deserves to not be reduced to mere pennies on a bill of sale.
And Jade refuses this request. She treats the demand for Tanbas like a paltry sum and instead ignores the specificity of the request to give a general "We'll give you riches beyond your imagine, more than you could have ever thought to want." But that isn't what he asked for. She stepped over the request he actually made in order to supplant her ideas, on her terms. Kakavasha made the tiniest, most easily completed request in the world, and in failing to actually just respect what he personally wished for, Jade demonstrated that she ultimately will not really respect him.
Just like his slave master, Aventurine represents a value on a page to Jade.
For this reason, even if she extends pseudo-maternal behavior to Aventurine and he laps it up like a starved kitten drinks up milk, we see that he remains more cautious toward her than he does to any other female character in the game. Aventurine comes across as more comfortable talking to Acheron than he sounds when he talks to Jade... Because in failing the most basic and seemingly meaningless test, Jade revealed exactly to what extent Kakavasha can--and cannot--trust her.
Does Jade actually mean Aventurine any harm? No, I really don't think so, and you're right, those who claim that she does are really over-exaggerating Jade's negative traits, mostly because they've almost universally got a strong anti-IPC agenda and hate everything from the IPC except Aventurine on principle. Everything in Jade's character stories points to her honestly wanting to develop the hidden talents of others, to "polish" rough cut stones into true gems, and to see her fledglings thrive. Kakavasha is someone she picked up out of the dirt and dusted off. If he excels, that means her faith was well-placed, her judgment was correct, and her team as a whole excels.
It's exactly like a business owner who takes great pride in producing a fantastic product. Only when the product succeeds can the business itself succeed.
But business owners see their products as objects, not equals.
Jade is a fairly neutral figure and I think she wants to see Aventurine grow and achieve greatness. But at the end of the day, their relationship is very predicated on the notion of investment (Jade puts up the original capital to make Aventurine great, and he repays her faith in him by generating wealth for the IPC). It is clear she just can't be trusted to value Aventurine as a person above a means of profit--and Aventurine knows (and accepts) that too.
Following Topaz's explanation that Cornerstones are made to fill the hole in the user's heart, what "hole" in Aven's heart do you think his drag queen powers are meant to fill? Especially since Topaz remarks he's the only one with such showy powers
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So cunty, and for what???
Anyway, first, when Jade talks about the Stonehearts' "voids," the alternate reading above that word is actually "ambition." And she mentions that the reason she risked reaching out to Firefly is that she views herself as similar to Firefly--Jade is someone with an unfulfilled wish.
I think there's enough here to suggest that the Stonehearts' voids are not quite what we would normally think of when hearing the word "void"--rather than being best understood as something removed or something lost, their voids seem to be "something desired." An unfulfilled goal. An unmet need. A burning ambition. A secret wish. They all have somewhere they want to get to, and they've signed on-board with Diamond's Preservation project because his power is the fastest way--maybe the only way--to get there.
The implication here, by the way, is that the Stonehearts are acting out the very act of Preservation itself with Diamond. The goal of Qlipoth is for the universe to be saved, an unshakeable resolution to stop Destruction's wanton obliteration. Thus, Preservation itself can be understood as "A desire that must be continuously protected and relentlessly pursued." To live. To endure.
In using the power of an emanator to protect and provide the Stonehearts with ways to pursue their own desires, we replicate in miniature the exact resolve and endless pursuit of perseverance that Qlipoth is acting out in the broader universe. The will of Preservation empowers the Stonehearts--and in turn, the Stonehearts swear an oath to aid in Preservation's mission. It's a mutually beneficial arrangement, and it also simultaneously imitates Jade's shop perfectly: I'll give you exactly what you want, if you give me what I need.
