The Stars

I guess this is luckily being talked about more, but if you have symptoms of a complex dissociative disorder (DID, OSDD-1, P-DID), but you don't remember any "super horrific trauma" that doesn't mean that 1) you don't have a CDD because the trauma "wasn't bad enough" or 2) that there's secret, repressed memories of extreme trauma in your subconscious. Maybe you do remember most of what happened to you, but you've normalised it to yourself as "not that bad". Us trauma survivors tend to minimise our own trauma. One time, a friend of mine had gone to group therapy and everyone was telling bits of their pasts. He was sitting back thinking "wow, they all went through some really terrible stuff. I got lucky that my trauma isn't that bad", but then one of the others came up to him later and told him she was really horrified by his story and how she couldn't imagine having to survive that. And then he realised that even though he knew his childhood had been fucked up, he was still undermining just how bad it was. And honestly, that person who came up to him was doing the same

system culture is why does being lgbtq get 10 times more complicated as a system. cant we all just be bisexual and be done with it (half joke)

Fronting for the first time in a while...OUR HAIR IS RED

Heavily fragmented system culture is oh God, what even caused you? I can't tell anyone I split more people when I swear nothing happened! Sure our brother yelled more this week, but come on! Nothing seriously bad happened! Right?

questioning sys culture is trying to figure ts out. who is Me and who are You. what makes us different. you are me and i am you but we are not each other. we could've been. you remember more than i do. sometimes we are One and it feels so scary. i blink and time slips through my fingers, even though i swear i was just here for all of it. when i was a kid, you were the only one who helped me. when you were a kid, you were stronger than i ever was. when we were a kid, you were my knight in shining armor. you are kinder than any mouth and any hand. you are me and i am you. but we are not each other. how confusing.

sys culture is one alter liking a food everyone else dislikes and eating it around people who don’t know we’re a system, and now everyone thinks we like that food now.

You are enough. If you’re trying the hardest you can without risking your health then that’s all that you need to do. Even if that means you’re unable to do more than a little bit, that is still enough.

i love addict systems 💜 i love self harming systems 💜 i love drug abuser systems 💜 i love porn addict systems 💜 i love masturbation addict systems 💜 i love systems who are still going through their trauma 💜 i love systems who are still going through their abuse 💜 i love systems who relive their trauma everyday 💜 i love systems who are still splitting 💜 i love systems who are still traumatized 💜 i love systems who are still ill 💜 i love systems 💜