Wounded Mind

Nizzra, the Doomguide

Commission sketch.

Living as a Gen Z nowadays is... pretty hard. It's depressing and really depends on luck: or you had a chance to blow up, or you gonna kick a wall until you give up. In most cases. Or at least its feels like it for me. For me, as Gen Z person, who can't get education (wait for it), has an unstable mental state (you'll see!), AND who living for decade now in the war zone, it's kinda difficult find a job, that not going to abuse me with frustrating amount of hours, a lot of work, and underpayment. The last one at least didn't had a lot of work, but they changed my working hours to 24 hours, so my body began to sleep LESS even in my day offs. So, the only choice now for me it's to do what I can do for a living, before I find a job again, and, you know, to find a normal work fo me it's a difficult quest. Not unbearable, but difficult.

So yeah, emergency commissions, once again. Repost is needed and very appreciated.

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Also, you can check my partner, they are even cooler then me (and they definitely need repost too!) ----->

I know, there maybe after few years or decades the war will be ended. But it will never stops for me - cause I lost so many years, that I can't get back and I'll need to cope with that. I will never get home, actual home that will be my property, cause, well, you know what life is exactly we living now.

I couldn't get a degree - there was depression in my head and even if I did everything to get it, back there, at home, there, in free lands in Ukraine it'll be not legitimate.

I was in a cell of some idea. "Russian world" huh. True picture of their world indeed.

War will never end. I know a woman, who's cannot move on, cannot start a new life here without thinking that someday it all stops and she will need money for reconstruction of her apartments or else. She cannot believe that It'll continue any longer. She believes, there is an end.

I can understand her - I heard in 2016 that war will end in a couple months, maybe bit later, in 2017… There was then… 2018… 2019…

You know, I'll stopped believe in any end. I just hoped that I can run away, somewhere where is no fucking war, no fucking slavic people, somewhere where I'll be free and happy. Without war.

Sometimes I believe, World is teaching me a lessons. I hated cooking - so he throw me into a Shelter's Kitchen and I understood cooking. I believed, I'm a weak person, than I stuck on a hardworking, traumatizing my hands and still proceed to work. I was thinking I'm actually not a queer person but a person just confused, than World introduced me to local LGBTQIA+ community, that accepted me as a person who I am and I felt… So much happy. Loved. World teaches me a lesson everytime when I thinking I can't do something.

The World never let me go in Russia, and when I choose to escape in Ukraine, It let that happen immediately. Without troubles. No one cared. But It doesn't let me go forward, from Ukraine - I stuck here, and this taught me a lesson - to understand the truth, to learn a history, to fell in love with something, that my parents taught me to hate. I fell in love with my culture, with my land, with Ukraine.

But what it tries to teach me, when I can't find anything, to live a normal life? Can't find a job, can't stop getting myself in a heavier depts? What it tries to teach me, getting myself sick and preventing me to get a job or continue working.

And what World is trying to teach us all, letting this war continue for more years?