I should clarify that I don't actually think the cornerstones themselves fill the Stonehearts' voids. Rather, they seem to me to be a tangible symbol of the oath between Diamond and the Stonehearts--"I'll give you this power to fulfill your deepest wish, if you work for me." Jade suggests that the power of the cornerstones provides Stonehearts with the means to fill their voids (I.e., having superpowers makes it possible for you to pursue your wish), so I think their individual cornerstone abilities are best understood as "The exact power I need to achieve my particular goal."
So what does that say about Aventurine's "showy" transformation?
Pretty much all the rest of this is just going to be my personal speculation, but I'd say the most telling glimpse we get into why Aventurine's power is so "visual" comes from these lines with the future "Aventurine" in 2.1:
There's two completely contradictory desires being expressed here: Aventurine's life "is the chip he's most eager to lay down" and "always has been"--that is, he genuinely wants to die. He isn't just willing to gamble with his life, he's eager to. The future "Aventurine" also says real Aventurine wants to be "polished up" (to be controlled and molded by others) and "cuffed with red-hot chains" (to be made powerless and not responsible for making his own decisions, to be punished).
But conversely, the real Aventurine also wants to be perceived as "a smooth operator" and "the solid gold deal-maker who doesn't waste a drop of sweat." He wants to be in charge of his image. He wants to be the one who controls the narrative and defines how others think of him. He wants to be "spotlit center stage"--to command the eyes of the world. In short, we could say that Aventurine wants his death (and conversely, his life) to mean something.
From these conflicting desires, I think you can derive a few totally opposite but equally valid interpretations of why Aventurine's cornerstone power is so "visual":
A combat-oriented transformation is another means to seek death.
Jade's power is scary, but she isn't using it to literally launch herself into fights. Topaz's seems to be similar--something that might allow her to win over her opponents in some way (she was about to use it in Belobog to no-sell the Trailblazer), but she clarifies directly that it is not a "transformation." Aventurine just literally turns into a boss enemy and goes straight out on to the battlefield.
In the fight, he doesn't even use shields. (Now whether that's something he never does because the cornerstone powers don't actually come with shields while in his monster form, if he couldn't use shields because his cornerstone was broken, or if he just chose not to use shields in this fight to give Trailblazer and Co. a fighting chance, only time will tell. However, it might be worth noting that his empowered Apocalyptic Shadow form doesn't come with shields either, despite having other new mechanics.)
The point is, this form, while looking cool and seeming strong, is actually a gamble in and of itself. To go out onto the battlefield, where you might not actually be the strongest combatant, is always a risk. And I think this is the kind of risk that Aventurine manifests continually in his life. He is constantly creating opportunities for his own luck to fail. His unfulfilled desire, the "ambition" he was desperate enough to join the Stonehearts to pursue--as his original goal to save his people is completely gone, his only current goal might actually just be a chance to die. His powers may manifest as a combat-oriented transformation because that is just one more way to throw himself into the crossfire.
In fact, this is exactly what Sugilite accuses him of in Jade's myriad celestia:
You didn't need to snatch his wig this hard, Sugilite. (Also I need you all to know I originally wrote "You didn't need to come for him this hard, Sugilite," but then I realized how unfortunate that wording was, so...)
You could even argue that the fact Aventurine's transformation comes with a mask that obscures his entire face is a sign that we're supposed to see this form as dehumanizing.
The facial features are completely obscured and asymmetrical, there's no mouth, his fingers have become claws--despite his body staying mostly human-shaped, it's obviously intended to hint at something monstrous, subsuming his original identity behind a violent facade.
Kakavasha disappears entirely behind "Aventurine" when he transforms, becoming a faceless enemy at the risk of (perhaps in hopes of) entirely losing himself. Maybe every transformation lets Aventurine throw himself closer and closer to the edge of death--and perhaps, before Penacony, only death could ever have filled the "void."
But, on the complete opposite hand (because Aventurine is always both sides of the coin), we could also argue the other end of the spectrum entirely:
A combat-oriented transformation is a show of force.
