synapse: itās the first ādateāāy/n realizes how deep she is in with henry
pairing: professor!henry creel x female reader
contains: making out, suggestive, tension + tenderness
a/n: thank you guys for the love on this story. I appreciate the ideas and thank you for checking in on me, im hearing you on occasional smut, not every chapter but y/n is a horndog (like me low key š) and human professor henry, if he does have powers itāll be in its own separate imagine. I needed to post this before the tag list gets longer
The next day, Y/N showed up to Henry Creelās office early, early enough that the hallway outside was still half-asleep, the fluorescent lights buzzing softly over empty benches and bulletin boards layered with flyers.
She carried two things: her notebook and a cardboard coffee cup balanced carefully in one hand, the lid still warm. Coffee was currency on campus: proof youād gotten up, proof youād thought of someone, proof youād crossed the city with intention.
She paused outside his door long enough to smooth her hair and fix her face into something neutral.
Then she knocked once and stepped in when she heard his voice.
Henry was at his desk, sleeves rolled up, grading papers with the quiet focus of a man trying to be nothing but a professor. His glasses sat low on his nose. A pen moved steadily across the page. For a second he didnāt look up, until he registered who the footsteps belonged to.
And the shift in him was subtle, controlled, like a book closing gently over something private.
āYouāre early,ā he said.
Y/N held up the cup as if it explained everything. āPeace offering.ā
Henryās eyes flicked to the coffee and then back to her face, that brief softness crossing his expression before he smoothed it away. āFor what?ā
āFor existing,ā she said, and the corner of her mouth curved. āAnd for⦠last week.ā
Henry leaned back slightly in his chair, pen pausing. āLast week.ā
Y/N stepped closer and set the coffee on the edge of his desk. āI brought it the way you like it,ā she added, watching him closely. āBlack. No sugar. No excuses.ā
Henryās gaze stayed on the cup for a beat longer than it needed to, like he was absorbing the fact sheād remembered. Then he lifted it, took a sip, and gave the smallest nod.
Approval, the way he always gave it: quiet, restrained.
āThank you,ā he said.
Y/Nās chest warmed at the simple words, but she didnāt let it soften her too much. Not today. Today she wanted to poke at the edges.
She walked around the chair opposite his desk and perched there, leaning forward slightly, elbows on her knees. āSo,ā she said casually, āI obviously canceled on Daniel Taylor.ā
Henry didnāt react immediately. His face remained composed, the professor mask intact.
But his eyes, his eyes changed.
A slow, satisfied glint, pride dressed up as calm.
As if heād known she would.
As if heād been waiting.
Y/Nās smile widened when she caught it.
āDonāt act so smug, you knew I would,ā she accused.
Henry set the cup down with deliberate care. āI suspected.ā
āSuspected,ā Y/N echoed, unimpressed. āYouāre proud.ā
āIām relieved,ā Henry corrected, smoothly.
Y/N tilted her head. āSame thing.ā
Henryās jaw tightened, but the faintest hint of amusement flashed in his eyes. He flipped a page on the paper heād been grading like he was trying to return to normal.
After a beat, he asked, too controlled, too calm, āHow did he take it?ā
Y/N hummed, thinking. āConfused. Disappointed.ā Her mouth curved again, sharp this time. āHe tried to act like it was fine. It wasnāt.ā
Henryās gaze stayed on her. āGood.ā
Y/Nās pulse jumped at the single word. She pushed her chair back and stood, slow and deliberate, moving around his desk like she owned the space, and like she knew exactly how much it would ruin him that she moved like that in his office.
Henryās gaze followed her without pretending it didnāt.
Y/N stopped beside him, close enough that his knee nearly brushed her thigh.
āYou know,ā she murmured, voice sweet, āsince I canceledā¦ā
Henryās eyes lifted to hers, steady. āSince you canceled.ā
Y/N leaned down, close to his ear. āI think I should be rewarded.ā
Henryās breath changed, small, controlled, the tiniest betrayal.
āY/N,ā he warned softly.
It wasnāt a real warning.
Not with the way his hand tightened on the edge of the desk.
Y/N smiled, pleased, then did it anyway, sliding onto his lap with easy confidence, settling there like it was the most natural place in the world. She straddled him in the rolling chair, her knees bracketing his thighs, her hands resting lightly on his shoulders.
Henry went still for half a second.
Not because he didnāt want it, because he did.
Because he always wanted it, and that was the problem.
His hands hovered at her waist, not grabbing yet, as if he were forcing himself to remember rules even while she erased them.
āYouāre going to get us caught,ā he said quietly.
Y/Nās eyes glittered. āThen stop looking at me like that.ā
Henryās gaze dropped briefly to her mouth.
Then he stopped pretending.
His hands settled on her hips, firm and sure, pulling her a fraction closer. His voice lowered into something that didnāt belong in an office. āLike what?ā
āLike youāre still deciding whether youāre allowed,ā she whispered.
It wasnāt gentle. It wasnāt reckless. It was controlled intensity, like he was trying to pour everything he couldnāt say into one motion.Ā
Y/Nās fingers slid into his hair immediately, tugging just enough to make him exhale against her mouth like heād been starving.
She kissed him back like sheād made the rules.
Her hands moved through his hair, messier now, pulling him closer, tilting her head as the kiss deepened.Ā
Henryās grip tightened at her waist before they started sliding down to grip her ass, pulling her harder against him.
Y/N broke the kiss only to drag her mouth down his jaw, to his throat, testing him with slow kisses that werenāt subtle and werenāt kind. Henryās head tipped back slightly, just enough to give her access, just enough to show he was letting her.
āReward,ā she murmured against his skin, smug.
Henryās voice came rough, barely controlled. āYouāre enjoying this.ā
Y/N smiled against his throat. āMm-hm.ā
She kissed him again, lower, slower, until his breathing changed, until his fingers flexed at her hips like he was fighting the urge to leave marks of his own.
Y/N did not fight that urge in herself.
She sucked a little too long at one spot on his neck, then another, leaving proof in the only place his buttoned-up professor wardrobe didnāt fully protect.
