Lurker

Sewing commission for private client.

Size: Volks Dollfie Dream Sister (SS-Bust)

Contents: Shirt, trousers, sweater, cape, socks, necktie, strap, book.

The cape connects to the collar of the sweater with metal hooks and hidden thread loops, to keep it in place.

your dress and makeup is now a DISGUISE

your ‘birth name’ is now an ALIAS

getting told by your parents to be nice and not yell at anyone being racist is MISSION BRIEFING

your entire extended family are now FOREIGN DIGNITARIES and you gotta make it thru the evening without being discovered as a RADICAL SPY

carrying a small water pistol and one of those fake-lipstick pens in your purse helps to get in the zone. the best part of being a spy is the nifty gadgets everyone knows that.

it’s the kind of addictive behaviour we engage in that doesn’t actually benefit us in any way, such as:

- Reading The Comments

- ruthless discourse that won’t accomplish anything

- checking up on people and topics you shouldn’t

- 90% of body image stuff

- constant stream of devastating news

and so on, and so on!!

there are suddenly far less barriers and boundaries between our hearts and the entire rest of the constant, churning world, and sometimes the only thing holding us back from pointless hurt is our own willpower. that’s not always gonna be enough.

we feel shame for turning off anon, for blocking those who hurt us without giving them a “fair chance” first, for leaving a discussion, for leaving a space, for going offline, for missing out. we keep martyring ourselves, and for what? our hearts are not made for this.

- take stock of just how much time, energy and emotion you pour into something that doesn’t give back, and find out what’s Gotta Go

- “i’m only going to check this thing ONCE a day”, then week, then month, but at that point you probably no longer have a strong compulsion to Check

- “i’m not going to check this upsetting thing right before bed, because it will just make it hard to sleep”

- “i’m not going to check this upsetting thing first thing in the morning, because it’ll ruin my whole day”

“I am not a dork.”

“Hey maaaaan”

Or

“Hey stoop-stoops”

“Hey dickface”

“what”