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Aventurine's entire life has been marred by disenfranchisement, by violations of his basic human rights, freedoms, and agency. At every turn, he has been victimized by others more powerful than himself: his childhood consisted of his clan being relentlessly hounded and hunted to extinction by the Katicans, having their food constantly stolen, their meager belongings burned to the ground, and each one of his family members systematically slaughtered, often in front of his eyes.
After his childhood, he was bought and sold as chattel for pennies, branded like an animal, and forced into a fight where to he had to beat other innocent people to death just to keep himself alive, all for the entertainment of the masses. Even Jade, who promised to help him achieve his goals, treats him like a business investment more than a friend.
In Penacony, we watch everyone he talks to degrade and ostracize him. Even though Aventurine led him into doing it, Sunday tortures and re-traumatizes him live for our entertainment.
Even more that, we see Aventurine constantly struggling with the question of whether his life is really his own or whether his blessing from Gaiathra means that his entire existence has been predetermined, his fate sealed in blood and sand from the very moment of his birth, utterly inescapable.
No matter how Aventurine tries to portray himself as the ultimate winner, he's only ever the "final" victor--being the only one left standing at the end is meaningless if on the road to getting there, you were treated like fate's favorite punching bag. Winning in the end is utterly pointless if on the road to winning, you still lost it all first, from the things you loved to your personal freedom.
What does a person who has been made powerless again and again truly desire? What void do you seek to fill if life has denied you your agency over and over?
Power. Dominance. The ability to literally strike back at those who've wronged you. The strength to intimidate and force people into a corner the way you've been intimidated and forced before.
If we say that Aventurine's "void" is not a literal desire for the release of death, then it might make sense for the "void" to instead to be a frantic desire to gain control over his circumstances. To be the one finally in charge of deciding his own fate.
Particularly in light of his character story which tells us that Kakavasha's original goal for joining the Stonehearts was to save his people, the desire to take on an impressive form that screams "I'm powerful" and has the ability to physically enact vengeance on others feels directly aligned. And it remains aligned even after the reveal that the Avgins are all gone--once more fate strips Kakavasha of his power to make a difference in the world, to achieve what he truly dreams of.
The Apocalyptic Shadow version of his boss fight is called "Desperate Diceroller."
How angry he must be, deep down. How hateful the world must seem. How sad it is to feel that way.
If destiny won't let you out of the cage, your only choice is to grow claws to tear it open.
Okay, but WHY so much swag though?
Are the peacock feathers and spandex really necessary?
Listen. Everyone talks about Ratio having "gifted kid" syndrome, but I'm here to tell you that Aventurine is actually a burnt out gifted kid extraordinaire.
He's literally, canonically, explicitly the chosen one of his people.
From the moment of his birth, his mother and sister--and presumably others in his clan even--were telling him that he was their clan's most precious treasure and that he would lead them to prosperity and safety.
He carried this weight even after fleeing from the massacre, all through his childhood and teenage years, through slavery and abuse, putting his very life on the line to join the IPC in hopes of finally fulfilling the destiny his mother and sister promised he could.
He was supposed to save them. That was his meaning. That was his purpose in life.
But he was too late.
The fate he was born for, raised believing, and risked everything to achieve... is still incomplete.
So, for all that talk about suicide and power-seeking, my real answer is this: Aventurine's "void" is his unfulfilled destiny.
His whole existence has been predetermined, his life's journey laid out in prophecy and blessings from the very beginning. Yet what he thought was his fate betrayed him, and where you head after becoming an unsuccessful chosen one is a question without answer.
His thoughts constantly circle around how he is a "failure" and a "loser."
When you have no sense of purpose, when your life has no meaning, when what you are still seeking is the role you were supposed to have from the moment of your birth: the glorious destiny of being a savior, being the "happiness" of your people, being the hero...
Of course you crave the spectacle. Of course you long for the spotlight--you long to be recognized. Because Kakavasha's the chosen one. "Spotlit center stage" is where he's supposed to be--in the leading role that was stolen from him.
