Skinny/underweight things you didnât think about
is your restrictive eating disorder telling you itâs gorgeous, amazing and the ultimate goal to be as skinny and light as possible, underweight? it isnât. hereâs some things you might not realise:Â
youâll have difficulties with pooping! your digestive system is gonna get fucked upppp
think youâll finally fly up the stairs without being out of breath? well your body is gonna feel like itâs gonna shut down when you reach the top, thereâs no energy left to walk up the stairs
youâll feel your heart in your chest which makes you anxious to go to sleep every night, thinking it will shut downÂ
you wonât be able to hold a normal conversation, your brain doesnât have the capacity to deal with all that. youâll be zoning out all the time (and honestly the only thing on your mind is food anyway)
you wonât be living anymore, every moment is just waiting for the next meal. every day will be filled with the same repetitious stuff: waiting for the food you allow yourself, work-outs (if thatâs your thing), thinking about food, looking at food (maybe on insta or in youtube videos), shivering and sleeping and then it starts again
youâll still be wanting to loose more weight! forever being dissatisfied with the way you look! it will never be enough!Â
your body wonât necessarily look like an insta model or âthinspoâ. my ass was completely GONE and my stomach always was a lil soft, no matter how underweight i was and how much i trained
you will always notice that other people are noticing somethingâs wrong. You will notice them staring (not the jealous or appreciative kind), you will feel their worry or sadness, you will feel the awkwardness around you alllllll the time
youâll be sore or in pain most of the day: sitting hurts, lying down hurts, all your bones are sore
think youâll be the prettiest and thinnest in school/uni/work? what school/uni/work? you think you can be in school/uni/work? no! you wonât have the concentration to pass your classes, youâre too preoccupied with food & your body, you have no energy to get through a working week, and if you suffer from anxiety and/or depression, those might get worse too! sooner or later youâll have to take a break from whatever occupation, isolating you furtherÂ
anything you think youâll do better or more confident when youâre thin is a lie: youâll loose your passion or interest in your hobbies, youâll loose your energy, and confidence isnât built by the way you look (especially when youâll still feel bad about yourself anyway, thatâs why eating disorders are DISORDERS).Â
thin and brittle hair & nails, blue toes & lips, eyebags for days
emotions flatten, so youâll be enjoying things lessÂ
your personality changes: you become secretive, impatient with others when it doesnât go your way, and even real mean when it comes to food: angry and defensive when food isnât there on time, or when people try to make you eat
Moral of the story: restricting yourself isnât the answer to what youâre experiencing and feeling. Consider reaching out to whatever help you can find, and be honest to yourself. It is Never too early to recover; you donât have to be skinnier or âsickerâ to seek out help, banish that thought!! your ED will steal YEARS of your life if you let it. Donât fall for its tricks, and donât romanticize the consequences.Â
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