Henryās hand slid up her back, firm, grounding. āCareful,ā he murmured, but there was no real protest in it.
Y/N leaned back just enough to meet his eyes, pleased with herself. āWhatās wrong,ā she whispered. āNot in a relationship, right?ā
He didnāt answer with words.
He pulled her into another kiss instead, short, punishing, hungry, like he was wiping the smirk off her mouth and putting it back on his own terms.
A bell rang somewhere down the hallway.
Loud. Metal. Unforgiving.
The sound snapped the world back into place.
Y/N froze, breath catching, and Henry went still beneath her, eyes closing for a brief second like he was counting to ten.
Another bell followed, students shifting in the hall, footsteps building, voices rising.
Y/N pulled back, hair messy, lips swollen, eyes bright with satisfaction. āShit.ā
Henryās hands stayed on her hips for a beat longer than necessary, as if he didnāt want to let go. āYou need to go.ā
āI know,ā Y/N whispered, but she didnāt move immediately. She looked at his neck, at what sheād left there, and her smile returned, slow and wicked.
Henry followed her gaze and exhaled sharply through his nose. āY/N.ā
She kissed him once more, quick, sweet, infuriatingly soft compared to what theyād just been doing, then slid off his lap.
She smoothed her skirt, fixed her hair with rushed hands, grabbed her notebook like sheād actually come for tutoring, and headed for the door with a grin she couldnāt hide.
Henry stood slowly, adjusting his shirt, trying to reassemble himself as footsteps passed outside.
āEnjoy explaining that,ā Y/N murmured, eyes flicking meaningfully to his throat.
Henryās gaze pinned her, jealous, possessive, and already planning how to cover it. āGo.ā
Y/N opened the door, slipped into the hallway like nothing had happened, and disappeared into the flow of students.
Henry remained in his office for a long moment after she left, staring at the closed door, coffee cooling on his desk, papers forgotten in his hand and the unmistakable marks on his neck pulsing beneath his collar like a secret he couldnāt grade his way out of.
Henry tried to cover it up like a man who still believed control was something you could button into place.
When Y/N walked into class, she clocked it immediately: the higher collar than usual, the way he adjusted it twice before he even picked up his chalk, the careful angle of his jaw whenever he turned toward the board. A turtleneck wouldāve been too obvious for him.Ā
Henry Creel didnāt ādoā obvious.Ā
Instead it was a collared shirt done all the way up, a sweater layered over it like armor, and the faintest shadow of irritation in his eyes every time he remembered what was underneath.
Y/Nās mouth curved into a smug little smile before she could stop herself.
She slid into her seat next to Nancy with a bounce in her step that did not match a Tuesday lecture. She set her notebook down with exaggerated care, like she had all the time in the world.
Nancy glanced at her, then at Henry, then back at her.
Nancyās journalist brain clicked into place with a sound Y/N could practically hear.
āYouāre in a good mood,ā Nancy murmured, suspicious.
Y/N didnāt look at her. She kept her eyes on the front of the room, on Henryās hands as he arranged his papers. āAm I?ā
Nancy leaned closer, voice low. āYouāre practically glowing.ā
Y/N finally turned her head just enough to meet Nancyās eyes. She smiled, sweet, innocent, completely unhelpful. āThank you.ā
Nancy narrowed her gaze. āWhy is he dressed like he got attacked by a vampire?ā
Y/Nās lips twitched, raising her eyebrows. āMaybe he didā¦ā
Nancyās eyes widened a fraction. āOh my God.ā
Y/N lifted her notebook and tapped it lightly as if she was just adjusting it, then whispered without moving her mouth much, āYou wanted a hobby.ā
Nancy stared at her, horrified and thrilled in equal measure. āYouāre disgusting.ā
Y/Nās smile stayed. āYouāre welcome.ā
At the front, Henry began lecture.
His voice was steady. His pace controlled. He spoke about symbolism and structure like his neck wasnāt carrying a private little scandal under knitwear. He walked the room once, then again, measured steps, calm presence, never quite letting himself drift too near Y/Nās desk the way he usually did when he wanted to press her for an opinion.
Every time he turned his head too sharply, the collar shifted.
Every time it shifted, Y/Nās grin got worse.
Nancy watched the whole thing with the focused intensity of someone taking mental notes for a future headline.
When Henry asked a question and Y/N answered with perfect confidence, Nancy leaned in again and murmured, āYouāre going to hell.ā
Y/N didnāt even blink. āIām already enrolled, Wheeler.ā
The hour ended. Students filed out. Chairs scraped, pages flipped, laughter returned.
She watched Henry stack his papers with meticulous care, watched him wait until the last student was gone, watched him close the door with a soft click that made the classroom feel suddenly smaller.
Henry didnāt turn right away. His back was still to her as he erased a line on the board that didnāt need erasing, like he was giving himself a second to put the professor mask back on.
When he finally faced her, his expression was calm.
āWhat are you doing?ā he asked quietly.
Y/N tilted her head, smug. āStaying after like you always want.ā
Henryās gaze flicked to the door, then back. āSpeak.ā
Y/N stepped closer, stopping a few feet from his desk. āYou donāt have to cover them up.ā
Henryās jaw tightened. āYes, I do.ā
She smiled wider. āNo one knows who left them.ā
His eyes narrowed. āThatās not the point.ā
Y/N let herself circle the desk slowly, like she was inspecting a museum exhibit. āI think it is the point.ā She stopped, leaned her hip lightly against the edge of his desk, and added in a tone that made it sound like a joke even though it wasnāt, āIām making a claim.ā
Henryās posture went still. āYou donāt get to do that.ā
Y/Nās eyes sparkled with defiance. āI just did.ā
Henryās voice sharpened slightly, controlled, but edged. āY/N.ā
She shrugged, as if the whole thing were obvious. āHalf the girls in this class stare at you. Some of them try too hard, and you know it. Youāre a good looking man, after all.ā
Henryās expression remained neutral, but his gaze hardened. āThat is not your concern.ā
Y/Nās smile turned sweet and poisonous. āIt is when they think they have a chance.ā
Then she added, casually, āEven women like Patty Newbieāā
Henryās eyes flashed. āPatty is a colleague.ā
āFriend,ā Y/N corrected, still smug.