I think that Aventurine's cornerstone transformation is so flashy because, at the core, it represents a longing to truly be the "precious wealth" of the Avgin that his sister promised him he would be. It represents his desire to transform from a useless, "discarded" person into a larger-than-life version of himself. (Hey, fun fact, out of every official depiction of Aventurine, his boss model wears the only outfit in which his slave brand is not naturally visible.) He literally transforms into a supernatural being, capable of seizing others' fates in his hands. It represents the power he needed to save his people and himself. Its extreme flashiness screams for attention, demands to be witnessed as something beyond a helpless human.
It's almost as if Aventurine is a child writing a wish-fulfillment story where he transforms into a hyper-glamorous, all-powerful masked superhero who is capable of saving the day and winning against his enemies every time.
Unlike Jade and Topaz, Aventurine can't hide his deepest desire. It was always going to be a "transformation," because Aventurine's unanswered wish is to be someone better than himself.
His "void," his deepest unachieved ambition--it's written right there, all over his body.
Aventurine's cornerstone power is a story he's telling himself about the person he was supposed to be.
But as Acheron claims, that's life itself.
Aventurine doesn't feel like he has any control over his journey's ultimate destination.
He doesn't know where's he's headed or what the purpose of it all is. But...
Jade explicitly describes the Ten Stonehearts and Diamond's endeavor as a "journey" as well:
Because Preservation represents the continuance of life itself, and the Stonehearts with their endless "voids"--Aventurine with his soul-deep longing to become someone better than himself--represent all of us very real human beings, trying our best to find our own "cornerstones," to gain the means to finally, finally achieve our own sweet dreams.
Hey! I apologize if this question has been asked before since it seems like a pretty obvious one, but where do you think the idea of Aventurine being a sex slave came from? Other than the obvious factor of it being something fun for the fandom to mess around with, I mean.
It's something I kind of took for granted as being true before playing his quest, but after finishing it I realized there wasn't really any indication. The only thing I can really think of is his master's comments about him having a good body. Is there anything in his behavior you can think of that would lead to this conclusion if it wasn't a popular fan interpretation already/kind of just an easy conclusion to reach with a slave character?
(also kind of related but what do you think of the idea that he sleeps around/with his clients to make deals? he's obviously willing to sexualize himself with the boob window, but that doesn't necessarily mean he goes further.)
As far as I can tell, the idea that Aventurine was involved in sexual slavery comes from three (maybe four) places:
First, the comment from the master about Aventurine's appearance. People were holding this comment up as refutable proof that Aventurine was used in sexual slavery on top of being tossed into the Hunger Games; however, the response from other players on this interpretation, especially the Chinese side of the fandom, was very mixed, with a lot of people pointing out that the context in the game probably meant the slave master was talking about Aventurine's ability to attract attention from fans watching the literal Sigonian Hunger Games, rather than having a direct sexual-slavery connotation.
Second, the comment from Sparkle about stripping naked and getting on his knees for Sunday. This one has way more implication in English than I think it might for an Eastern audience, actually. In English, this pretty much sounds like Sparkle saying Aventurine trades sexual favors for success in his gambles. However, I suspect the original intention in Chinese was more about humiliation. Western audiences don't have as much history with honor-based prostration, i.e. accepting corporal humiliation as a form of reconciliation that Eastern audiences might be more familiar with. And in any case, Sparkle is Sparkle. She probably just went for the lowest blow she could think of here.
Third, the general assumption that if Sigonian slaves were being chained, branded, beaten, sent to death matches, etc., it seems logical that they would also be taken advantage of in other ways. I honestly think this is probably the fairest take--many, many real slaves around the world faced (and still face!) sexual abuse, so if slaves from Sigonia were treated so poorly you could make them fight to the death for entertainment, it stands to reason they were probably also not safe from other forms of assault. We also have no idea what happened to Kakavasha in any of the years between his being a tiny child fleeing the massacre and then being purchased as a slave as a late-teens-early-twenties person. That's a very long time for a child to have to survive on their own on an extremely hostile planet and not face risks of all kinds or end up needing to do unspeakable things to survive. So I think this is at least not that far-fetched, although it's important to say there's nothing in the game that directly confirms this.
