for better and for worse, the people I work closest with at work both would describe themselves as “aging punks”

grocery shopping just took on an insane desperate race vibe because wouldn’t it be nice came on and I haven’t listened to it well. in a long time.

so I did just spend $60 on Depop without meaning to but it was a clothing item from a brand I have been wanting something from for ages AND it was in my size in the color I want AAND it would be $180 new. So it’s not my fault

told my therapist that in an effort to make gay female friends I am thinking of going to a b/f billiards night and almost turned myself inside out with the embarrassment of it all

I’m also going camping sometime this week with the most type B friends that I have and when it comes to outdoor activity I am extremely type A and have only been camping once before but realllyyyy want to enjoy it. but I asked my friends for details and what I should bring they said “don’t worry about it” which is actually causing me to worry greatly. the last time this group invited me on a nature activity it was the dreaded seven hour float trip where everything that could go wrong did go wrong and I got chalked up to being an uptight crazy person. I really want to enjoy camping so I think I have to go completely alone just me and puppy? Which might seem counterintuitive but I need to do it for myself first to be actually comfortable

realized that every single one of my friends are basically married (except for two) and it sending me into a major spiral right now

posted on BOTH my ig accounts today heart pounding like I ran up eight flights of stairs……switching from latte to 50mg cbd lemon seltzer stat . I am a modern woman .

if there is one thing I am going to talk about openly at work it is my women’s health related tribulations so I can access the hive mind of 6 women one man office