i have not said anything on tumblr in years but idk where to put what i'm feeling. this feels like the platform with the best chance of people agreeing with me based on what i've seen.
i am so fucking pissed about this dropout copaganda collab. i've been feeling more and more uneasy watching their content lately. the new season felt really odd. cast members i admired seemed to be subtly embracing this "i was too chaotic but im well adjusted now" trend i see everywhere that is extra triggering because i've fallen into it. but i was hoping, like a clown, that maybe i was looking too much into it, being too paranoid and distrusting. nope. celebrities don't care about you. power reveals character. rob reich being on game changer was gross. slowly removing masks from set is gross. continuing to go about business as usual on your massive and supposedly very leftist platform is gross. and now FUCKING COPAGANDA?!?!?? and why am i surprised? i shouldn't be.
seeing the amount of fans who don't care and are abandoning any leftist principes as quickly as they can and throwing others under the bus is just proof that y'all are cowards. i don't understand how two people can hear "laws are threats" and one of them takes that in like a casual nonfiction read and they just go about their day and throw it around to feel cool with their edgy friends. i do not fucking understand that. i do not understand people, and honestly, i don't want to if this is what "most" or "normal" people do. get fucked. with your complete emotional detachment that you frame as being well-adjusted when actually it's me that's reacting appropriately. i'm so fucking mad, and i have every right to be because when you build an audience with leftist ideals and exploit those people for fucking money COLLABORATING WITH THE FUCKING COPS IS A BETRAYAL OF THAT TRUST. i swear to god the happiest i could be is somewhere where no humans will ever reach me. y'all think you're good people, and you say you're good people, but the average person is nothing more than a hypocritical two-faced coward who, at best, wants to both cosplay and demonize revolution depending on who's in power. you stand for nothing. i hate it here. i hate everyone. what a fucking clown i was for believing that maybe this one place that said it was safe would be safe.
dropout meant so much more to me than i can express, and the only course of action i can see is canceling my subscription. i physically can't engage with them in the same way unless they pull a massive and aggressive u-turn, which y'all clearly won't pressure them to do even though you could. fuck you. dropout wasn't perfect, but it was good. now it's becoming something much worse. it doesn't have to. you could change that. but y'all like it this way. and i can't even say enjoy watching the inevitable decline in quality because Y'ALL DON'T ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT OR FEEL ANYTHING
can someone who understands please like or comment and talk to me about this? i need to know i'm not alone. i'm so activated. if you comment anything minimizing what i'm saying, condescending to me to "talk me down," or justifying this choice, understand that you will be putting me in a very scary emotional place. keep that shit to your fucking self. i don't want your help. i don't want your advice. all i want is to know that i'm not alone in feeling deeply betrayed and to share that grief with the people who get it.