Henry didnāt blink. āColleague.ā
The insistence in his tone shouldāve shut the conversation down.
Y/N leaned forward slightly, lowering her voice like she was sharing a secret. āYou can call her whatever you want. Itās still a fail-safe. You say it like itās supposed to calm me down.ā
Henryās jaw worked once. He exhaled through his nose, slow and irritated. āYouāre being unreasonable.ā
Y/Nās eyes flicked up and down his covered neck with a kind of satisfaction she didnāt bother hiding. āYou love it when Iām unreasonable.ā
Henryās gaze snapped to hers. āDonāt confuse what I tolerate with what I encourage.ā
She tilted her head. āThen stop tolerating it.ā
Henryās hands tightened around the stack of papers heād been holding, knuckles paling slightly. His voice stayed quiet, measured. āYou are not going to āclaimā me.ā
Y/Nās smile didnāt waver. āThatās exactly what Iām doing.ā
Henryās eyes sharpened. āWhy?ā
Y/Nās expression shifted, not softer, but more honest. She glanced down for half a second, then back up with that stubborn, fearless look that always made him look like he wanted to argue and kiss her at the same time.
āBecause a week ago,ā she said, voice low, āyou stood right there and told me my body was yours. All of me. No one else.ā
Not denying it. Not forgetting it. Just remembering exactly what heād said and exactly how it had sounded in the empty classroom.
His voice dropped. āI said that in the heat ofāā
āYou said it because you meant it,ā Y/N cut in, firm. āAnd now you want to pretend youāre untouched by what you do and say.ā
Henryās eyes flickered, something tight and conflicted behind them. He didnāt like being confronted with himself. Not like this. Not by her.
Y/N exhaled and shifted tactics, the way she always did when she wanted something. She softened her tone without softening her spine.
āAnd,ā she added, āsince I canceled my date with Daniel Taylorā¦ā Henryās expression tightened immediately at the mention of his name. Y/Nās smile sharpened at the reaction. āThat means you owe me one.ā
Henryās voice came cool. āI donāt owe you anything.ā
āMm,ā Y/N hummed, like she didnāt believe him. āYou invited me to your home. You cooked for me. You let me stay there night.ā She stepped closer, voice quieter now, less teasing. āI liked it. I did.ā
Henryās gaze stayed fixed, guarded.
Y/N swallowed, then said the real thing, the thing sheād been circling.
āSo I want a date,ā she said plainly.
Henryās brows lifted slightly. āA date?ā
āYes,ā Y/N insisted, eyes bright with stubborn want. āNot hiding in your office. Not sneaking around campus. An actual date.ā She tilted her chin. āI donāt care if itās public.ā
Henryās gaze sharpened immediately. āYou should.ā
She shook her head. āI care about being with you.ā
The room went quiet in a way that felt dangerous, because her honesty made it harder for him to keep pretending this was only physical, only convenient.
Y/N kept going, words tumbling out now that sheād started. āI donāt even know what to call you. Boyfriend, lover, whatever. I just know I want more thanĀ HamletĀ and closed doors.ā
Y/Nās voice softened, but her gaze stayed steady. āI want to know you. Like⦠actually know you. Where you grew up. What books you loved before you decided everyone had to suffer through tragedies with you.ā A faint smile returned. āWhat you read when youāre not trying to scare freshmen.ā
Henry stared at her for a long beat.
His professional persona held, barely. Like a wall with cracks running through it.
āYouāre asking for something you donāt understand,ā he said quietly.
Y/Nās eyes narrowed. āTry me.ā
Henryās gaze drifted, briefly, toward the window in the door, instinct, caution, then back to her face. He looked tired in that moment. Not exhausted, but worn down. Like sheād been pulling at the seams for weeks and he was realizing he couldnāt keep re-stitching them forever.
He set his papers down slowly.
Then he reached for his desk pad and uncapped his pen.
Y/N watched him, breath caught.
Henry wrote something down with careful precision, tore the slip cleanly along the edge, and held it out to her without standing.
A concession shaped like ink.
Y/N took it, eyes scanning quickly. Her smile bloomed, not smug this time. Something warmer, victorious in a way that felt almost tender.
Henry watched her reaction with a look that was half resignation, half something dangerously fond.
āIāll plan something,ā he said quietly. āAnd you will behave.ā
Y/N looked up, amused. āI always behave.ā
Henryās eyes narrowed. āNo, you donāt.ā
She grinned. āYou like that I donāt.ā
Henryās mouth twitched, almost a smile, almost a sigh. āThis is not a promise of⦠anything else.ā
Y/N folded the slip carefully and tucked it into her notebook like it was sacred. āItās a start.ā
Henry held her gaze for a moment longer than he should have.
Then he said, softly, like he hated himself for giving in, āGo.ā
Y/N backed away one step, still smiling. āYouāre getting worse at being professional, Mr. Creel.ā
He simply watched her walk to the door with that new piece of paper in her possession, watched her leave with the kind of confidence that told him she knew exactly what she was doing.
She was wearing him down.
And for reasons Henry would never admit out loud, he was letting her.
The dorm room felt too small for the amount of anticipation in Y/Nās chest.
Late afternoon light spilled through the blinds in thin, warm stripes, catching dust in the air and making the whole room look softer than it really was.
Y/N stood in front of the mirror. The white off-shoulder knit sat snug against her collarbones, exposing just enough skin to feel intentional without looking like she was trying too hard. The corduroy mini skirt hugged her waist and flared slightly at the hem, the texture catching light every time she moved. It was flirtier than sheād normally wear to class, short enough to make a point, neat enough to pass for ācute.ā
Behind her, Nancy sat cross-legged on her bed with a paperback open, highlighter tucked between pages. She tried to pretend she wasnāt watching, but every few seconds her eyes flicked up over the top of the book like a periscope.
āYouāre checking yourself like youāre going to a royal ballā¦again,ā Nancy said finally, dry.