And fourth: I read a tweet semi-recently that stated that one of the Chinese (or maybe it was Japanese) names for a quest Aventurine was involved in was actually a reference to a book about a teenage sexual assault survivor. However, when I tried to verify this myself, I couldn't find any quest Aventurine was in that was based on a book about sexual assault in either English, Chinese, or Japanese. It's possible I just missed something, but I'm taking this one with a bit of a grain of salt currently, since I can't confirm it personally.
Regarding your other question, about whether I think Aventurine sleeps around to make deals...
I definitely think he does not, for one major reason.
First, I will admit that Aventurine is definitely willing to use his appearance to his advantage. This is pretty obvious. He wears incredibly flashy clothes, baths himself in cologne, overloads on glittering golden jewels, and absolutely calls attention to his appearance when working with clients.
We see him actively doing this in his Moment Among the Stars video, where he is clearly using his looks as an equal tool (to his wealth), to daze his target.
It's not an accident that he says things like "Use me as you wish," with all the explicit connotations preserved. The implication is there. However, unless he was absolutely backed into a corner, I think that implication is all it will ever be.
The reason I think this is that the devs go out of their way to give Aventurine three fairly noticeable physical behaviors in his in-game scenes:
For one, he has some of the most closed off body language of any character in the game.
Aventurine's default conversation pose is arms crossed directly and tightly in front of himself. This is like "Defensive Body Language 101." By crossing your arms, you put a symbolic barrier between yourself and the person you're speaking to, and also ensure that your hands are up and available in case you actually need to physically defend yourself.
Virtually all of Aventurine's conversations take place from this stance, no matter who he is speaking to (from the Trailblazer all the way to Topaz). He deliberately closes his pose off and tightens up his silhouette, which just sends a glaring "Don't touch me" message.
This closing off is also blatantly apparent when you compare it to the deliberately open poses he strikes while trying to make himself seem accessible to others (like tempting clients) or seem powerful (to intimidate):
Complementing this habit of closing himself off is a second noticeable aspect of his body language: He frequently avoids eye contact to the point that he even holds conversations while entirely facing away from the person he's speaking to.
I might be a bit lenient and say maybe he's doing this to on purpose to be mysterious, whoo~~ But... in all honestly, he just does this with everyone, even with Ratio while trying to talk about an actual important issue (wanting to look into Acheron's real identity). Hell, even the fake Aventurine does it to himself!
We can even say that wearing the rose-tinted glasses in the first place is another intentional barrier, one Aventurine deliberately removes in specific moments to give people the (false) impression that he's "letting them in" to his circle:
Now, this might be a bit more complicated in Aventurine's case, because eye contact has a whole extra meaning when eyes are the defining trait of your species and come with particularly challenging racial stereotypes. So it may be that Aventurine is simply used to conducting conversation while looking away to minimize racial prejudice against his eyes' unique appearance.
However, I'd also argue that the devs deliberately turned his entire model away in cutscene after cutscene to create a clear sense of being inaccessible, unapproachable, and unwilling to engage in the physical intimacy of standing closely, directly facing, and staring at his conversation partners.
While he faces away, he controls both the figurative and the literal direction of conversation, forcing people to keep their eyes on him while he is free to move as he pleases. Over and over again, it just says "I want to be the one in control. I'm not afraid to show my back to you, but you are not welcome to come near me."
And, in fact, that's a third aspect of his character's body language that I am sure the devs did not include accidentally: More so than other characters, many of Aventurine's conversations are conducted from weirdly far distances. Like, half the time he's talking, he's standing all the way on the opposite side of the room!
This habit of speaking from a-larger-than-normal distance is apparent in the first scene with Himeko...
