《 𝕋𝕙𝕖𝕊𝕞𝕦𝕟𝕔𝕙 :𝔻 》

It feels like yesterday I was watching the great potato war. But I guess I'm not 11 anymore. I miss him so badly, I wish he could see how much everyone still cares about him.

Dazai’s first suicide attempt was in his “hometown.” Before he committed suicide in BEAST, Dazai mentioned he felt like he was in his hometown. And we’re visually shown the same “hometown” in Fifteen manga.

In the Fifteen manga,Dazai says he joined wants to find a reason to live by approaching death. He joins the Mafia believing that by surrounding himself with death and humanity’s true nature, he will eventually discover it.

While he says this, the manga shows what appears to be a young Dazai collapsed on train tracks after a suicide attempt in what resembles the “hometown” seen in BEAST.

Before his suicide in BEAST, Dazai says “It’s quite a strange feeling, like the feeling you get the day before you return to your hometown.”and this connects to his earlier reflection in Fifteen, where he said in that exact train tracks panel : “It’s impossible to grasp the full picture of life... if one does not observe death first-hand.”

BEAST Dazai feels like he’s returning to the question about the meaning of life that has haunted him ever since. It’s as if he’s thinking about his hometown, where all this all started.

previously @/red-snow-phantom and @/phantom-wanders

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Second day 2 fic yay. T4T