Y/N didnāt turn. āIām checking myself because I refuse to leave this room looking like a crime.ā
Nancyās lips twitched. āWhere is this date, anyway?ā
Y/N paused, then admitted, āI donāt know.ā
Nancy lowered the book. āYou⦠donāt know where youāre going?ā
āItās a surprise,ā Y/N said, like that made it less suspicious.
Nancy stared at her. āThatās not romantic. Thatās how people end up on milk cartons.ā
Y/N rolled her eyes and reached for her lip gloss. āRelax. I told you Iād tell you where Iāll be.ā
āYouĀ donāt even know where youāll be,ā Nancy pointed out.
Y/N capped the gloss with a click and finally turned around, leaning her hip against the dresser. āOkay, fine. I donāt know the exact location, but Iām going with Henry.ā
Nancyās expression didnāt change, sheād already known, but the way she exhaled through her nose made it clear she still couldnāt believe the sentence existed in real life.
āAnd,ā Y/N added, more quietly, āIām going to call the dorm the second I know. Iāll use the payphone if I have to. Iām not disappearing.ā
Nancy watched her for a moment, then nodded once, reluctantly satisfied. āGood.ā
Y/N softened, stepping closer to Nancyās bed. āI donāt want you worried about me.ā
āIām always going to be worried,ā Nancy said, then immediately tried to cover it with irritation. āEspecially when youāre dressed like that and leaving with a man who assigns homework.ā
Y/N smiled despite herself. āItās not a crime to look cute.ā
āItās not,ā Nancy agreed. āBut it is a crime to act like youāre invincible.ā
Y/N opened her mouth to argue, then stopped, because she didnāt want to fight. Not tonight. Not when her nerves already felt like they were humming under her skin.
So instead she bent to pick up her small shoulder bag and started rummaging. āDo you have my earrings? The little hoops?ā
Nancy pointed without looking. āTop drawer.ā
Y/N found them, slipped them on, then returned to the mirror and checked the full picture again: sweater, skirt, legs, shoes. Sheād chosen ankle boots because sneakers felt too casual and heels felt too obvious. The boots made it look like sheād thought about it⦠but not like sheād planned it.
Her reflection looked pleased with herself.
She hated how much she liked that.
Nancyās voice cut through the quiet again, lighter but with an edge. āBy the way.ā
Y/N paused with her hands in her hair. āWhat?ā
Nancy sat up straighter. āI tried to say hi to Daniel Taylor today.ā
Y/Nās stomach dipped. āOkayā¦?ā
Nancyās brows lifted. āHe walked right past me.ā
Y/Nās hands fell to her sides. For a second she just stood there, staring at herself in the mirror like she might find the right response written on her own face.
Nancy watched her, a little too observant. āHe didnāt even do that awkward polite smile thing. He justāā she flicked her hand in a straight line ākept going.ā
Nancyās tone sharpened with curiosity. āSo. What did you do?ā
Y/N turned away from the mirror slowly, leaning back against the dresser again. Her cockiness from ten minutes ago faded into something more complicated.
āI didnāt do anything,ā she said first.
Nancy just looked at her.
Y/N exhaled, defeated. āOkay, fine. I did.ā
Y/Nās fingers fidgeted with the strap of her bag. āI⦠led him on.ā
Nancy blinked. āThatās it?ā
āNo,ā Y/N corrected quickly. āI mean, yes, thatās it, but itās worse than how it sounds.ā She hesitated, then said it plain because Nancy deserved the truth. āI said yes to his date because I was being petty.ā
Nancyās expression tightened. āPetty aboutā¦?ā
Y/N didnāt answer out loud. She didnāt need to.
Nancy sighed and rubbed her forehead like she was trying to erase the entire situation from existence. āY/N.ā
āI know,ā Y/N said quickly. āI know. It was mean.ā
Nancyās eyes narrowed. āSo you agreed to go out with him⦠to make Creel jealous?ā
Y/Nās voice came softer. āYes.ā
Nancy stared for a long beat, then said, flatly, āThatās awful.ā
Y/N winced. āI said I know.ā
Nancyās gaze stayed on her. āDid Daniel like you?ā They both knew the answer to that.
Y/Nās throat tightened. āYeah.ā
Nancyās expression shifted, the journalist sharpness giving way to something more human. āHow did you cancel?ā
Y/N swallowed. āI told him I couldnāt. That something came up.ā She looked down. āHe tried to act like it was fine. But it wasnāt.ā
Nancyās face tightened with sympathy despite herself. āSo heās embarrassed.ā
āProbably,ā Y/N admitted, guilt settling heavier. āAnd now he thinks I played him.ā
Nancyās voice was quieter. āDid you?ā
Y/Nās eyes stung, just a little, not enough to cry, but enough to make her blink more than once. āI didnāt mean to. Not like that. I justā¦ā She shook her head, frustrated with herself. āI wanted to prove I could. I wanted to prove I wasnātāā
Nancy watched her carefully. āYou wanted leverage.ā
Y/N let out a small, humorless laugh. āYeah.ā
Nancyās mouth pressed into a line. āSo now Danielās collateral damage.ā
Y/N nodded, ashamed. āI feel bad.ā
Nancyās eyes softened a fraction. āGood.ā
Y/N looked up sharply. āGood?ā
āYes,ā Nancy said, firm. āBecause if you didnāt feel bad, that would make you a genuinely terrible person. Youāre not. Youāre just⦠being reckless.ā
Y/Nās shoulders slumped. āI didnāt want to hurt him.ā
Nancy reached over and nudged Y/Nās ankle lightly with her foot. Not affectionate exactly, Nancy wasnāt built for that, but grounding. āThen donāt do it again.ā
Y/N nodded. āI wonāt.ā
Nancy held her gaze. āAnd if you see him, you should apologize.ā
Y/N hesitated. āHe wonāt even look at me.ā
āThen you write him a note,ā Nancy said immediately, like the answer was obvious. āYouāre good with words when youāre not using them to cause chaos.ā
Y/Nās mouth twitched. āYouāre really enjoying being morally superior right now.ā
Nancyās eyes narrowed. āI always enjoy that.ā
Y/N smiled faintly, then sobered again. āIāll do it. I will.ā
Nancy studied her for a moment, then sighed and picked her book back up, pretending she was done with the topic.
