My Mind

I like to pretend like I’ve come to terms with the fact that no one will ever be in love with me

Imagine being special to someone.. I’ve actually seen how people get excited for someone else to arrive. Like they do a little dance and jump up and stuff. That’s gotta be the best feeling ever.

I want to say things but I know no one cares so this works for me. At least I can pretend im pressing send. Somehow that makes it feel better for now. It’s been like 6 months.. things are moving along but not really. My life feels stagnant and I’m starting to feel like I deserve it. Maybe I was an asshole at some point.. atleast I got to wear a real smile for a little

1 maybe 2 years and everyone would forget.

What’s it like to be loved? I bet it’s nice. It has to be, it looks like it is. I mean if just watching someone else be loved makes us humans feel something the person actually receiving it must actually feel it. It’s meant for them after all... maybe that’s why we feel like we shouldn’t look when couples are having their moment. It’s their love to share not for us to take.. it’s selfish but we can’t help to get some of that good feeling for ourselves. For some of us it’s the only way we get to experience it..

Maybe some people are meant to live their lives alone...