Nyanyanyanyanya

All fandoms kinda: Black Butler, Dark Rise, Captive Prince, Fence, ROTTMNT, Jjba/JoJo, Hunter X Hunter, Chainsaw Man , TSHD, BL manga/anime in general (Therapy Game, Sasamiya, Given, Go for it Nakamura, etc), House MD, Ranma 1/2 (older and newer one), Shera (newer one), Mob Psycho 100, Dr Stone, Bungo Stray Dogs, Gachiakuta

I write/have written for a lot of these as well as some other fandoms, everything is on AO3 :3

I will be posting fanfiction links, my sketches maybe, whatever I want...

You can talk to me I'm friendly!! Just awkward and anxious!! Raaaaaaaa

Come yap at me! Yay!

My AO3:

https://archiveofourown.org/users/cas_bwahahaha

Strawpage:

Blog for my collections (anime, manga, mlp, etc) (a little neglected):

Alois rp blog:

P4 keychain, 1st art book (yay!! I have 1+3 now so I need the other two ig), and a little guidebook from like season 1 of the anime (it has non-canon characters but no Alois 😔) it smells old I love it so cute (pretend I can totally read Japanese) IT'S CUTE

Couple posters ... They're just printouts (not the actual magazine covers) so I probably overpaid but they're cute and I want posters yay I'm hopefully gonna get a big official decent poster later in the week :333 actually I have no idea how to get them back to my house bc I am currently 2 states from home... Hm... They're like A3 btw

Sebastian figure (they didn't have Ciel anywhere 💔) he's cuteeeee. And he's pretty tall + good quality in my opinion (he'd wanna be for $100 >:/ )

Oki oki this was just the like not art stuff bc I feel bad posting other people's art idk 😭 but I did get art stuff too yay (not a lot bc Black Butler is like. Dead. But it's okay I'm happy with this and I did get a couple artist things)

Ermmmm and I cosplayed Ciel (the wig is awful I'm trying to buy another one hopefully it's a bit longer) and people recognised me yay and a Sebastian cosplayer came up + talked with me a bit so that's cooooool :333

So yeah back tomorrow!! Plan is to buy more artist stuff bc I only went through the stalls once... They had BL keychains n stuff so that's cool :3 no more Black Butler but maybe I'll find smth idk... N BSD as well I should get some BSD

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"Young master. It is time for you to wake. Lord Trancy is coming over for morning tea."

Ciel groaned. Sebastian did find mornings amusing. Ciel was starting to grow into a teenager, which held all sorts of new quirks from the boy - including more complaints, even snarkier comments than usual, and many of these unimpressed noises. Maybe 'amusing' was the wrong word, Sebastian thought.

"He called last night. He wasn't happy to find myself answering. It seems he is quite excited to see you, though."

Ciel growled. "I'm getting up…"

Sebastian set the outfit he'd picked on the bed. More green than blue, today, to pair with Alois' usual colour scheme. He wouldn't go as far as to arrange with Claude to co-ordinate the boys' outfits, but he did like making an effort to make them pleasing to look at together.

Ciel managed to drag himself upright, eyes dark, hair a right mess. Sebastian tutted and patted it down a bit.

"Goodness, look at you…" Last night had been quiet from Ciel, yet the boy looked like he hasn't slept at all. Sebastian furrowed his eyebrows.

Ciel barely looked awake, face set in a glare. He yawned. "Tea?"

"Of course." Sebastian poured the tea, regretting not picking something to wake Ciel up more. "Will you be okay to have morning tea with Lord Trancy?"

"Don't tell me you're concerned," Ciel said over his teacup, drawling the last word in that tone he had. So distrustful. With good reason, of course.

Sebastian sighed, smiling. "Shouldn't I be? You look like death itself. I've met demons who look jollier than you."

"I'm fine. You worry about the food. I want Alois to enjoy today…"

Sebastian's mouth quirked. "Oh? Shall I send an apology to Lady Elizabeth, then?"

Ciel scowled. "Shut up. Alois is simply an acquaintance." A friend, Sebastian thought. Ciel hadn't used that word genuinely in the three years since Sebastian had known him. He had friends, but refused to admit so, and would only claim friendship in an attempt to manipulate. A pitiful creature, indeed.

"I have sweets fixed already, and tea picked out. Finny has tidied the gardens, so you can eat outside, if you choose."

"Alright…" He finished the tea, and Sebastian took the cup. Ciel rubbed his face.

"…I'm sure he will not mind-"

"I said, I'm fine," Ciel said firmly, snappy. Hopefully his irritation wouldn't extend to Alois. Sebastian didn't care much, but he did enjoy seeing Ciel's clumsy attempts at human connection. He didn't want the show cut short so soon.

"Of course, my lord," Sebastian said, bowing his head. He waited as Ciel scooted to the edge of the bed, and helped him dress.

