Things i think about a lot

I know its very late to bring this up.. but hear me out.

When she released Midnights initially, tbh i couldn't process it very well. Like yeah, i liked the songs (i always do) but what was the significance of the album? It just felt complex..

But overtime, its definition has changed for me. I feel Midnights or Midnights(3am edition), both express how extremely self-aware taylor is... She knows her pattern, she knows exactly what she will do next and this makes her hate herself?? Like maybe.. its not about her entire life but just the dating aspects. i know it feels like a very shallow analysis but then again, Midnights became a full-blown heartbreak album in Till the dawn attention.

If she and joe broke up (Yes, i made a choice to stay delusional!), it happened a while ago. She has recovered for the most part. But we can experience it through her albums. I feel that the shift from 'Midnights' to 'Midnights (till the dawn edition)' is drastic.. because the message changes from 'I am depressed and I know exactly why but i still cannot undo it' to 'We are broken up.. i did not see it coming but i am still dealing with it'