But Nancy Wheeler was never really done.
āAre you excited?ā Nancy asked, like she was asking about a normal date and not⦠whatever this was.
Y/Nās chest tightened. She looked at the mirror again, at the outfit, the hair, the gloss. At the girl trying to look confident enough to carry a secret like it weighed nothing.
āYeah,ā she admitted. āIām excited.ā
Nancyās voice went quieter. āAre you scared?ā
Y/Nās throat bobbed. āA little.ā
Nancy nodded once, accepting the honesty. āOkay.ā
Y/N turned from the mirror and stepped closer to Nancyās bed, suddenly needing the reassurance she wouldnāt ask for directly. āIāll tell you where I am. I swear.ā
Nancy looked up. āYou better.ā
Y/Nās lips curved. āYes, Mom.ā
Nancy tossed her highlighter at her. āShut up.ā
Y/N caught it, laughing softly, then set it back on Nancyās desk like a peace offering.
She grabbed her bag. Smoothed her skirt one last time. Checked her hair one last time. Took a breath that felt like stepping off a ledge.
At the door, she paused and looked back.
Nancyās eyes were on her again, watchful, protective, trying to hide it behind annoyance.
Y/Nās voice softened. āIf he calls, donāt answer the phone.ā
Nancyās brows lifted. āWho?ā
Y/Nās smile turned sly, a little dangerous. āYou know who.ā
Nancy groaned. āOh my God.ā
Y/N slipped out the door before Nancy could throw something else, her boots tapping down the hallway, heart racing, guilt still lingering about Daniel, excitement rising anyway, because whatever she was walking into tonight, it wasnāt going to be something she could pretend was normal.
And sheād dressed like she already knew it.
The sky was already turning when Henry picked her up.
Not dark yet, just that late Boston light that made brick look softer and the Charles shine like copper. Y/N waited near the edge of campus with her small shoulder bag and her corduroy skirt catching the last warmth of the day.
Henryās car rolled up clean and quiet, the kind of car that didnāt beg for attention but never looked neglected. He leaned across and pushed the passenger door open from the inside before she could reach for the handle. It was a small thing, courtesy on paper, control in practice.
Y/N slid in and shut the door. The sound sealed them into their own pocket of air.
Henryās gaze flicked to her legs, then her shoulder, then away like he was punishing himself for noticing. His hands settled at the wheel with practiced steadiness.
āYou didnāt tell me where weāre going,ā Y/N said, adjusting her skirt so it sat right.
āThat was intentional,ā Henry replied.
He started the car, glancing at her for the briefest moment. āIf you were truly suspicious, you wouldnāt have gotten in.ā
Y/N smiled, leaning back as if sheād already won. āI like a little danger.ā
Henryās mouth tightened like he disapproved. The way his eyes lingered on her bare shoulder said otherwise.
They drove out of the campus area, away from the streets that felt crowded with student energy and routine. Henry took turns like he knew the city by muscle memory. A folded paper map lived in the glove compartment. She caught the corner of it when the light hit the dash, a practical manās security blanket.
After a few minutes of silence, Henry reached for the radio.
A click. A hiss. Then a cassette slid into place with that distinctly mechanical thunk.
Music started, low, moody, not bright. Not the kind of thing anyone would blast with the windows down. More like something you listened to when you didnāt want to admit you had feelings.
Y/N turned her head to look at him. āYou made a tape.ā
Henry kept his eyes on the road. āIt was already in the car.ā
āThatās not an answer.ā
āItās not for you.ā
Y/Nās smile widened. āSo itās for me.ā
Henry shot her a warning glance that lasted half a second. āDonāt make it a bigger thing than it is.ā
āToo late,ā she murmured, pleased. āIām judging your music taste.ā
āIāve survived worse critiques.ā
They fell into a rhythm after that, soft teasing that gradually turned into something real. Y/N watched his hands when he drove. Henry watched the road like it was the safest place for his eyes to be.
After a while, she said more quietly, āSo⦠is this your idea of a date?ā
Henryās tone stayed measured. āDo you need it to look a certain way to count?ā
āNo,ā she admitted. āI just want to know what you think a date is.ā
He didnāt answer immediately. The city thinned out, trees lining the road as the light lowered. The sun bled orange along the horizon, and Henryās silence felt like him weighing the cost of honesty.
Finally, he said, āA date is time spent without an audience. Time spent with each other.ā
Y/Nās brows lifted. āThatās⦠actually kind of romantic.ā
āItās practical,ā he corrected, too quickly.
āIt can be both,ā she said.
The road curved upward, away from the busiest streets. The view opened gradually, like the world was pulling back a curtain. When Henry turned into a small gravel pull-off, Y/N realized why heād kept it to himself.
It was secluded, high enough to see the city lights beginning to blink on in the distance, far enough that no one would casually wander by. Trees framed the overlook like a private stage.
Henry parked and killed the engine. The cassette clicked off. Silence rushed in.
Y/N looked out at the horizon, then back at him. āOkay,ā she admitted, impressed. āThis is good.ā
Henry reached into the back seat without looking, pulling a paper bag and a thermos forward like heād planned the whole thing down to the minute.
āYou planned,ā Y/N accused, delighted.
āYou asked for a date,ā Henry replied, like that explained everything.
He unpacked: two sandwiches wrapped in wax paper, a small container of strawberries, a bag of chips heād probably bought resentfully, and a folded blanket that looked like it had lived in his trunk for years.
āYou have a picnic blanket,ā she said, smiling wide.
āItās for emergencies.ā
He got out first and opened her door again. The air was cooler outside, wind tugging lightly at her hair. Henry spread the blanket near the edge where the view was best but not so close it felt unsafe. When he sat, he left space beside him.
Y/N sat close anyway, shoulder brushing his arm.
Henry didnāt move away.
They ate slowly while the sun lowered. The sandwiches were simple but good, chosen by someone who cared more about function than flair. Y/N leaned back on her hands and watched the skyline shift from gold to pink to deepening purple.
