tobin

I may be unsure

And then unsure of it;

I wish to breathe

But my lungs chain me-

My heart leaps at will

Smiles at danger

And fears love -

I want to hate it but

What if im the monster?

What if

Everything they say is

Actually true...

But i think it is.

I may take it

Or maybe i won't,

My shiny dessert, smiling at me

And no one else knows.

Like a can in a heap of bottles

I am alone but surrounded by them

And I think to myself,

Why cant I just leave?

Out of reach yet in my grasp

Is today the day or not?

Ten more minutes till time

But I'm scared.

The sea of red around my skin

drips down my sunken eyelids

As I think-

And wait-

But it feels too late.

Softer than snow and warming my heart,

Ten minutes is all it takes.

It called me, it told me, it wants me

and no one else does.

But what could or should or will be?

I will never know.

Ten seconds is all thats left.

The brush of my wrist

Call of my fam

And tears down their cheeks -

Their stained, rosy cheeks -