And then in just about every other conversation too:
The bubble is twenty feet in every direction.
Like yes, he does approach and have conversations like a normal person... sometimes... But it is significantly more noticeable with Aventurine than with other characters that he often conducts whole conversations--even with his allies--from a distance. Just genuinely weirdly far apart.
Leaving space for Gaiathra, I guess.
And it's because these significant decisions were made with Aventurine's in-game body language that, when he deliberately alters his own behavior, it is instantaneously noticeable.
In 2.0, he closes the distance, the glasses come off, and he gets directly up in the Trailblazer's face.
It's uncomfortable not just because the player is suddenly being loomed over, but because this behavior has already been subconsciously established for the player as out of character for Aventurine.
The barriers the character himself was putting up are deliberately stripped away so that he can use physicality and demanding eye contact to intimidate his target. He has to reverse his own normal body language in order to come across as domineering (and, I guess if you're into that, appealing in a domineering manner).
And ummmm, just a tiny aside here because I can't resist:
This does mean that when the game goes out of its way to demonstrate Aventurine altering his own normal habit of distant and defensive body language, it is absolutely intentional.
Yes, this is a Ratiorine post in disguise. There literally isn't any other character in the game that Aventurine is shown being comfortable standing so close to and interacting with in this manner. This doesn't occur in every one of their scenes, but Ratio is the only character that this happens with repeatedly. It's not an accident that the devs literally added "They were walking side-by-side" as flavor text.
But look, I'll be fair: There's a great example of this in Aventurine's scene with Acheron too, where he closes the distance and attempts to make eye contact with her--seeking her guidance and closeness--and she is actually the one stepping away, speaking with her back turned, demonstrating her power and control (and issues with connection!) in that scene.
Anyway, this was a whole longggg tangent into analyzing Aventurine's body language, but my point is that, overall, the devs deliberately adjusted his model's actions in-game to give the impression of a person who clearly wants to be in control of every interaction he has with other people, who insists on distance over intimacy, and whose stances and habits suggest that he is significantly less accessible and open than his "Use me as you wish" motto might suggest.
Long story longer, I think that there is almost zero chance Aventurine is willingly ceding control over himself or the actions expected of him to anyone he isn't 100% comfortable with, and I think that using physical intimacy of any kind would be an absolute last resort for him. Frankly, he comes across as more likely to shoot himself in the foot than let someone he doesn't trust lay hands on him.
To me, he reads very much as "You may look, but you may not touch."
i have often wondered who would be the first to confess among aventio for so long and i still haven't reached a definitive conclusion. i mainly think it'd be aventurine, but it's still up in the air, really
a poll about it to see people's answers, and my own thoughts below it
who would be the one to confess first?
aventurine
ratio
Voting ended onMar 1
see, aventurine is the type of person to reach out to something he wants and not stop pursuing it until he has that thing grasped inside his hands. he's crafty and smart, and due to his past, he knows how easily you can lose someone you cherish with all your heart, so i think he'd be type to be fairly protective of his loved ones and want to hold them close
but the problem is that aventurine is insecure. he doesn't truly have a very high opinion of himself. in his voiceline for ratio, he says that he suspects ratio doesn't care for him much even though it's very obvious to us that ratio does. he hides behind a facade and doesn't show his vulnerable side, he is used to being taken advantage of as well as taking advantage of others, and to him that's just how relationships between people kind of work. so him sincerely falling in love with ratio, someone who he thinks of as so good but doesn't see himself that way, might freak him tf out and his self-worth issues might hold him back from ever confessing
then on the other hand, you have ratio. ratio is the type of person to unapologetically walk his own path and keep seeking out the truths he desires. that dedication to his ideals is what makes him hunt. he's also more... mentally well adjusted compared to aventurine, which might mean he'd be the one to confess.