"How long until he gets here…?" Ciel asked, watching Sebastian with his buttons.

"An hour. But he is not one for arriving at the correct time… It would not surprise me if he's already waiting at the gate."

Ciel sighed. Sebastian paused, listening to him. He sounded so tired. So drained. Like even living was too much. A day off spent with a friend, bringing him no joy. Sebastian continued wordlessly, tying the bow around Ciel's neck. A pretty collar was still a collar.

Sebastian brushed Ciel's hair, and tied his shoelaces, and brought him his cane. It was mostly used for outings, but lately Ciel had been complaining of pain and a struggle to remain standing for too long. Baldroy claimed it was simply 'growing pains', saying it meant Ciel was getting taller. It didn't seem to bring Ciel any comfort. Sebastian didn't think growing should be painful, and Ciel had not grown a millimetre for a long time, but Ciel adamantly refused to see any doctors. More trouble coming from the death of Madam Red - he no longer had a doctor he could trust.

Ciel hopped off the bed, wincing for a moment. He stood still, and Sebastian felt the boy's heart rate increase.

"My lord?"

"Fine…" he said though gritted teeth, seeming to stare at nothing for a moment before his eyes cleared. He moved ahead like nothing had happened. Sebastian followed.

Alois was talking with Finny when they got to the entrance. He was early and hadn't waited for a proper greeting, taking to talking to a servant instead. Ciel didn't mind. He was tired, but he had been looking forward to their time together, as much as he would allow himself.

"Alois," he said, leaning on the railing rather than his cane as he made his way down the stairs.

Alois lit up, completely forgetting about Finny for the moment. He ran to meet Ciel at the base of the staircase, clearly ready to bowl Ciel over in a hug, but he waited. Ciel had yelled at him the last time he'd tried that. He hadn't meant to. He would've liked to explain it all much more gracefully, but he hadn't been having a good day, and Alois had simply pushed him over the edge. He was glad the older boy had listened, though. Worse than being touched without giving permission was being touched after he'd made it clear he didn't want to be.

He extended one arm, the other still holding his cane. Alois grinned and leapt forward to hug Ciel.

"I missed you!"

"You saw me just last week…" Ciel mumbled, patting Alois' back. He was getting better at being okay with touch. Soma, Lizzie, Finny, Alois. He was learning how to trust again. Slowly. He gently pushed Alois off.

"That was ages ago…" Alois backed off, reluctant but quick. He looked a little concerned.

Ciel patted his arm and looked back at the staircase he'd just come down… Perhaps they would sit in the garden first. He made his way to the door - more stairs. Ah. He huffed, offering his arm to Alois. Alois wouldn't turn down touch, and Ciel could use him to lean on.

Alois linked his arm in Ciel's, a smile spreading over his features again. He didn't look as awful as last time. Ciel still wanted to take him away from that place, from that demon, but Sebastian wasn't sure he could get rid of Claude. It wasn't as easy as disposing of a human butler.

They went to the gardens, and Ciel reveled in being able to sit. He set his cane against the table and leaned back in the chair, resisting the want to rest his eyes.

Alois sat opposite him, hair already mussed by the breeze. He looked around at the flowers. Looking for butterflies to chase, like a child. Ciel had been ditched multiple times mid-conversation in favour of the pretty insects. He cracked a smile.

"Have you been well…?"

"Mhm!" Alois hummed, still looking around. There was a bruise below his collar. Ciel shifted his gaze to his hands. He couldn't do anything yet. "Claude and I baked a cake, yesterday."

"Oh? That's nice," Ciel said. No point in upsetting what comfort Alois found in the demon.

"It tasted like shit, but it was fun," he recalls fondly, swinging his legs under the table. He was fidgeting with the bow around his neck.

Ciel nodded. "Are you hurt at all?"

"Why would I be hurt?" Alois' gaze was direct, daring Ciel to say something, challenging. Ciel could see what was underneath.

Ciel shrugged, looking away again. "Maybe you fell in your excitement to get here. You were early."

"Mm."

If Alois didn't want the last visit to be spoken about, Ciel would keep mum. He wouldn't forget, though. Couldn't. He sighed. "You're okay, then…?"

"I told you, I'm fine." There was the dry hint of annoyance. "I didn't come over to be interrogated."

"You're not being interrogated." I'm concerned for you.

Alois shrugged, arms crossed. He was happy a moment ago. Ciel sighed.

"Sebastian is bringing tea and sweets. You can stay as long as you like."

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I'm sleepy I should sleep or at least reply to stuff instead of wrestling another WIP (I will go back to Scars sometime too dw)

So like. Obviously they have tea but they need to do smth else yk? Maybe address Alois' current situation with Claude but also. Maybe not. Maybe address the POTS I gave to Ciel. Pffffft nah /silly it can run in families so boom he got it from me there you're welcome my son

But yeah any ideas welcome idk