The Pitt of Despair

holy shoot Batman

i know the show gives Collins her own reasons for moving away but i'm kind of obsessed with the notion that she was the first to fall under the weight of Robby's failing mental health. like when did you notice the room get colder Heather? did you find Robby's reaction on the phone when you turned it back on and saw all those missed calls strange at the time? how long did it take you to piece together what happened to Langdon because Robby wouldn't give you a straight answer? when did you notice he couldn't look you in the eye anymore? did you pick up on him listening to you less and less? at what point did that soft piece of himself he kept bare and open for you - always for you - get shut away for good? you knew your residency was coming to an end and you thought about leaving. but when you tried to understand and he snarled and snapped and asked how the fuck could you know what happened that day, you weren't there, was it the sign you were looking for or the straw that broke the camel's back?

If Robby would just go to therapy and bury his face in Abbot's tits with some regularity I think he'd be substantially less fucked up all the time.

Holding a human heart in your hands while looking your mom dead in the eye. Filming ICE & running off to post on your tiktok with thousands of followers so people see them arresting a fucking ER nurse. Comforting a family through the death of a loved one. fuck yeah javadi belongs in the ER

Also can we talk about THE Dr. Baran Al-Hashimi in this episode???? Saved a kid’s life doing a procedure she had never done in person (perfectly executed while also teaching it when even Robby was obviously too intimidated to try it) and refusing to take Garcia’s shit about “butchering” the cut because she knows she did that!!! And then also not scared to professionally, privately, and firmly call Robby out about his behavior with Samira??? Even while he was acting like a bit of a child about it?? Oh I love her BAD