The Lazy Yogi

Not because they reveal anything true about you, but because it is through your fears that you will learn vulnerability and authenticity.

For the past 17 days I’ve been doing a daily meditation using the Medito app as part of a 30‑day challenge. The intermittent voice prompts are really helpful; they bring my focus back whenever my mind wanders.

I’ve always avoided apps or videos for meditation, so I feel a bit like I’m cheating. At first I used noise‑cancelling headphones, but now I’m switching to just the phone’s speaker so I can get used to external sounds and possible distractions.

My ultimate goal is to stop using the app once the 30‑day challenge is over.

What do you think? Is this a good approach to getting back into meditation? The app is well designed—it offers breathing exercises, body scans, compassion meditations, etc.

I also listen to a great Tibetan‑bowl track and’m considering buying a physical bowl, though I’m not sure how to use it. I was thinking of ringing it at the beginning and end of the session so it doesn’t interrupt the middle.

Thanks in advance for your advice!

Hi friend! So sorry for the delay in my response.

Anything that helps you towards a daily meditation practice is a blessing. Using an app is not cheating at all. The only reason why I never used apps is simply because they did not exist when I first began daily meditation 😅

As you continue in your daily practice, your mind will become more and more settled. Eventually having any prompts will disturb your inner stillness rather than guide you toward it. When that starts to happen, you can transition to silent meditation.

I recommend sticking to one particular meditation technique for your daily practice, at least for a few weeks. Outside of that daily practice, feel free to experiment with anything else in addition to it. It takes time and repetition in order to find out how a meditation technique will effect you, what benefits it yields and what growth it offers.

Tibetan singing bowls are lovely and cool. If their sound and presence moves your mind and heart towards peace, freedom, and happiness, then all the better.

Much love!

Nah that’s why I said “I don’t know who needs to hear this..”

Idk who needs to hear this but my advice is to be cautious, wary, and restrained for the time being.

Tasty drinks, delicious food, time spent with friends, all while accompanied by my lovely fiancée.

Now, I am leaving room for a clear vision of 38 to emerge.

at different times, your advise has helped me a lot. I'm hoping you'd have some wisdom to share with me this time. How do I deal with being a hypochondriac and fearing my own mortality? how do I not spiral and think to the very extreme and convince myself that I have abcd etc... I love life but I don't want to love it too much where it prevents me from being in the moment and worrying about an uncertain future. thank you for answering this!

Hello my friend,

Human life is a terminal condition. Whether we live a life of health and wellbeing or a life shortened by illness, a definitive end awaits us all.

This is certain regarding the human body and human mind.

Regardless of whether we experience a healthy body or a body that houses illness, we all experience the feeling "I exist."

This feeling does not come from the body or the mind. If you trace this feeling to its source, you will discover a reality you have never been separate from.

In nondual Buddhist philosophy, such as Dzogchen and Mahamudra, this is sometimes called Unborn Awareness. I had heard this term long ago but it never clicked for me until a shroom trip just after college.

The fundamental aspect of ourselves, the feeling of existence, was never born. It has never taken on any kind of form or sensation. In that sense it has no beginning and no ending. That which is without birth is also without death.

What we experience, every form and sensation, is ever-changing and impermanent. But that unborn awareness ever is.

Later on during my medical training, I learned how scientists and therapists were using psilocybin to guide patients with terminal diagnoses through the fear, suffering, and anxiety regarding their death. The results were profound and long-lasting. This made a great deal of sense to me given my own experience with psilocybin.

That being said, this is not me recommending you take psilocybin! That same day I had this profound shroom insight, my friend who had also taken shrooms was running around laughing and crying for no reason. I attribute my insight to the fact that I had been practicing daily meditation for years before trying psilocybin.

My point in bringing it up here is just to emphasize that you must go inward towards the source.

What you’re describing isn’t really about illness—it’s about the mind trying to create certainty in the face of uncertainty, and spiraling when it can’t. You’re not afraid of dying in those moments—you’re afraid of the thoughts and sensations that suggest you might be.

Even in the middle of fear, there is something in you that is simply aware of it. That awareness itself isn’t panicking.

When you feel yourself spiraling, don’t argue with the thoughts. Shift your attention to the raw sensation in the body—tightness, heat, pressure—and stay with it without labeling it. The spiral feeds on interpretation.

There is no switch to flip, only your own fears and neuroses to work through. Daily meditation practice will be the foundation that supports and advances your path.

I also recommend you read The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle and The Places That Scare You by Pema Chodron. Two very helpful texts.

I exercise six days a week and shepherd my health not because I expect to live forever but because I wish to live long enough to realize enlightenment in this life.

May you be free from fear and suffering; may you realize the peace of reality within you.

Much love,

I kept the pieces! I'm planning to have someone repair it who is experienced with kintsugi.

I'll post pictures once repaired 😁