For a few minutes, they didnāt talk.
The quiet wasnāt awkward. It was rare. Quiet that didnāt demand anything.
Then Y/N broke it softly. āSo. Where did you grow up?ā
Henryās gaze stayed on the horizon. āWhy?ā
āBecause I asked,ā she said, nudging his shoulder with hers. āAnd because I want to know you, remember?ā
His jaw shifted as if he was deciding whether to give her truth or a safe version of it.
āIndiana,ā he said finally.
Y/N turned, surprised. āThatās not what I pictured.ā
āWhat did you picture?ā
āā¦New England,ā she admitted. āSome broody coastal town where you read Shakespeare in a lighthouse.ā
For a second, amusement flickered across his face, brief and unwilling. Then he smoothed it away.
āI grew up in a place where people thought books were a waste of time,ā he said, quieter.
Y/N sat up, attention sharpening. āSo how did you end up like⦠this?ā
Henryās gaze moved to her face, steady. āI read because it was the only thing that didnāt disappoint me.ā
Y/Nās chest tightened. She tried to cover it with humor. āThatās dramatic.ā
The wind picked up. Y/Nās hair shifted across her cheek. Henryās hand lifted instinctively, then stopped halfway, as if heād remembered rules he didnāt want to follow.
Y/N tucked the strand behind her ear herself, watching him. āOkay. Then what book made you feel⦠seen.ā
Henryās breath changed, subtle but real. āHamlet wasnāt the first,ā he admitted.
āPeople assume it is,ā she said smugly. āBecause you look like youād write love letters in iambic pentameter.ā
āDonāt,ā he warned, but it didnāt carry much bite.
After a beat, he said, āThe Picture of Dorian Gray.ā
Y/N blinked, then smiled. āThat tracks.ā
Henryās eyes narrowed. āDoes it?ā
āIt does,ā she said, leaning in slightly. āBecause itās beautiful and horrible and about pretending youāre one thing while youāre⦠something else underneath.ā
His gaze sharpened like sheād touched a wire.
āYouāre perceptive,ā he said.
āSometimes but you knew this,ā she murmured with a small chuckle.
Henry watched her for a long beat, then shifted the conversation, carefully, like he was offering something of his own.
āWhy Emerson?ā he asked.
Y/N blinked, surprised by how serious he sounded. She couldāve given him a simple answer. She didnāt.
āBecause I wanted to be taken seriously as a writer,ā she said, voice steady. āNot in a vague, āI like booksā way. I wanted workshops. People whoād tear a draft apart and make it better.ā
Henryās expression softened slightly, attention sharpening in a different direction.
āI got my wish,ā Y/N added, a small smile tugging at her mouth, ābecause Nancy Wheeler is brutally honest about my writing.ā
That earned her a brief flicker of amusement from him. It was almost a smile. Almost.
āAnd,ā she continued, shrugging like she didnāt care even though she did, āI didnāt get accepted at my first choice.ā
Henryās eyes held hers. āWhich was?ā
āBrown,ā Y/N said plainly.
There was no self-pity in it, but the sting lived in the word anyway.
Henryās gaze didnāt pity her. It assessed, the way he assessed a strong thesis, something he respected.
āThen Emerson benefits from their mistake,ā he said.
Y/Nās throat tightened for reasons she refused to name. She looked away quickly, staring at the city lights like they were suddenly fascinating.
āSo,ā she said, regaining her bravado, āwhat else do you like, Professor? Besides tragedy and pretending you donāt care about music.ā
āCoffee,ā Henry replied.
āThatās not a personality.ā
āItās a requirement.ā
Y/N laughed and stole a strawberry, holding it up like evidence. āFood?ā
āYouāre thrilling.ā
He leaned closer, just enough that his shoulder pressed into hers, warmth cutting through the wind. āYou wanted the real me.ā
āI did,ā she said, quieter.
āThis is the real me,ā Henry replied.
She looked at him then, really looked. The control wasnāt an act. The carefulness wasnāt a mask. It was how he survived being himself.
Y/Nās voice softened. āDo you ever get tired of being⦠contained?ā
Henry stared out at the skyline. āEvery day.ā
The honesty in that tightened her chest. She didnāt tease this time.
āThatās why you like me,ā she said instead.
Henryās gaze came back to her, slow. āDonāt assume you know what I like.ā
Y/N smiled faintly. āI do.ā
The sun slipped lower until it touched the edge of the world. The sky darkened into purple. City lights glittered below like spilled coins.
Y/N leaned her head against his shoulder without asking.
Henry went still for half a second, then his arm slid behind her, not fully around, but close enough to hold her there if she stayed.
Y/Nās voice came quiet. āSo what are we?ā
āWeāre careful,ā he said.
āThatās not what I asked.ā
His gaze stayed on the horizon. āWeāre something that canāt exist where other people can see it.ā
Y/N sat up, looking at him. āThatās not fair.ā
āI donāt want to be a secret forever,ā she said, and the frustration in her voice surprised even her.
Henryās gaze turned to her, dark, controlled. āThen you shouldnāt be here.ā
The words were sharp, but his hand stayed behind her back.
He didnāt push her away.
Y/N stared at him, breathing faster. āYou keep saying things like youāre trying to scare me off.ā
āBecause you donāt understand what youāre risking.ā
āTell me,ā she said, leaning in, close enough to feel his breath.
Henry held her gaze for a long beat. āMy job. Your education. Your reputation.ā
āAnd you,ā Y/N whispered. āYouāre risking you.ā
That one was true in a way the others werenāt.
Y/N lifted her hand and touched his cheek, gentle, grounding. āI want you,ā she said. āNot the professor. Not the rules. You.ā
Henry caught her wrist, not stopping her, just holding her there. Warm. Firm. As if he needed the contact to anchor himself.
āYouāre dangerous,ā he murmured.
āSo are you,ā she replied.
His gaze dropped to her mouth.
Not like in his office: hurried, stolen.
This was slower. Deeper. Like he had time to do it right. His hand slid from her wrist to her waist, pulling her closer until the line between them blurred. Y/N kissed him back like sheād been waiting all day, fingers sliding into his hair, her body turning instinctively toward his.