but ratio is kind of insecure too and has a tendency to keep people at arm's length. he's a tsundere. he's an ordinary person who gave up on becoming a genius when he realized he'll likely never get gazed upon by nous, and even if he thinks ordinary people can be capable and lead meaningful lives as well, that perceived failure still affects him. screwllum calls him his partner like 20 times throughout the DU quests, speaks highly of him and even asks TB advice on what gift to give him, but when TB asks ratio about it he's just like "oh, screwllum is merely exaggerating". there aren't many playable characters he has an actual relationship with and even in his character stories we don't get much info about his relationships with others, and in-game he's described as a contentious figure and "the epitome of a disliked person", and ordinary people see him as an exceptional genius while Geniuses see him as an exceptional ordinary person, so he doesn't quite fit into either group and is potentially quite lonely. he intentionally places himself in the role of a "supporting character" (as he says in his penacony sticker) and the professor while seeing everyone else as his students (as he says in the 2.3 quest), which can be seen as a form of isolation. when owlbert says he and aventurine seem to have mutual respect for eachother, ratio, who as we previously established is a tsundere, doesn't refute the notion of him respecting aventurine but is instead like "wait, mutual? what did he say about me?". in one of his express visit dialogues, he says "i'm aware i'm not the most endearing person [...]". hell, if you look at his voiceline for aventurine, you can surmise that he's the type of person to tell aventurine to worry about himself first if aventurine were to show any concern over him
so aventurine hides his real feelings behind a silver tongue, and ratio behind a sharp tongue. aventurine thinks highly of ratio but not himself, thinking of ratio as "always reliable" and a "gentle doctor" in official content, but still being haunted by his past as a slave worth 30 tanba; while ratio has hoped for something, hoped for someone's recognition, only to never receive it no matter how much he tried before, and is used to acting as the supporting character/professor in other people's lives & being seen as a disliked person.
you can see how these two could come to a standstill, right?
but i see aventurine being the one to confess first because aventurine has actually gone through character development. in penacony, he faced his past and child self, and got a new desire to keep on living. meanwhile ratio has gone through some character development of his own before canon of course, but his insecurities and own self-worth issues have never really been dealt with.
and i can just see aventurine being driven to realize his feelings and want to confess after the letter ratio gave him in penacony, which was in-game implied to be the thing that gave him extra luck and allowed him to get to the gnawing oak dreamscape without getting eternally lost (i'm still not over that btw. ratio's wish for aventurine's safety being the thing to save him is so insanely romantic, wtf?)
those are just my personal thoughts coloured by my own biases (i want to see ratio being confessed to) though
the thing i think about too much is that jing yuan and yanqing saved each other. and keep saving each other every day.
so jing yuan is a parental figure in yanqing's life, he raised him, gives him money and shelter, also being his mentor and the person yanqing admires the most.
but for jing yuan, a depressed old man, who lost his friends, lost his opportunity to make his dream true, has a dangerous and difficult job, yanqing is really a light. like something new, something that moves him forward, reminds him why he needs to keep fighting. a xianzhou in miniature. some connection aside from the quintet. someone who demands attention, someone who belongs the world of living, reminds that jing yuan is also still alive.
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do you perhaps have any good aventurine and ratio fanfics to recommend...?
gonna take this first sentence to say i write too hehe
in other news i actually don't get much time to read fanfiction, but i do have a lot of stuff i bookmarked recently! unfortunately for all of us though what i have bookmarked is nsfw lmfaooo
i prefer reading top aven/bottom ratio because that dynamic is more interesting to me so do what you will with that 🙂↕️
some non-NSFW though:
Rubber Duckie, You're The One by BlackKat2907
In which Ratio worries about Aventurine being gone on a mission and his students give him a gift to cheer him up.
professor for a day by greenery_o
It all started with a simple proposal.
As they so often did when they met after a long day at work, idle chitchat about their day and insufferable colleagues was the norm. Ratio had been recounting how one of his students had nearly been convinced to participate in what was undoubtedly a fraudulent start-up, involving water purifiers in Thalassa, when the idea struck him.
