To kill these tears

Been so long since I last posted something here and it was a throwback pa! Hahaha what a lame life I have.

So lately, I have been patiently waiting for some people to come home namely my girl Annie and of course, my father. Okay, so because my thesis professor told me that you cannot have a one sentence paragraph, here is another one.

Ever since my father arrived, we have been malling and eating and malling and eating.. *repeat til it fades* Yes! That's all. But my sister got her foot injured and doctor said she should rest for like one month so... I guess that's rest for the both of us because I have to take care of her (and do the dish washing ugh). I guess I just have to deal with it.

What I am looking forward now is Annie's arrival! Yehey! This calls for a mini reunion with my high school classmates. I am really excited because it's been ten years since I last saw Annie and two years since I last saw the rest of them. Yes, busy schedule... Or not.

I really do hope that I could post a lot more since it's I still have one month left for my vacation. And, I have a lot of things to share (for those interested hehe).

We arrived at Zambles at around 4 in the morning and waited for the boat to pick us. Unfortunately, we waited two hours for the boat. It's too dark, they say, so they cant pick us up because it will not be safe for us.

My relative took the chance to take a nap while waiting for the boat. As for me, I didn't. Im really not used to sleeping in a uncomfortable place so I just roamed around the place with my favorite tito. I saw a lot of boats and the sound of sea waves is just lovable. It's been two years since I last went to the beach.

At last, the boat arrived. I was too excited! I was the first one to jump in though Im really afraid of the sea because I dont know how to swim. Hahaha. So there's a photo of me with my favorite tito/sistuh :)

The view during the whole ride was truly breathtaking! I never knew something existed like those places until that day.

Upon arriving, the place is just AHHHH!! It's my first time to see such beautiful place!! I really cant manage to describe it in words but it's just really really beautiful!! Im sorry. Hehehe.

My cousins and sister dont wanna waste any time so we immediately went to the river and go check it out. The sea was amazing but seeing the river too.. and the estuary, IT WAS PERFECT!! It's just sad that it was low tide when we got there so we cant swim in the river but it's all right.

Yes, it is indeed a blue sky! Huhuhu it was really beautiful. Plus, a lot of pine trees and rock formations. Look at the photos na lang. I need not to say more, I guess.

After checking out the river, we started to swim!! Though Im not realling swimming. Hahaha. The sea was so clear and clean. We were the only people in the cove so we felt like it was a private resort for us. Lol.

After the swimming, we went mountain trekking! Hihihi. There's a trail so we did not have much struggle to get through. My tita and her husband are both mountaineer so we have a guide as well. We were not required to get up like a mountaineer so it was good! Say hello to the tres marias :)

They have a viewing deck in Talisayen where the view is really breathtaking! Omg again, I cannot describe it.

Meet the whole gang! My lovable cousins. Hihi. We're not complete but it's all right. The other two, we were really not that close. Peace!

So there you go, the view from the viewing deck!! You can see the whole island and the sea. Do I need to give you more adjectives? Hehe. And yes, the place really looks incredibly beautiful in the pictures but nothing beats seeing it in your own eyes. I swear.

We went further to the mountain and the view is getting and getting... AHHH!!! Go see it for yourself. Hahaha kidd'

CHRISTMAS VACATION 2013!!!

I really want to post about our family getaway last Christmas at Zambales but im too sleepy already so... maybe next year? Hahaha. You know me.

I've been badly wanting to post each and everything that happened to me last year but I just cant. Hahaha. It's too many and it will consume most of my time which I dont have right now because I've wasted for some not important things and person.

Talak at Mulat: Extemporaneous Speech Contest by Plebes. It's a first time for all of us to hold this kind of activity. It was tough, I must say but we pushed through. Gladly, I really do think that it was a success. A lot of students joined considering that it was our first time. And yeah, it was fun too. We are blessed!

Plebes Open Tambayan or popularly known as Bigayan at Bukasan and vice versa. Hahaha. Im doing the letters yet im not sure about it. A lot of people came and we received good feedbacks saying that we have a lot of servings in one plate unlike other organizations. Plus, it's delicious daw. Thanks to Mother Mary. :)

The One Million Kilometer Run Against Pork Barrel. This one's not Plebes related but im the one who actually pushed some of my sisses to attend because I am keen into running for the last few months. Moreover, it is for a cause. I pledged 50KM for this and finished it last December. Beat that!

