Oaky

This keeps happening, and I just can't dodge it.

I can be going through hunger, but I'm fine if my love relationship is fine.

My hobby is watching, reading or contemplating couples, I like to see them grow and reach stillness together.

I dislike break-ups, and I also don't like when they betray one another's feelings and stuff like that.

An old-school kind of couple lover.

Every time I had to break up, it was hard. For me. And everytime I broke up, I though to myself "oh well time time to become a monk". And I'm dead serious.

Sadness came along every single time.

Loneliness too.

And so did a feeling of not being complete.

Now I'm in a incredibly well stablished relationship, for four years, and I believe I finally get to have my "Happily Ever After".

But the funny thing is that I also realized I don't have to be alone to work in myself as a very dedicated homeschooled lone-learner monk(ess?)

Away with the jokes, there's one important thing that we must learn about couples. And never forget.

Whoever your partner is, just know that he's there. And you're there. It seems obvious, but we forget what the consequences of this are.

You are there. You are not your partner, and so he is not you. What you want may differ from what he/she wants.

Your partner is there. For you, with you. They can and will help you, but won't be you. Be considerate and do what you alone can do.

You two are together. And two are better than one. But two separate ones are just annoying to each other.

It's simple and obvious. But lots of people don't know any of this.

Even if you started out with about three to four people you care in your life, get ready for that number to narrow down.

They will judge, betray, envy, indulge your spoils and laugh at your disgrace.

Your misfortune will be their dessert on special dinners.

They'll be mean to you just cause.

Kick you out when you're just not profitable anymore.

When you need, they'll be too bussy to care.

And with age, it only gets harder. Like a pimple. You are left there while you can leave a wound if they take you off, but they'll trash you as soon as you've "matured".

You can either care or not about it though.

The same way you are not the life you live, also no one can be who you are.

So what can I say.

Get dissapointed. Get stressed out. Go cry in your bed when you get home. Fight them if you will. Sometimes, leave those who really just don't like you anymore. It's alright because even if it gets tougher each day, life is there to be lived. And you're the only one who can do that.

It sounds cliche, but you only have one life to live. So why not?

We tend to think that things are permanent. Relationships. Houses. Jobs. Things. Well it's really not. But it can be, while you're still alive.

Isn't it wonderful?

You're alive! That means you can do stuff. Just gotta make it happen you know?

And about the others? Well I don't know, maybe they just don't matter really.

Now that I think about it, I feel pretty amazing being me.

My forces are restored. I'm ready to meet people's insensibility again. Mine too.