“Would you be interested in holding a lesson for my students?”
Aventurine nearly let his spoon fall into his soup. “Huh?”
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or, Aventurine holds a special lesson for Ratio's students.
Speak Up, Scream it to the World by entowento
Ratio tapped the pick-up option on the screen and put Aventurine on speaker.
“Aventurine, you’re on-”
“Hey, babe,” Aventurine’s voice echoed around the board room, bouncing off every surface possible, resounding much too loudly in everyone’s ears, “Just checking, you’re still coming over tonight, right?”
Everyone went dead silent.
◇─◇──◇─◇
Ratio puts Aventurine on speaker during a meeting with the IPC. In hindsight, he should have warned him first.
onto the nsfw ones whose summaries had me laughing (not out of embarrassment but bc i thought they were funny as hell)
Underneath our Alibi by OmniaImmortalis
“Just be glad it's now and not our honeymoon,” Ratio murmured.
Aventurine grimaced and knocked their foreheads together. “Don't even say that, you'll jinx us.”
Aventurine and Dr. Ratio, two weathered agents, finally get two weeks of vacation approved. At last, they can lay back and enjoy their stay at this fancy island resort — well, until an important target shows up a few days in, seemingly hell-bent on becoming the most infuriating cockblock there ever was.
Sicula by Orasmyn
Ratio
I’m sorry for not telling you earlier but I’m sure you can understand this is a very sensitive subject.
My phallus is of an inadequate and unsatisfying size.
Aventurine stares at his phone.
Okay, what?
Ratio's and Aventurine's ideas of what size a dick should be differ, as they find out the hard way.
and this one i consistently return to bc 🥴🥴
Thoughtless Pleasantries by FigurativelyDead
"Your mind is being too loud again, Ratio."
"Mm, well, I simply cannot turn it off, you know." [...]
"How about," Aventurine says slowly, his gaze turning languid as he shifts to hook a leg over Ratio's hip, settling in his lap with his knees at Ratio's sides, "We make a little bet?" [...]
“What,” Ratio gasps, and his mind delves into all the times they've fooled around as he asks, a bit breathless, "What are the conditions of this bet?"[...]
“It's simple, ” Aventurine purrs as he kisses up Ratio's jaw, murmuring softly, “I bet that I can distract you from those tedious thoughts of yours."
Do you think Veritas Ratio, at any point in his adult life, has felt loved? It's a silly question, at least it may seem - because logistically, he knows he is. He has living and breathing parents he calls on the phone, colleagues who would assuredly miss him and do when he's off on missions, and students who lament the absence of his classes when they graduate. Indeed, he knows for certain that he is loved. However, knowing and believing have been proven to not be mutually exclusive states.
It is one thing to be loved for your altruistic philanthropy, or your intelligence, wit, and brevity. It's one thing to be applauded and praised for your good works and good name, and make no mistake that recognition is still a little warming - Ratio is only human, thus capable of embodying pride - but it's not quite the same. Those people still bristle when Ratio, blunt as ever because that's just how he is, makes a scathing comment that they know is correct. They still give him a wide path in the halls of the space station whenever he visits because, despite making every effort to prove the opposite, they still view him as miles above them (like a cold and logistical god amongst men.) It's more akin to idolization and bordering on worship at times.
That is not the same as being known and beloved.
It's not the same as having a close someone who sees the human in you. It's not the same as having someone who plays into the facade you put up in public because they understand what that mask means to you, and maybe they are the same. It's nowhere close to not having to spell out everything you say because someone else has taken the time to learn your language, and has plenty of honeyed words for the both of you. It's not warm hands in yours or even a gentle pat on the shoulder (It's not cotton candy eyes that have a stupid lovestruck stare to them that you can't shake off)
When you're standing on a pedestal built by those around you, it's hard to feel loved when everyone below worships you instead. Worship you never asked for. And maybe the only true way for someone like that to feel loved is by someone who understands the nature of assumptions and publicity.