Plebes CSC. It's my second time and im happy for this one because it is a lot happier than the first. Many participated and we all went home with renewed love in our hearts for one another. Hihi arti.

PLEBES CHRISTMAS PARTEEEHHH!!!

This was one of the best thing that ended my 2013. I guess this was also the time when I had that big problem but then these people are just too great to make me forget about it. It was really fun! No words can explain how happy I am during the party. Basta. IT WAS FUN!! Love love Plebes.

PS: Just when i thought nothing good happened to me last 2013, I realized otherwise upon writing this. It's just a bad day, not a bad life indeed :)

... I was back on blogging (oh, should I even call it one?) but then again I dont know what happened. I just started to be busy again. Oh come on, who am I kidding? All right then, I started being a lazy ass again. Again and again... and again :( This is really becoming a habit of mine. Im good at planning things and everything to be better but then all of a sudden I stop. So lame! Ugghh.

The reason why I blogged again is because... I have a problem! Hahaha. What's new? Problem regarding everything. I am starting to hate myself. I hate how I cant manage to fix my studies, my life, my attitude - my self. I hate that Im too insecure. I hate that I wish to be on someone else's foot when in fact, I should be contented because a lot more people out there are experiencing more problems. I hate myself! Really.

I guess this just started when I reported in one of my subject and my professor got really disappointed. After that, I felt like everyone's thinking that Im too weak. That Im such a lazy ass. That I am not good enough.

When in fact, I did everything in that report. It's just that I forgot something and everything else followed. And then there you go... :(

After nth days, we had the chance to go on a date. Hihi. We dont have any plan actually. My father wanted to go to the mall just because he misses his air-conditioned room (buhay mayaman ano po haha) so yeah, we decided to push this na. And yes, we dont have air-conditioned room.

We ate at Sky Garden's Ineng's Special BBQ where we ordered pancit, chopseuy, sisig and their special bbq!! The pancit was really delicious, same with the chopseuy. For the sisig, subukan niyong magprito ng baboy tapos lagyan niyo ng sibuyas and bell peppers then that's it. In short, it's not delicious at all!! Ugh it's really NOT DELICIOUS. Hahaha. Sorry but I love sisig so much and it was really disappointing.

If you happen to eat here, never ever forget to try their bbq or eat na lang somewhere else because it will all be wasted. Hahaha yes!! Super sarap ng bbq nila forever.

After eating, we went somewhere to buy stuff for our house. I also bought casing for my bulok mobile. Hahaha. I guess I need a new one na hmmm... *ehem ehem* HEHEHE ☺

Of course this day would never end without a DQ!! Hihihi. Tres marias' forever favorite. Dad's first time I guess. He's not really an ice cream person. Hahaha. After this we went to the supermarket and I happen to saw someone!! Never expected you to see there. Huhuhu you, I miss you so much!!

To my mom na super duper sexy, bait at sarap kausap.. HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! You are one blessed lady. I wish you all the happiness and love in the world because you truly deserve it!!

Yes guys im moving on... to another dentist!! Hooray. My mom finally decided that we go get another dentist since Doc Bino is really far now from here. Plus, im done na with my braces so retaining, cleaning, pasta and check-ups na lang are what I needed.

My new dentist impresses me so much. She finished her BS degree in CEU where Dentistry is their forte and earned her MS degree in a university in California. Bongga! Hahaha. Feeling bigtime tuloy ako. The fees are a little higher than Doc Bino's but the transpo naman will be cheaper.

I was about to post that moment when I met Sponge Cola but then... I dont even know how to start! Huhuhu sounds OA but yes, it's really OA i know. But seriously, [1] I CANNOT start my post about them. It just overwhelms me so much. How do I start? I want that post to be something really special because that was really a magical moment. Hahaha is it obvious that I love them? ☺

Last independence day, I get to see Bamboo in person. We even have photo together! Hihi. Aren't I the luckiest? I just dont like to post it here because my face sucks. Hahaha.

Since my sister is an avid fan of Bamboo, we watched "By Request" by Bamboo and Yeng Constantino. My mom is a fan now, I guess.

The concert was pretty good. Not really that amusing or what. But it was good tho. All because of Bamboo. HAHAHA am I being bias? Yes lol. He was superb! Ugghh

This is the only photo I can show you guys since I am really not that type of person who minds taking picture of everything. If you know what I mean. Sayang naman yung binayad namin kung magvivideo lang ako. Haha. So yeah, go search for other pics online. I guess this will be shown on TV sooner or later.

