why? So many times we compare ourselves with social media people or just see someone with a brand new something and say “fuck, I wish blah blah blah”. All of us are guilty of it from time to time. Every time we do this it eats us, its not good, not healthy, not empowering nor motivating. It just sucks your soul out and eventually it will fuck you up. It may make you ask yourself about were you are in life, what you want to do and be and through this process you start asking yourself: “how?”. There my friends is when things start boiling in your mind,when you compare yourself to whatever. Thats were depression happens and sadness comes and bite our asses just because we forget about the freaking process. How can we have or do, if we don't know were to start?. Look for information, do research, talk, reach out some how. You'll know how eventually, you'll get so desperate that you will find a way. It will suck at times (many times) but thats life my friends. Keep pushing and forget about the success bullshit and all that stuff. Just try as hard as you can to define happiness for yourself (not easy but like every complex thing, once accomplish = completely worth it) then go look for the stuff that makes you happy. Were gonna die anyways so try that new thing or whatever it is you found because we don't know were it might lead. Maybe it can be that our path as being already laid in front of us all this fucking time and because it “doesn't pay” or “its to something” or whatever we don't do anything about it. We just cant or don't want to see it. Were blinded by concepts, dogmas, philosophies or even people. Sometimes theres nothing holding us up but ourselves. Just the same old fucking you. Lets just grow through the process.