Her skirt rustled softly as she moved, a tactile friction that seemed loud in the quiet evening. Driven by a sudden, desperate need to be closer, to eliminate the inch of space still between them, she shifted. She swung her leg over his, straddling his lap.Ā
Henry was warm, solid and grounding beneath her.
He groaned into her mouth, a vibration she felt straight down to her bones, and his hands immediately settled on her hips, his fingers gripping the rough fabric of her skirt to hold her in place. She deepened the kiss, her tongue tangling with his, tasting the lingering sweetness of the strawberries and the dark, musky flavor that was uniquely him. Her fingers threaded through his hair, massaging his scalp, pulling him closer as if she could fuse them together.
She pulled back slightly to catch her breath, her forehead resting against his. Her gaze drifted over his face, tracing the sharp angles she knew so well, until her eyes landed on the column of his throat. There, peeking out from the collar of his shirt, were the bruises she had left just days ago. They were faded now, the angry purple softening into a dull, mottled blue, but they were undeniably there.
A grin spread across her face, wicked and delighted.
Henry followed her gaze, then looked back at her, one eyebrow raising in a mixture of amusement and faux-annoyance. "Are you admiring your handiwork?"
"Maybe," she murmured, leaning in to press a soft kiss right over the darkest mark. "I like seeing my mark on you. Makes you look... human."
He huffed a laugh, but the sound quickly turned into a ragged inhale as she began to kiss her way down his neck, her teeth grazing the sensitive skin just below his ear. His grip on her hips tightened, his fingers digging in hard enough to bruise, pulling her flush against him. The atmosphere shifted instantly from tender to volatile.
She ground her hips down against his, the friction of her skirt and his trousers sending a jolt of electricity through both of them. He growled low in his throat, one hand sliding up her back, under the hem of her shirt, his hot palm pressing against her bare skin. The air around them felt charged, heavy with the promise of more, of losing themselves completely in each other under the fading light of the day.
Just as his hand began to drift upward, higher, the sound of tires crunching on gravel shattered the moment.
A beam of headlights swept over them, cutting through the twilight. Y/N froze, her heart leaping into her throat. Another car was winding its way up the same narrow path, likely looking for the same secluded view with which they had just been occupying.
Reluctantly, with a groan of pure frustration, Henry pulled his hand from under her shirt. He rested his forehead against her shoulder for a moment, his breathing ragged, before helping her slide off his lap and back onto the blanket. As the car drove by, they adjusted their clothes, the heat of the moment lingering on their skin, cooling rapidly in the evening breeze.
āYou wanted to know the real me,ā he murmured.
Y/Nās mouth curved, tired and bright. āIām learning.ā
He offered her the thermos like they were normal people on a normal date, and she took a sip, eyes never leaving his.
āTell me one more thing,ā she said softly.
āWhat do you want?ā Y/N asked, āwhen youāre not being careful.ā
Henry was quiet for a long time. Then, in the dark, he admitted it in a voice that barely carried.
Y/Nās chest tightened. She reached for him again, gentler this time. āā¦And do I ruin that?ā
His thumb brushed her hip, intimate in its simplicity. āYou threaten it.ā
He met her eyes. āAnd I keep choosing you anyway.ā
When he finally drove her back toward campus, he didnāt speak much.
At a payphone near the dorm, Y/N made the call sheād promised Nancy she would, short and clear: she was safe, she was coming back. Henry waited by the car, scanning the street like a man who never fully stopped being careful.
When she climbed back in, Henry glanced at her. āSatisfied?ā
Y/N smiled, eyes shining. āFor now.ā
His eyes narrowed, but the corner of his mouth lifted in something close to surrender.
And in the dark of 1987 Boston, they drove back toward a life they were pretending was normal; both of them knowing it wasnāt, and both of them choosing it anyway.
The drive back to campus was quieter than the drive out, but not in the awkward way, more like the kind of quiet that settles in after something real has happened.
Henry kept his eyes on the road, the city returning in slow layers: streetlights, brick, the occasional pair of headlights sliding past. The cassette played low in the background, a soft hiss under the music like it was trying not to intrude.
His hand stayed on Y/Nās thigh the entire time.
Not shifting. Not wandering. Just there, warm, steady, possessive in a way that didnāt ask permission anymore because it didnāt need to. Every now and then his thumb would move slightly, a small unconscious stroke against her skin through the knit of her sweater and the edge of her skirt, like his body had decided she was his to touch as long as she sat beside him.
Y/N leaned back in the seat and watched the road through the windshield, but her focus kept drifting to that hand. To the calmness of it. The certainty.
When he finally turned onto the familiar streets near Emerson, she straightened a little, like reality was tightening around them again.
Henry slowed near her dorm and pulled over, not directly under the brightest light, but close enough to be safe. He turned the car off. The engine ticked as it cooled. The sudden quiet made the moment feel too intimate again.
His hand stayed on her thigh anyway.
Y/N turned to him. In the dim dashboard light, his face looked softer than it ever did in the classroom: still controlled, still careful, but not as distant.
āI had a nice time tonight,ā she said.
Henryās gaze flicked to her mouth, then back to her eyes. āGood.ā
Y/N smiled, small and genuine. āI like being with you.ā
Henryās jaw tightened, like the sentence hit somewhere he didnāt want it to. He stared through the windshield for a beat, as if he could avoid answering by looking at the dormitory windows.
Then he looked back at her.
āI like being with you too,ā he admitted.
It came out reluctant in tone, like he was trying to sound unimpressed, but his eyes gave him away. There was nothing reluctant about the way he watched her react, like he wanted to see what the words did to her.
Y/Nās smile warmed, her cheeks lifting in a way she couldnāt fake. She glanced around the street: dark sidewalks, a couple of distant students, nothing close enough to matter.
Then she leaned over and kissed his cheek.
Soft. Quick. Sweet enough to feel dangerous.
Henry went still for half a second, then his eyes narrowed as he turned his head slightly toward her, like heād wanted more but refused to ask for it.