HELLO GUYS! I am here, I just don't know if I'm back. Hahaha. Well, I guess yes. It's sembreak and I have nothing to do anyway but to blog.. Should I call this blogging? Oh well.

A lot has happened to me for the past few months: Org events, Hazel's debut, had a new dentist, dorm matters, MET SPONGE COLA OH YES!! and papable Papa's finally home... for 40 days only tho. But that's okay. I guess I should start getting used to that.

However, I really feel that nothing good is happening. Though there's always something good in each day. It's just that... ugh nvrmind. Not the perks of missing someone. I just want all of you to know that I am planning to post something about all of those that happened to me. Throwback all the way!

I've been feeling stressful this past few weeks without any reason to feel stressful anyway. Seriously. Could that even happen? Well, I guess so. I just dont know why. I want this to stop, badly.

1. Ningas kugon ako.

Sad but true. Earlier this semester, sobrang sikhay ko lang sa lahat ng mga ginagawa ko. As in. Im very focused on my feasibility study, I can provide letters for Plebes right away, I topnotched some of my exams in my major subjects (Share lang, HEHE) and a lot more.

But after, midterms.. I really dont know what happened. I cant even read my handouts, I cant finish the latter part of my feasibility study, I always seek help re sec matters of Plebes and a lot of otherwise. Hay. I dont want this attitude.

2. Clingy ako.

Well, this is something everybody would probably agree about me. Yes sobrang clingy ko okay. I didnt realize that until now. Clingy sa family, relatives, roommies, friends, special friend (Hihi) and a lot more.

Something I dont know if good or not. For me, it's all right as long as I know Im not hurting anyone else. I just hate it when that someone misinterprets it. Damn, I hate you.

3. Di ako mahilig mag-share ng masyadong personal.

I guess maraming magdidisagree dito. Hahaha! But seriously, di talaga ako mahilig magshare ng masyadong personal. Mahilig ako magshare ng stories about my life, yes. But those that does not matter to me the most lang.

4. Favoritism.

I have this habit of having favorites which I guess is not bad at all. Maarte lang but I dont think a bad habit. Hehe.

When someone's my favorite I..

can text all day. Well, I hate texting so much FYI.

can share very personal stuff.

love having breakfast, lunch and dinner with that someone.

am never nagsasawa. As in.

Tama na ba spell ko sa name mo, batching? Hahaha! Hmm.. dapat talaga pauwi na ko sa Elbi but then wala pala akong post so magpopost ako about sayo. Lol jk! I'll post because it's your birthday and I love you so much. (OMG ANG CHEESY)

Ayun batching, HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! <3

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Lol! Posting this photo cause we're so clingy like that :-) Remember nung aplikante pa lang tayo? Ako kasi di ko narerember eh.. Hahaha! Grabe ang nonsense ng mga sinasabi koooo.

Thank you for being the best batchmate ever! (birthday mo eh) Hahaha! De seryoso, sobrang professional mo lang nung process. Di tayo masyadong nagbabonding non pero ramdam ko naman na love mo ko. Tapos nung member na tayo, wala pa din masyadong bonding :-( Tapos umalis ka pa, di ka na sa elbi umuwi. Grabe ka lang!! Ay teka, bday mo pala. Hahaha love you so much batching!!

Ayan balloons! Hihihi first official photo natin yan. Naks may ganun pa. Tapos yung isa nung exchange gift giving nung xmas party sa tambayan. Akalain mo yun, ikaw pa nakuha ko. Sobrang meant to be lang.. Sana lang di mo sinasabi in advance para nasusurprise naman ako diba. Haha pero i love you padin to the moon and back!!

Last week I’ve decided to fix my stuff at my dorm. Too many hand-outs and basura!! Glad that professors in CEM are too lazy to have classes (No, they’re just busy HEHE) so I had the time to fix my things. Grabe kadiri to pero sasabihin ko padin!! Sa sobrang dumi ng mga gamit ko, inipis na!! Huhu forgive mo for telling that. Haha. Yung mga hand-outs and old school stuff lang naman. Not my clothes and other things.

And yeah, found this book of Bob Ong on my things. Im not sure though who owns this one. I planned to give it to PJ so he can read something. We met yesterday but yeah, I was not able to give it to him. HE CAN READ NOW OMG!! Hahaha sobrang hina niya sa reading. Pero magaling siya sa Math dont judge okay!! <3