petal dragon

I was just reading through my old journal posts here. In the two years since I last posted, I've become someone I am really starting to like. My life feels amazing. I have two cats and a partner who loves me and helps me feel safe. My depression is pretty manageable. My Spanish is pretty fucking good. I guess I didn't write at all on Tumblr when I was in school in Mexico in late 2022. My only goal for 2024 was to do less. X asked me what I've been up to lately and I was like... damn... I couldn't even tell you. Watching TV? So I think I'm doing well on that front. My girlfriend and I are moving across the state and I'm excited to live closer to the Bay Area (which I love) and closer to some cool nature spots. If we don't like it, we can always move. I've also decided to go to a massage therapy program. My back went out earlier this year and I have never experienced something so physically debilitating. Chronic pain is no joke and it floors me that people live with it every day. It was scary and I decided it was the sign I needed to stop working sedentary office jobs that I don't even like. Charity was also a huge inspiration for the change; she has always been someone who follows her intuition and takes risks. She mentioned having complete control of her schedule as an MT and that sounded so appealing to me. I had been in pain for weeks when I got my first massage. Afterward, just briefly, I got some relief from the pain in my back. I couldn't believe I ever took that feeling for granted. I think pain really changes people. If I can help people manage their pain... well... I think that'd be pretty damn fulfilling. We'll see how it goes.

So sad that this site is all ads now :c

I was thinking to myself “am I loser?” Because it’s 3 a.m. and that’s what happens at 3 a.m. and then I thought……..my gf wouldn’t date a loser..,,….