āYouāre going to get bold,ā he murmured.
Y/Nās grin turned mischievous. āIāve been bold.ā
Henryās hand finally lifted from her thigh, but not without a last lingering squeeze, small, almost absentminded, before he let her go.
āGo,ā he said, quiet.
āYes, sir,ā Y/N teased, and slid out of the car.
She shut the door gently, then looked back through the window. Henry was still watching her. He didnāt wave. He didnāt smile. But his gaze tracked her until she stepped up onto the dorm steps.
Only then did she turn and disappear inside.
The dorm hallway smelled like old carpet and somebodyās microwaved noodles. The overhead lights hummed. Voices echoed from behind doors: laughter, music, someone arguing about a paper.
Y/N walked down the hall with her bag tucked under her arm, cheeks still warm, hair a little messier than it had been when she left.
When she pushed into their room, Nancy was there, sitting on her bed with her typewriter on the desk and a stack of papers beside her like sheād been preparing to interrogate her for hours.
Nancy looked up immediately.
Y/N tried to play it cool, but the smile betrayed her before she even had the chance.
Nancyās eyes narrowed. āOh.ā
Y/N dropped her bag on her bed. āHi.ā
Nancy shut her book with a deliberate thump. āYou lookā¦ā She squinted. āAnnoyingly happy.ā
Y/N laughed softly and kicked off her boots. āDonāt start.ā
Nancy leaned back on her hands, watching Y/N move around the room. āIām not starting. Iām observing.ā
Y/N went to the dresser, pulled out a sleep shirt, and started unhooking her earrings. She could feel Nancyās gaze like a spotlight.
āHow did it go?ā Nancy asked, too casual to be believable.
Y/N paused, then turned with that same small genuine smile still on her face, less smug than usual, more settled.
āIt was great,ā she said quietly.
Nancy blinked once, like she hadnāt expected that tone. āGreat how.ā
Y/N exhaled, sitting down on the edge of her bed. She brushed her hair back from her face, still riding that soft afterglow that wasnāt just physical.
āWe talked,ā she said. āLike⦠actually talked.ā
Nancyās brows lifted. āYou had a conversation with Henry Creel.ā
Y/N smiled wider. āShut up.ā
Nancyās mouth twitched. āWhat did you talk about?ā
āEverything,ā Y/N admitted. āWhere he grew up. Books. Why Iām here. Music.ā She hesitated, then added, more honestly than sheād meant to, āIt felt normal. In a way.ā
Nancyās expression softened a fraction, but she didnāt let it get too tender. āAnd?ā
Y/Nās voice went quieter. āI think⦠I thought at first it was just sex.ā
Nancyās eyes stayed on her, attentive now.
āI mean,ā Y/N rushed, slightly embarrassed, āobviously I wanted him. And he wanted me. That part was⦠obvious after weā¦ā Her cheeks warmed. āBut tonightā¦ā She stopped, searching for the right words. āTonight made it feel like more than that.ā
Nancy studied her face like she was reading a headline. āYou like him.ā
Y/N swallowed. Then, like ripping off a bandage, she said it plainly.
āYeah,ā she admitted. āI do.ā
Nancyās expression didnāt turn judgmental. It turned thoughtful.
āYouāve dated guys,ā Nancy said slowly, like she was choosing her words carefully. āAnd youāve always seemed⦠bored. Or irritated. Or like you were waiting for them to disappoint you so you could be right about it.ā
Y/Nās brows lifted. āThatās⦠harsh.ā
Nancy shrugged. āItās true.ā
Y/N couldnāt even argue.
Nancy continued, quieter now. āBut youāve been⦠happier. Lately.ā
Y/Nās throat tightened. āHave I?ā
Nancy nodded once, firmly. āYeah. You have.ā Then, because Nancy Wheeler could never leave sincerity alone too long, she added, āItās disgusting.ā
Y/N laughed, relief breaking through. āYouāre such an asshole.ā
Nancyās lips twitched. āSomeone has to be.ā
Y/N stood and started getting ready for bed, washing her face at the sink down the hall, changing into her sleep shirt, pulling her hair up loosely. The motions felt familiar and safe, like she was returning to herself.
When she came back, Nancy was still watching her.
āYouāre smiling again,ā Nancy pointed out.
Y/N froze, then realized she was.
She tried to wipe it off her face. It didnāt work.
Nancy rolled her eyes. āJust⦠be careful.ā
Y/Nās smile softened. āI know.ā
Nancy didnāt respond right away. She just watched Y/N climb into bed, the dorm room dimming as the lamp clicked off and the hallway noise faded into background hum.
After a beat, Nancy spoke into the dark.
āYou better tell me if he ever hurts you.ā
Y/Nās chest tightened. She stared at the ceiling, then whispered, āOkay.ā
Nancy didnāt let the quiet sit for long.
āBecause,ā she added, voice flat like she was stating a fact for the record, āI know how to use a shotgun.ā
Y/Nās head turned on the pillow so fast her neck popped. āWhat?ā
Nancyās silhouette barely moved in the darkness, but Y/N could hear the shrug in her tone. āAnd Iām not afraid to shoot an asshole in the face.ā
Y/N stared at the ceiling like it might explain what universe sheād just slipped into. Then, in a small, disbelieving mumble, she said, āJesus, Nance. Seriously?ā
āSeriously,ā Nancy replied without hesitation.
Y/N let out a breath that sounded half laugh, half panic. āOkay. Noted.ā
āGood,ā Nancy said, satisfied.
Y/N blinked up at the dark, heart still too full, too fast. āRemind me never to piss you off.ā
Nancyās voice went dry again, like she couldnāt resist. āYou already have. You survived. Donāt push your luck.ā
Y/N huffed softly, but the tightness in her chest eased because under the threat and the sarcasm was Nancyās version of love, blunt as a headline and just as protective.
Nancyās voice was quieter now, almost reluctant. āAnd⦠Iām glad you had a good time.ā
Y/N smiled into the darkness, warm and real.
āMe too,ā she whispered.
And for the first time in a while, when she closed her eyes, she didnāt feel restless.
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